You both have mail. :-)
Ladies, I get very frustrated with that s***mail account, I'm just going to use this board. (this is me now throwing up my hands and pulling my hair out ) LOL
ww- totally understand as sometimes this is just more simple but i just want to know if you got mine about your/my grandmother's name(s)....? important to our connection i think.- jo
Yes ! Very cool ! I replied, did you get it ! ? :-)
nope not yet but hope i do.... i'll let you know. -jo
ww- never got it:( please resend if you can deal with it.... if not post what you can here???
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well folks it is day 30 for me, or maybe it's 31 i can't figure but at this point what is the point in going backwards...? don't feel all that great but you say it get's better, i gotta believe because i really, really don't want to go back to the old ways. i miss the warm fuzzies and that is all. the motivation which i do muster is the worst. and getting away from myself. but turning in to myself and away from my family was no good. this is better even if i am uncomfortable in my skin.
tis easy to call the weed dude but i'm not going to. i think i'll just work here and clean the home as i promised my husband who is taking our daughter to the zoo so i can do it without hassle.... at the end of the day i'll be 'proud' that i did it this way.
i have to catch up on reading all these threads too.
i don't drink coffee usually but i think i will today.... i'm totally blah....and need an honest jumpstart to get going.
-jo
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well folks it is day 30 for me, or maybe it's 31 i can't figure but at this point what is the point in going backwards...? don't feel all that great but you say it get's better, i gotta believe because i really, really don't want to go back to the old ways. i miss the warm fuzzies and that is all. the motivation which i do muster is the worst. and getting away from myself. but turning in to myself and away from my family was no good. this is better even if i am uncomfortable in my skin.
tis easy to call the weed dude but i'm not going to. i think i'll just work here and clean the home as i promised my husband who is taking our daughter to the zoo so i can do it without hassle.... at the end of the day i'll be 'proud' that i did it this way.
i have to catch up on reading all these threads too.
i don't drink coffee usually but i think i will today.... i'm totally blah....and need an honest jumpstart to get going.
-jo
congratulations girlfriend! How long has it been that you have gone 30 days? If we were in a group you would get a chip. If you were here I would give you a wilting leaf to my rubber tree plant. Maybe i will send one thru land mail. lol.
my goal is to figure out how to do this damn avatar/image thing, it is kicking my a**.
It is raining today, i am going to take it easy, a friend gave me some movies and i am going to dope up on meds and lie in bed most of the day. well that is the goal as long as the steroids allow it. they are titrated today to only 3 pills so i should be able to swing it. the kids stayed with mom last night and should be home anytime.
i have so much paperwork i am behind on for work, but i just dont know when it is going to get done, was supposed to do it over the holidays. not done yet.
have a great day.
oh yes, i did check out your site, i love it, cant wait to revisit, i saw it at work and didnt get to spend a whole lot of time there. i was very impressed. may want you to do some stuff for me. !!!!
my goal is to figure out how to do this damn avatar/image thing, it is kicking my a**.
It is raining today, i am going to take it easy, a friend gave me some movies and i am going to dope up on meds and lie in bed most of the day. well that is the goal as long as the steroids allow it. they are titrated today to only 3 pills so i should be able to swing it. the kids stayed with mom last night and should be home anytime.
i have so much paperwork i am behind on for work, but i just dont know when it is going to get done, was supposed to do it over the holidays. not done yet.
have a great day.
oh yes, i did check out your site, i love it, cant wait to revisit, i saw it at work and didnt get to spend a whole lot of time there. i was very impressed. may want you to do some stuff for me. !!!!
jamv- are you feeling better???
i still could go back to bed but i'm not. hubbie is out with the kid and i'm doing what i promised. another part of my recovery. he used to take her out and i'd be pushing them out the door. i had other reasons to want to be alone. now .... i just need the space and quiet to work and clean up here. relentless mess. i went to bed it was all tidy. woke up and it was all undone. amazing what one kid can do.
someday with a bigger home like you have...... ahhhh to close a door to a playroom .....
well now my clean time goal is to bring in the new year without regret. that's a long time goal but let's see shall we??? usually it's a push and pull and i spend new years day a wreck. maybe this holiday season and new year i can be clear and without internal chaos.
lordy i really don't want to go back to my weed lifestyle. ech.
the smell of room spray and plotting time alone. wasting time... my life.
the buddhists say:
ten thousand flowers in spring.
the moon in autumn,
a cool breeze in summer,
snow in winter:
if your mind isn't clouded by
unnecessary things,
this is the best season of your life.
i try to keep that in mind - taped to my bedroom mirror!
-jo
i still could go back to bed but i'm not. hubbie is out with the kid and i'm doing what i promised. another part of my recovery. he used to take her out and i'd be pushing them out the door. i had other reasons to want to be alone. now .... i just need the space and quiet to work and clean up here. relentless mess. i went to bed it was all tidy. woke up and it was all undone. amazing what one kid can do.
someday with a bigger home like you have...... ahhhh to close a door to a playroom .....
well now my clean time goal is to bring in the new year without regret. that's a long time goal but let's see shall we??? usually it's a push and pull and i spend new years day a wreck. maybe this holiday season and new year i can be clear and without internal chaos.
lordy i really don't want to go back to my weed lifestyle. ech.
the smell of room spray and plotting time alone. wasting time... my life.
the buddhists say:
ten thousand flowers in spring.
the moon in autumn,
a cool breeze in summer,
snow in winter:
if your mind isn't clouded by
unnecessary things,
this is the best season of your life.
i try to keep that in mind - taped to my bedroom mirror!
