Well I am still here my last post I had taken a few tylenol#3's for no apparent reason and still kick myself for it, but I have not used since. Do you normally start your days over once you relapse or do you call it a slip and move on from there. I figured since I did not use again I am ok for now. Things have been rough with Mom we were supposed to go for chemo this week and we were very worried about her since she had been experiencing alot of pain in her back. She told her doctor who said she has shingles. My poor Mom is just is not fair that she should have to go thru so much pain. The only thing that keeps me going is that she will get better I keep telling myself that and praying. At any rate I went there tonight to see her and she couldn't even sit on the couch she had to lay in her bed due to the pain.
At any rate I didn't want anyone to think I was out of the game I am still here and pushing forward, things are tough I think of the pills alot but I have been feeling better and I really believe in the supplements I am taking I notice when I don't take them I feel tired. Hope all is well with everyone
God Bless
Roxy
Glad you checked in Roxy and good for you for hanging in there. I consider a slip a relapse, but that's just me. I start over when I slip or relapse. But what's more important is that you have today and that's all that matters. Hang in there! You're doing great. Lisa
Lisa
I wasn't sure if I should start over or not, I think I didn't because I use this as my journal too and when others read my post I want them to see where I am at. It really was a stupid move to take them as I have an allergic reaction to them and ended up with no high if you will and itching the whole friggin night. Thanks for posting back I had hoped you were around. How is MJ doing? The last time I was here she sounded pretty depressed I hope she is doing better.
Well I am off to bed lots of things to get done tommorow thanks again
Roxy
I wasn't sure if I should start over or not, I think I didn't because I use this as my journal too and when others read my post I want them to see where I am at. It really was a stupid move to take them as I have an allergic reaction to them and ended up with no high if you will and itching the whole friggin night. Thanks for posting back I had hoped you were around. How is MJ doing? The last time I was here she sounded pretty depressed I hope she is doing better.
Well I am off to bed lots of things to get done tommorow thanks again
Roxy
Roxy,
Day 36 is so awesome, good for you! I wonder why tylenol #3 effects a lot of people like that. They also made me sick at my stomach and itching from head to toe. Anyway, congratulations and keep it up!
Shelly
Day 36 is so awesome, good for you! I wonder why tylenol #3 effects a lot of people like that. They also made me sick at my stomach and itching from head to toe. Anyway, congratulations and keep it up!
Shelly
Congratulations Roxy......I am so glad to hear you are still at it. I wondered where you had been. I am on day 43 and still hanging in there also. Which supplements are you taking? I am starting to feel better, but I still have to keep busy or my mind tends to dwell on it. I love hearing how happy you sound and I hope your mom feels better soon. L
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I think it's real apparent.You are a drug addict.That's what we do.Yes,it is a relapse.Once an opiate gets into your system,the brain will start screaming for more.It may be 2 weeks down the road.That's why you get such a false sense of security and think it's no big deal you had a couple.It seems rather benign.
Roxy,until you start some program of recovery this will happen again.You seem resistant to NA every time I bring it up so do something else.Private therapy may be the answer.This is not going away.It can lay dormant for a long time.
I don't want you to just have days lined up that you aren't using.You can really have a life change and be happy.I don't know any addict or alcoholic that can do this alone.If they do they are generally not somebody I want to be around very long.
Good Luck my friend
Roxy! 36 days is great. Just keep going. Don't over think the relapse just think of the "no reason" part remember that the next time you consider taking anything. There is "no reason" if you have read any of the big book it explains it like this guy who kept jay walking and getting hit by cars. He would stop and then for "no reason" just jay walk again and get hurt and he would not know the reason and "everyone" would wonder why he did it again and why he couldn't just stop. Its just that stupid and each relapse leaves us with the potential of even worse consequences. This desiese is just baffeling truley. Keep on keepin on but consider getting a copy of the big book it is enlightening truley. I'm not one of the members here who goes to meetings consistantly or has a sponsor but I will tell you the information in that book in invaluable and I always learn from it every time I pick it up. Maybe I am still trying to do it "my" way to some degree. But there is no one way to get sober just do it. Reading and learning about it helps immeasurably (sp?) Glad to hear your still with us hang in there.
Love,
Jane
Love,
Jane
