thank you for your stories. I,m 43, been smoking too long, on and off for 28 years, Know I need to give up for health and mental reasons but am scared of the battle and a straight life. I am struggling with "the black dog" and anxiety and rarely seek out help but decided to look for on line information and this is where I ended up. I don't feel so alone after reading some of your stories and struggles. I have been too proud to say I am addicted to marijuana but I can say it now, if only on here for now. god bless for your strength.
Welcome to the Board catt,
This is in fact a really nice place to come too in regards to quitting pot. There are alot of nice people here who know exactly how you feel and what you are going through. I for one was extremely happy to find this Board last December 30th when I decided I had it with smoking pot. I'm 50 years old and I had been smoking pot for more than 25 years,every single day of my life, every single chance that I had. It will be six months nex week that I haven't touched a joint. Believe me, I am not out of the woods yet with the cravings and all, but my life has gotten soooooooooooo much better since I quit. I'm a much happier person. I enjoy life alot more and I am not so paranoid anymore.
Keep coming back to this board. It will be nice reading you again.
Smile!
This is in fact a really nice place to come too in regards to quitting pot. There are alot of nice people here who know exactly how you feel and what you are going through. I for one was extremely happy to find this Board last December 30th when I decided I had it with smoking pot. I'm 50 years old and I had been smoking pot for more than 25 years,every single day of my life, every single chance that I had. It will be six months nex week that I haven't touched a joint. Believe me, I am not out of the woods yet with the cravings and all, but my life has gotten soooooooooooo much better since I quit. I'm a much happier person. I enjoy life alot more and I am not so paranoid anymore.
Keep coming back to this board. It will be nice reading you again.
Smile!
Hi fleur, thanks so much for the reply, I envy your strength and today I used it. I admitted to a family member, whom I had always ensured that I could take or leave pot, that I was no longer in control of of my pot use and needed help. This felt like a load lifted. I have a few loads to lift but today was different. Today I thought about this site often and there was an underlying feeling of hope that crept in when I did. There is also a quiet bubbling of excitement deep down that I could really have a happy and more productive life. Although I couldn't stop cold, I delayed smoking today for several hours and have fought against reaching for one many times tonight. Overall have had about half usual amount and is strange going to bed without emptying the bowl. I do feel weak fleur for not being able to stop cold turkey but previous attempt was not pleasant. Don't know what my best strategy is, I'm confused, anxious and scared but also aware of that little hope light shining in the distance that I will keep in sight. Thank you again fleur, you made me smile. catt
Hi catt,
The good thing about you is that you have it in your mind that you want to quit. I too had often thought about it before I did make up my mind to give it up. So you are obviously on a good path. There will be a day when you will wake up and you will see the sun and you will wonder...why do I have to smoke pot! Is this what life is all about? Is this what I want out of my life? You've already started to cut down on the amount that you smoke. U rock!
Keep it up. If you really, really want to stop, you will. Nobody said it was going t be easy. It is still a daily ugly struggle for me but every day that I don't smoke, I am soooooooo happy. There are days when I crave it like you wouldn't believe it but for one reason or another I manage not to touch it! Thank the Lord!
Keep posting. I will come back soon and read you again. In the meantime, be happy and proud of all the efforts you are doing at the moment to quit pot! Once you do, you will see how nice nature is, how nice it is just to be yourself!
The good thing about you is that you have it in your mind that you want to quit. I too had often thought about it before I did make up my mind to give it up. So you are obviously on a good path. There will be a day when you will wake up and you will see the sun and you will wonder...why do I have to smoke pot! Is this what life is all about? Is this what I want out of my life? You've already started to cut down on the amount that you smoke. U rock!
Keep it up. If you really, really want to stop, you will. Nobody said it was going t be easy. It is still a daily ugly struggle for me but every day that I don't smoke, I am soooooooo happy. There are days when I crave it like you wouldn't believe it but for one reason or another I manage not to touch it! Thank the Lord!
Keep posting. I will come back soon and read you again. In the meantime, be happy and proud of all the efforts you are doing at the moment to quit pot! Once you do, you will see how nice nature is, how nice it is just to be yourself!
Thanks again fleur, still have cut use down alot and even that is making a difference, keep trying to focus on a future that is straight, open and honest and like you said, being just myself. bit scary after so long wondering who I really am but think I can be a really productive, hopefully happy person down the track. Bought a hypnosis CD on quitting so hope that will be an extra boost of strength as well. Also working as many hours as I can to keep me away from home where the cravings are worst. You have a unique gift of really helping others in the same boat, and again I thank you for the support. catt
Thank you catt for your kind words. I've always been like that and the only way I can figure out why I act this way is because I have suffered tremendously in my life and I just can't stand it when there are people who suffer for one reason or another. I've also learned with age that being kind to others comes back to me in a 1000 different ways. For instance, what you have said about me touches me tremendously and I would like to thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Ok, enough said about me.
I think it is wonderful that you are trying really hard to quit smoking. Go girl! One day, you will see, all this hard work will bring you benefits and you will be so proud of yourself. Life ain't bad without pot, believe me!