-jo
Thanks for posting that JoJo.
I wanted to share that I volunteered as a support worker for women going through post partum depression. One of things I had learned (having gone through PPD myself) in training as well, was to tell the women to ask for what you need. From your spouse, from your friends, from your parents, etc. Even though we are all past the point of any PPD, I still think it's great advice. :-)
Sounds like you both are asking for what you need.
I smile when I think one time I asked my husband, after several weeks of practicing self-care, with "I need."
I said, "I need to have a fifteen minute time out in my room, alone, baby."
And he said, "And I need you to stop needing so much."
He made me laugh so hard.....
I wanted to share that I volunteered as a support worker for women going through post partum depression. One of things I had learned (having gone through PPD myself) in training as well, was to tell the women to ask for what you need. From your spouse, from your friends, from your parents, etc. Even though we are all past the point of any PPD, I still think it's great advice. :-)
Sounds like you both are asking for what you need.
I smile when I think one time I asked my husband, after several weeks of practicing self-care, with "I need."
I said, "I need to have a fifteen minute time out in my room, alone, baby."
And he said, "And I need you to stop needing so much."
He made me laugh so hard.....
i broke down myself and had some coffee today, just 2 small cups and it tasted so good. I am so screwed up inside. i have this terrible anxiety and my wife says i look terrible. and i feel terrible. last night i came home and was wound up from this party, really was the first time my wife and i attended a party like this, and we couldn't sleep until 12:15am, then we both woke up at 2 and i was up till 5 or 6 and out of bed at 8a.
i went cross country skiing today actually in marginal conditions, but it was fun. and i might hit it again at dark. exercise and sweating always makes me feel better.
i was taking these blood pressure pills, but now i don't even want to take them, i'm so sick of this chemical stuff, and wowser, i read that pain pill board and that is pure hell compared to my problems. i read somewhere that all of your cells get replaced every few years, and maybe if i hold out long enough all the bad cells will be gone and replaced with new healthy ones.
i went cross country skiing today actually in marginal conditions, but it was fun. and i might hit it again at dark. exercise and sweating always makes me feel better.
i was taking these blood pressure pills, but now i don't even want to take them, i'm so sick of this chemical stuff, and wowser, i read that pain pill board and that is pure hell compared to my problems. i read somewhere that all of your cells get replaced every few years, and maybe if i hold out long enough all the bad cells will be gone and replaced with new healthy ones.
hardcharger- i can't wait for ou to take those beclamed supplements. don't think of them as 'pills' .... they will really really really help!
gave me a calm i never have had before.... and again i wouldn't have been able to let go of the wee without them, i always got so anxious. gave me a running start. and if i didn't get headaches from them i'd be doing much much much better now.
have faith and as you said to me yesterday... keep moving.
jo
gave me a calm i never have had before.... and again i wouldn't have been able to let go of the wee without them, i always got so anxious. gave me a running start. and if i didn't get headaches from them i'd be doing much much much better now.
have faith and as you said to me yesterday... keep moving.
jo
Now, see, the cross country skiing I could handle and the scenery is probably beautiful.
It's the speeding down the hill, sand blasting your face, nature is a blur, can't see pretty things..... that I don't understand about human fun. :-)
hc and jojo - the local health store sells "amino acid complex" too. I pay 14 bucks for 50-500 mg capsules. Check it out.
PS hc - guaranteed after todays activities you'll sleep like a baby tonight.
It's the speeding down the hill, sand blasting your face, nature is a blur, can't see pretty things..... that I don't understand about human fun. :-)
hc and jojo - the local health store sells "amino acid complex" too. I pay 14 bucks for 50-500 mg capsules. Check it out.
PS hc - guaranteed after todays activities you'll sleep like a baby tonight.
jamv-
looks like you got the avatar thing figured out! way to go!
since you went oriental on me, jojo-
here's a fortune from a cookie i got years ago, and keep handy:
"The greatest danger could be your stupidity"
(and I do mean years, 7 or 8 at least)
Insomia and an increase in energy/excitement levels are (of course) a normal part of the quitting process. That is to be expected when we stop spending our time/energy "getting numb." This will not pass, you will just have to get used to it, you guys know this already, just thought some affirmation might help.
looks like you got the avatar thing figured out! way to go!
since you went oriental on me, jojo-
here's a fortune from a cookie i got years ago, and keep handy:
"The greatest danger could be your stupidity"
(and I do mean years, 7 or 8 at least)
Insomia and an increase in energy/excitement levels are (of course) a normal part of the quitting process. That is to be expected when we stop spending our time/energy "getting numb." This will not pass, you will just have to get used to it, you guys know this already, just thought some affirmation might help.
