WORRIED WHERE ARE GUYS LOVE YSPEARING
Yspering,
Do ya think I'll ever get your name right? How about anything right?
Well I just wanted to thank you so much for your concern, although I am feeling unworthy of it and just about anything...
Im just in a mood and a half, and of course not knowing how to handle ANGER, I resumed my usual way of self medicating, which for some reason today is only making things worse...Maybe I am at the end of this rotten, stupid, nasty, ugly, horrible, costly, life threating,self impossed, insidious addiction..I can feel it, and it's gonna be one way or the other, and today, I really don't care which way it goes..
Well im too Evil for words tonight..
I have been reading tonight, although I haven't been here for a couple days, cause , (for Me) not like I need another excuse, but for me it was starting to be yet another trigger for me to do pills...Now figure that out!!! Sick Sick Me..
Thank you to all.Sincerely
I am not trying but Im not lying..
This Friggin Pride of mine will bury me Im sure..
Again, I want to thank everyone here for their honesty and support.
I so admire all of you who have stopped using, and hope that all who are still fighting this battle will find their way to the light>
Love and Hugs.
Di
Do ya think I'll ever get your name right? How about anything right?
Well I just wanted to thank you so much for your concern, although I am feeling unworthy of it and just about anything...
Im just in a mood and a half, and of course not knowing how to handle ANGER, I resumed my usual way of self medicating, which for some reason today is only making things worse...Maybe I am at the end of this rotten, stupid, nasty, ugly, horrible, costly, life threating,self impossed, insidious addiction..I can feel it, and it's gonna be one way or the other, and today, I really don't care which way it goes..
Well im too Evil for words tonight..
I have been reading tonight, although I haven't been here for a couple days, cause , (for Me) not like I need another excuse, but for me it was starting to be yet another trigger for me to do pills...Now figure that out!!! Sick Sick Me..
Thank you to all.Sincerely
I am not trying but Im not lying..
This Friggin Pride of mine will bury me Im sure..
Again, I want to thank everyone here for their honesty and support.
I so admire all of you who have stopped using, and hope that all who are still fighting this battle will find their way to the light>
Love and Hugs.
Di
Dear Diana, you'll find your way too. I think maybe we all felt like you do before we stopped using. You have to get really sick of it all, and it looks like you're pretty close. Sometimes when you're where you are at right now, it's hard to see how it could be.......does that make sense? It's really worth it. I got so tired of waking up every morning fretting over pills, but I stayed tired of it a long time before I did anything about it. You're getting ready, you wouldn't be here if you weren't. Much love and God bless, Kat
TO MY DIANE GIVE YOURSELF a break you very smart your words are so strong.your something else in a good way Ilove your words i feel like its easy to loveeeeee those pills the give energy when get them i get excited to . and than hate myself for this false high im getting them again over the internet god they give them candy thats badddddddd . im in the boat scared and weak i pray one day for sobriy love yspearing im as alone as you my freind........
Don't give up, Diane -- we'll be with you when you're ready again. Peace, M.