I am getting our things ready to go up to the lake for the weekend. Puppy keeps whinning cuz he's so anxious to go in the car. He knows we are going up to the lake and he loves it just as much as I do.
So, you take care this weekend. Be good to yourself. If ever you get a craving, go out for a walk, do something, anything....but don't smoke!
I will come back next week to read you again.
Take care!
Ok, enough said about me.
I think it is wonderful that you are trying really hard to quit smoking. Go girl! One day, you will see, all this hard work will bring you benefits and you will be so proud of yourself. Life ain't bad without pot, believe me!
I am getting our things ready to go up to the lake for the weekend. Puppy keeps whinning cuz he's so anxious to go in the car. He knows we are going up to the lake and he loves it just as much as I do.
So, you take care this weekend. Be good to yourself. If ever you get a craving, go out for a walk, do something, anything....but don't smoke!
I will come back next week to read you again.
Take care!
hi fleur, hope you had a great weekend. A break at a lake with a dog sounds like heaven. I lost my best friend a few years back, she was a beautiful, fat, old rottweller. I still miss her like crazy and haven't been able to get another dog since. I agree with what you said about things you give out come back. Karma is definately out there working. I have been working nearly every day which is good because I would never go to work stoned and that has kept me off it more. Am still listening to the quit hypnosis cd every night and believe that could be helping a bit too. I am visualizing more and more how good it could be to be straight every single day and I think that is becoming more believable. My usage has dropped by a bit more than half and I feel better mentally. It is tough, as you know. Did you need any counselling, fleur, or did you use any help from a doctor? Its like a mountain that has to be climbed and it is still scary. Well thanks again fleur for the kind words. I'm off to work again. Catt
ps... this web site is a god send. I have spent many hours drawing strength from peoples struggles on here. so good to know I am not alone
Hi kittycatt,
Glad to see you are doing good and still working hard at quitting.
I can just imagine how hard it must be not to have your best buddy around anymore. I don't even want to think about not being with my puppy. We have been together for the last 12 years. I just love him to death and i know he loves me. He is very protective of me and whenever he wants something or when he's not feeling well. it is to me that he comes too. He's just soooooo cute. His name is Beauregard and he's part rotti. He has the same colour as a rotti but doesn't really look like a rotti. He looks more like a bordercollie.
Catt, i did not get help when I decided to quit smoking pot last December 30th. The only help I really got was from this board. I've met some really nice people on this section of the board (most importantly Cleo and Tania) and i've also gotten alot of strenght from reading other people's stories in the sections on heroin and pain pills. I've also gotten alot of peace from praying. I've also read every darn book i could get from the library on addiction and on people who were addicted to one drug or another. I've spent hours on the Internet reading about pot and addiction to drugs.
As long as you have it in your mind that you don't want any pot in your body it will help you quit. Just remember why you want to stop smoking pot. Keep reminding yourself that you don't need it to be happy in life. It's not easy, believe me, i still have reallllllllllllly bad cravings but that's just what they are... cravings, and when i get them, i keep myself busy and I remember the hell i went through the first couple of weeks I stopped! I swear to God i thought i was going to die! I felt physically, mentally, spiritually like crap! I couldn't sleep for weeks and I was more often than not depressed. But today...i feel a little different. Well actually.... I've never been so happy in my life!
So you go girl! Be good to yourself and just don't touch the darn stuff!
I'll be coming back soon to this board to see how you are doing.
Ciao
Glad to see you are doing good and still working hard at quitting.
I can just imagine how hard it must be not to have your best buddy around anymore. I don't even want to think about not being with my puppy. We have been together for the last 12 years. I just love him to death and i know he loves me. He is very protective of me and whenever he wants something or when he's not feeling well. it is to me that he comes too. He's just soooooo cute. His name is Beauregard and he's part rotti. He has the same colour as a rotti but doesn't really look like a rotti. He looks more like a bordercollie.
Catt, i did not get help when I decided to quit smoking pot last December 30th. The only help I really got was from this board. I've met some really nice people on this section of the board (most importantly Cleo and Tania) and i've also gotten alot of strenght from reading other people's stories in the sections on heroin and pain pills. I've also gotten alot of peace from praying. I've also read every darn book i could get from the library on addiction and on people who were addicted to one drug or another. I've spent hours on the Internet reading about pot and addiction to drugs.
As long as you have it in your mind that you don't want any pot in your body it will help you quit. Just remember why you want to stop smoking pot. Keep reminding yourself that you don't need it to be happy in life. It's not easy, believe me, i still have reallllllllllllly bad cravings but that's just what they are... cravings, and when i get them, i keep myself busy and I remember the hell i went through the first couple of weeks I stopped! I swear to God i thought i was going to die! I felt physically, mentally, spiritually like crap! I couldn't sleep for weeks and I was more often than not depressed. But today...i feel a little different. Well actually.... I've never been so happy in my life!
So you go girl! Be good to yourself and just don't touch the darn stuff!
I'll be coming back soon to this board to see how you are doing.
Ciao
