To Miss Kat.....

I was doing some of my daily readings and read this one & wanted to share with you....could you share with me your interpretation of this one as I really value your opinions...
xoxo

A Reading On
"We Cannot Stand Still"

In the first days of A.A., I wasn't much bothered about the areas of life in which I was standing still. There was always the alibi: "After all," I said to myself, "I'm far too busy with much more important matters." That was my near perfect prescription for comfort and complacency.

How many of us would presume to declare, "Well, I'm sober and I'm happy. What more can I want, or do? I'm fine the way I am." We know that the price of such self-satisfaction is an inevitable backslide, punctuated at some point by a very rude awakening. We have to grow or else deteriorate. For us, the status quo can only be for today, never for tomorrow. Change we must; we cannot stand still.

---From As Bill Sees It, page 25


Hello Miss Kat,

They don't some any better then you. You know how I love you! Talk to you soon!

Love,
Beck
Well, Miss Stacey. I interpret that as watch out for complacency. I think that's what you are trying to tell me. But you really don't have to. I am not getting complacent. Lazy maybe, but not complacent. It is impossible to work where I work and take recovery for granted. It is definitely something to be nurtured and cherished. Yeah, I'll skip a meeting from time to time with some bs excuse but I have sponsees that are quick to point out to me when I am doing something I have warned them about. I am still in the middle of AA with service and such so as long as I am not shirking my responsibilities and my sponsor is not breathing down my neck I'm ok.
Or was this not all about me? <EG>
This is great, kat I don't think this was about you honey. lol

But I would also like your views on it, taking you out of the equation. Seriously.
Ok. I see a lot of people in AA that put other things before their recovery and go back out. Especially here at work. There is a guy that I like a lot. I think he's been here 4 times. He gets a job. He gets a car. He gets a girl. He gets a home. He gets high. Right now he's sitting in jail. He says "I got it this time" but he doesn't seem to understand that recovery is not about stuff. It's about what's inside. Too many people think they would be happy if they got their stuff back. Then they wouldn't need meetings or steps or sponsors. But I see them get "better" and forget where they came from. And inevitably go back out.
The reason for my previous post was that Stacey and I had been emailing a little on the topic and I guess I have a guilty conscience. In early sobriety I went to at least 2 meetings a day. I wasn't working and had nothing else to do. And I needed recovery badly. Slowly I have cut to 2-3 meetings a week and I don't feel right about it. I just can't decide which meeting to add so I'm adding none. So, yeah, I am feeling guilty about complacency BUT am aware of it. And everything after but is bulls***.
OMG, all about you??? Why would it be all about you when it's all about me...hmmm, maybe when you read it, you read it different than I because the way I read it, it was all about me...I was the one that put the alcohol down quite a few 24hrs ago (which I shared with you) and since I no longer celebrate that birthday, because I did get complacenent, got "cured" from alcohol and quit going to meetings, I fell into a whole new hell of addiction....

So, my friend, maybe that post is for all of us? But for me, I cannot afford to become complacent because I fear going back to the insanity that I came from...

Thank you for sharing what you did...I could relate to your friend, a little too much...

With all the respect you know I have for you,
xoxo
Stacey
Oops. Wrong Kat. Not that you're not special too 12step Kat. You are! Just didn't realize it was addressed to you.
Beck