HELLO I HAVENT HEARD FROM YOU FOR AWHILE HOW ARE YOU GIYS I MISS YOU LOVE YSPEARING
Hey there... I was on a business trip in the Virgin Islands and I couldn't get the internet to work on St Croix or on St Thomas. I figured everyone here would probably think I relapsed, but I was working my butt off (but did manage to spend 2 days snorkeling, swimming, boat riding, etc.... so I can't complain).
I'm just now going through all the posts that I've missed.... there are A LOT over the last 8 days.
How are things with you?
I'm just now going through all the posts that I've missed.... there are A LOT over the last 8 days.
How are things with you?
Hey there Yspearing,
How are you doing??? I've been gone for a week but am back. Life is busy with alot of medical tests and stuff right now. Yuck. Oh well, as long as life keeps showing up each day I'll try not to complain. How are you feeling these days? Are you clearing up some and getting your energy back. Be patient my friend. Keep hainging on. Tell me how you are.
Hugs,
PM
How are you doing??? I've been gone for a week but am back. Life is busy with alot of medical tests and stuff right now. Yuck. Oh well, as long as life keeps showing up each day I'll try not to complain. How are you feeling these days? Are you clearing up some and getting your energy back. Be patient my friend. Keep hainging on. Tell me how you are.
Hugs,
PM
hello thank you for repely im gald for are you going to med school; IM NOT DOING SO GOOD IHAVE AJOB INTERVEIW AT THE CARE HOME . STILL TAKING PILLS IM GOING TO A MEETING WITH MY SPOUSE ABOUT MY PROBLEM BUT I WENT FROM 25 TO 4..5 PILLS ADAY SO I GUESS THATS IMPROVEMENT, IM TRYING LOVE BOTH OF YOU GUYS yspearing
yspearing,
Med. school? hmmmmm. I think it is good to go to a meeting. Yes it is great you have weaned down. That is not easy at all. Are you to a point where it is too hard to come down further??? Slowly. Weaning is difficult yspearing. Do not beat yourself up. Now sounds like the time to build more your support and meetings sound like a great start. Let us know how it goes.
Love,
PM
Med. school? hmmmmm. I think it is good to go to a meeting. Yes it is great you have weaned down. That is not easy at all. Are you to a point where it is too hard to come down further??? Slowly. Weaning is difficult yspearing. Do not beat yourself up. Now sounds like the time to build more your support and meetings sound like a great start. Let us know how it goes.
Love,
PM
Yspearing,
Just finishing up for tonight, will probably take a break tomorrow...
I just read one of your posts in which you stated you went from 25 to 4..My God thats Really Great!!! I mean Huge...
How do you feel? I know for me, even the first day that I cut back I felt better.Not Great but Better..Just even made me feel good knowing that I did have some control,as meger as it was.
I was surprised to find that I really had enough energy to do what I needed to do instead of racing around doing really nothing too productive..
Im hoping this is the end for me...I think Im hoping that>>>I do know that this may be my last chance at getting the Methadone without going inpatient, so I hope I have enough sense to use it wisely and get my butt to meetings for the support I need..
Im pretty convinced Now that there is No Way I am gonna Stop and stay Stopped on my own...
I have been in and out of the rooms for just about 3 years now, and honestly I enjoy the meetings...I mean even the worst one was better than me sitting at home with my own thoughts...
This time around Im hoping also I have enough sense to get a sponsor..That will be hard for me cause I hate anyone telling me what to do..But I sure as hell am not going a good job managing my own thoughts and feelings, myaswell let someone who may know what they are doing take over..I think me being Clean without a sponsor and support is like me getting into a jet and just taking off..
Although the odds of me figuring out the jet thing are better than me trying to live with what little knowledge I have about living life on life's terms...
All this fear, and of what??? I don't seem to have any fear of overdosing..or blowing my liver out..or like any other addict, going into places where I could seriously get hurt..Fearless.. Yet there were times when I isolated for so long that I had fear just walking into a store.. Pathetic....
And what to do with all these feelings ???How will I manage ?
Well I just gotta try it...I just may like Me....I think so...I hope so..I almost know so..
Well it's the end of yet another day using. and of course I have all good intentions Now...yeah now that the day is over..
Well at least Im here..I guess I could be vegging on the sofa w/ no good input at all...Baby Steps...
Gotta Go..
Thank you for being here.
Hope you are well.
Post or e-mail me if you can. Phillysladydi@aol.com
Love and Hugs
Di
Just finishing up for tonight, will probably take a break tomorrow...
I just read one of your posts in which you stated you went from 25 to 4..My God thats Really Great!!! I mean Huge...
How do you feel? I know for me, even the first day that I cut back I felt better.Not Great but Better..Just even made me feel good knowing that I did have some control,as meger as it was.
I was surprised to find that I really had enough energy to do what I needed to do instead of racing around doing really nothing too productive..
Im hoping this is the end for me...I think Im hoping that>>>I do know that this may be my last chance at getting the Methadone without going inpatient, so I hope I have enough sense to use it wisely and get my butt to meetings for the support I need..
Im pretty convinced Now that there is No Way I am gonna Stop and stay Stopped on my own...
I have been in and out of the rooms for just about 3 years now, and honestly I enjoy the meetings...I mean even the worst one was better than me sitting at home with my own thoughts...
This time around Im hoping also I have enough sense to get a sponsor..That will be hard for me cause I hate anyone telling me what to do..But I sure as hell am not going a good job managing my own thoughts and feelings, myaswell let someone who may know what they are doing take over..I think me being Clean without a sponsor and support is like me getting into a jet and just taking off..
Although the odds of me figuring out the jet thing are better than me trying to live with what little knowledge I have about living life on life's terms...
All this fear, and of what??? I don't seem to have any fear of overdosing..or blowing my liver out..or like any other addict, going into places where I could seriously get hurt..Fearless.. Yet there were times when I isolated for so long that I had fear just walking into a store.. Pathetic....
And what to do with all these feelings ???How will I manage ?
Well I just gotta try it...I just may like Me....I think so...I hope so..I almost know so..
Well it's the end of yet another day using. and of course I have all good intentions Now...yeah now that the day is over..
Well at least Im here..I guess I could be vegging on the sofa w/ no good input at all...Baby Steps...
Gotta Go..
Thank you for being here.
Hope you are well.
Post or e-mail me if you can. Phillysladydi@aol.com
Love and Hugs
Di
