To Mummy Christina Robbie ...

Hey, its me again and it took a long time to actually find time to log on. I only can say thank you very much for your help and replay. It's now may and in july Iam flying to london to visit my son. I havent heard from him since beginning of April but Iam praying he is doing fine. If I found out that he ended up in jail I will be to happy for him, which sounds cruel but at least it is eurpa jail not south african and that he will have no money to buy any drugs. On the other side I would be so happy seeing him doing well on its own in england. Often I wished I could bring back the time where he was just my normal average son, doing fine at school, friends, enjoyed life ... . But I cant. Thinking back Iam still upsat about my husband who is a wonderful dad to our children. I really find it hard to forgive and accept that his way of dealing was ignoring me than all what I wanted was emotional support. But anyway I still read once in a while conversations between people and mayby is sounds stupid but could please somebody explain to me what cold turky means? In the meantime Iam reading a lot about using heroin/cocain and looking at the books I wonder how Alex will do without family in uk. Can he actually sort him out on his own and come of drugs on his own with no family help? Each time he is phoning or emailing I do tell him that I miss him but I do not miss all drugbehavior problems, like worrying if he is not home what happened to him, looking for him, searching places where he could be, beeing scared of each car which enter our streat (could be police?) his stealing and lying ... . As I sat in july Iam going over and hope for the best not sure what to do if he is struggling, should I leave him, bring him back? I do realy not know what to do, any advise?
.. Alright Carola ..
.. Cold turkey is when you stop taking gear and go into withdrawals without taking anything for the withdrawals.. just litrally getting the toxins outta ya body..yes its rough to do it that way but when you do come outta the other side ya dont have to spend the next few years on methadone/subutex..wotever way sumone decides to come off heroin..there are good n bad ways to it all..cold turkey is rough but once ya over it its just the keeping clean part that comes into play..sumone could decide to go on methadone/subutex because they dont wanna go thru withdrawals that way..but they're stuck on meth/subs for ages trying to get off that..so it works both ways ?..it dose'nt matter where in the world you are carola..a person will only stop using heroin when they want to ?..to be honest if ya son wanted to find sum gear to use he will find it even if he dose'nt know anyone in england..if ya wanted sumfin bad enough you will find it sumwhere,sumhow,sumway ?..i do wish ya luck when you come over ere to see ya son and hope hes doing ok..but you'll only know that when you see him for yaself face 2 face..take care ..Robbie..
..Edit to say..I dunno wot ya shud do regarding wether or not to bring ya son back..only you can really decide that on wots best for all of ya..