Yep today is day three and I am still clean.... Though today was kinda tuff, it was great the first part of the day but then I started getting really angry on the way home from work, by the time I got home I was pretty mad and alittle depressed... Everytime I get that way I think I dont care when I get home I am going to get me a pain pill and take it, what does it matter it is only one..or maybe two, by the time I get there I am still determined I will do this and then I get home sit down and think well maybe I will just wait till it is really bad, before I do that, and it never seems to get to that time.. LOL.. Funny how your mind works.. Oh well I have made it thru another day and hopefully I will make it thru another and another and another.....
Tyring,
Good for you. It's day 5 for me. I really think day 3 was the worst. The first 2 days I was just too sick to even care about anything. Day 3 I felt a little better and the mental part kicked in. If you made it through day 3, day 4 will be a snap.
Frank
Good for you. It's day 5 for me. I really think day 3 was the worst. The first 2 days I was just too sick to even care about anything. Day 3 I felt a little better and the mental part kicked in. If you made it through day 3, day 4 will be a snap.
Frank
Good job trying, day three was always the worst for me, if you made it this far you can keep on going.
Good luck
JohnDee
Good luck
JohnDee
Thanks John and Frank,, I hope so, well ok I know I will, I have to keep saying that to myself... I have had it lucky on the physical wd.. I guess because I tapered so low before I finally quit, the mental part has been alittle tuff.. earlier tonight I could not even talk about it, I just got on here and read I just couldnt.. funny when I need to talk the most I dont.. Thanks for your support and I know you will make it also
When you get home on days like this, mad, wanting to use, come here and talk about it, might just help.
Way to go on three days, seeya on day 4.
Best Regards,
Tom
Way to go on three days, seeya on day 4.
Best Regards,
Tom
Good for you!! keep up the good work. I have 7 days today and It is getting a little better. The evening always seems to be the worse,I know what you mean about playing mind games. telling yourself 1 more hour and I will just take 1 or tomorrow I'll get a reward since I have done so good. It is really a daily struggle and mentally it does get easier as time passes. I guess it just depends on how long someone has been using to. I have quit before for 9 months to a year and still from time to time wanted to use.If someone uses for years it takes longer I believe to get your mind back to thinking Normal than what it would for someone that's only been using for a short time. If that made any sense?Anyway your doing great and congrats to you! It does get better. I have done it plenty of times and there is light at the end of the tunnel and a life waiting for you to see.Rae
Ps. How much did you tapper down to before quitting?
Ps. How much did you tapper down to before quitting?
How was the walk Rae?
Regards,
Tom
Regards,
Tom
Tom,
Well I didn't get out for a walk. I did have some running around to do this evening. Took my son to get a hair-cut, got my daughter's ear peirced cause on of her earrings fell out last week and it grew up so I had to have it re-done. Then went and picked something up for dinner. So I did leave the house. Thanks for asking. I am feeling better but a little depressed and thinking about pills all day long. Takes up to much of my brain and I already have the dumb-blonde thing going on, I sure don't need anything else messing with my head,LOL. Rae
Well I didn't get out for a walk. I did have some running around to do this evening. Took my son to get a hair-cut, got my daughter's ear peirced cause on of her earrings fell out last week and it grew up so I had to have it re-done. Then went and picked something up for dinner. So I did leave the house. Thanks for asking. I am feeling better but a little depressed and thinking about pills all day long. Takes up to much of my brain and I already have the dumb-blonde thing going on, I sure don't need anything else messing with my head,LOL. Rae
hey Paula....way to go , girl! 3 days down, and a one day to go,,,,,,,,and then another and another............you can do it. the feelings you are having are normal......and yes, the tapering was a tremendous help. don't even know how you would be working this week if you hadn't done that. keep it up, and keep posting. you've been on my mind today, and will be tomorrow. i wish you a great day 4! take care, hang in there!
Thanks guys, I know the mental cravings will be hard my sister used for about a year and a half, and she went cold turkey about 5 years ago, I asked her the other day does she still want them sometimes and she said yes, sometimes when she is really stressed about something or is having a hard time with her teenage son, she thinks she would really would like to take one.. but she knows she can't and she will not... I am proud of her she has been real supportive of me..
Thank Carol, I would not know what to do with out you, you are always so cheerful... and the rest of you also..... I think about you guys all day.. and wonder how you are doing...
Frank I had tapered down to 1 to 1 1/2 a day.. I did that for about 4 days, I finally just said forget it I cant keep tapering so stopped looking in all my hiding places.. the truth though is I think I had cleaned out all my hiding places...LOL....
Frank I had tapered down to 1 to 1 1/2 a day.. I did that for about 4 days, I finally just said forget it I cant keep tapering so stopped looking in all my hiding places.. the truth though is I think I had cleaned out all my hiding places...LOL....
Not everyone can tapper like me,LOL 1 1/2 is good real good but I was down to 5-10 mgs of vicodin for 2 months before i stopped and for a couple nights before I quit I was ONLY taking 5mg a day. That is hardly nothing. No wonder the withdrawls weren't that unbearable. I think I am the tappering queen, then again after 9 months or so I will relapse. then I can be the relapse queen. Who knows time will tell. One day at a time and that's all we can do for now.Rae
Rae,
Glad to hear you got out a little. I know what your saying about thinking about pills, I know thats all I thought about for three weeks. And the depression as well, I even posted a question about getting prozac, and made an appointment (which I never went to) to get prozac or some other antidepressant. Glad I didnt get them in hindsight, it really is just is part of the MONSTER of withdrawel and this disease.
Best Regards,
Tom
Glad to hear you got out a little. I know what your saying about thinking about pills, I know thats all I thought about for three weeks. And the depression as well, I even posted a question about getting prozac, and made an appointment (which I never went to) to get prozac or some other antidepressant. Glad I didnt get them in hindsight, it really is just is part of the MONSTER of withdrawel and this disease.
Best Regards,
Tom
Yes Tapering really does help and I have done it before also and relapsed, but this time I really hope I can end this for good.. My daughter just came in here and told me how proud she was of me for having 3 days clean.. That meant so much to me.. she just had a baby girl she is 1 month old..... She is beautiful...
Aww what is her name?
How much did she weigh?
You must be so proud...
How much did she weigh?
You must be so proud...
you know I have heard some talk on here about taking blood pressure medicene and that helping with wd I went to my doctor a couple of weeks ago and she put me on blood pressure medicene because it was 138/98 , I did not tell her of my addiction I was too ashamed.. but I wonder if that has helped. Has anyone else heard of this?
Her name is Lillian Elizabeth, 6lb 1.1 ounces 18 inches long she was a month early.. and yes I am so proud she has a head full of hair..
Pretty name. My 10 month old is Lindsay Jaelyn. I really didn't want to put 2 lyn's in her first and middle name but my boyfriend wanted it that way. She was 6 lbs 1 oz and 19 1/2 inches long and only 2 weeks early. So your grand baby did have a good birth weight for being a month early. Mine is just now getting some hair and starting to take her 1st steps.
http://img.photobucket.
com/albums/v300/Rae73/winnie.jpg
com/albums/v300/Rae73/winnie.jpg
Wow she is beautiful.. I cant wait till Lilli get alittle older.. I love the first year they learn so much, I also have 4 more grandchildren... 7, 4, 3, 1, and another will be here next month.. Love those grandchildren...LOL
