Danielle has 2 months!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Danielle has 2 months!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Danielle has 2 months!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Danielle has 2 months!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Danielle has 2 months!!!!!!!!!!!!
Danielle has 2 months!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Danielle has 2 months!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Danielle has 2 months!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Danielle has 2 months!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Danielle has 2 months!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yep, I've made it two months.... the longest that I've been clean in 3 years.
I feel great..... I'm gaining weight eating too much Easter candy, but I lost a bunch when I got on the sub, so I guess it's okay. What's important is that I'm healthy and I'm HAPPY.
I'm not even taken Ambien every night any more. I took some last night, but that's the first time in a while I've needed it (I never thought there would be a day when I'd be able to sleep without a sleeping pills). Since I got off the Norco, natural sleep as been A LOT easier.
Thanks for everything!
Love y'all!!!!!!!!
Danni
I am very proud of you Danni~ but I am still not going to let you toot your own horn!! Ha-Ha. Congrats!! You go girl with your bad-self! Rae
Congrats
Way to go, 2 mos, thats great, keep up the good work, and toot your horn everytime you feel like it!
I guess the 3 month toot will be April 24th, I have put that down and expect to see it then. Until then, stay focused and be proud of yourself!!
Way to go, 2 mos, thats great, keep up the good work, and toot your horn everytime you feel like it!
I guess the 3 month toot will be April 24th, I have put that down and expect to see it then. Until then, stay focused and be proud of yourself!!
Well, if there was a time and a place to brag, I guess this would be it.
This is usually the point where I start thinking "One or two pills won't hurt me..." That's what's gotten me in trouble so many times before. I'm glad that I'm on the sub to get me over that hump and give me longer clean-time under my belt.
It's rough, but it's well worth it. I can actually go pee and not be scared to look in the toilet (I had brown urine once because of a kidney infection; pain pills can cause kidney failure and I was always scared of that). Gross, I know..... but it's great not to have to still worry about that.
I have no friends except for you guys. I know ya'll probably think that is exaggerated, but it's not. I don't email anyone else. When I'm on the computer, I'm talking to y'all. I can't even use my home phone because my computer is always on (I keep it on 24hrs a day in case I want to chat). Because all of my friends used SOMETHING (alcohol, Vicodin, oxy, coke, methadone, xanax, pot, ecstasy, etc, etc, etc...... you know how strippers are! LOL), I had to take a break from everyone. That was hard, but towards the end of my addiction, I was becoming a hermit anyway.
I'm glad I found this site!
D
This is usually the point where I start thinking "One or two pills won't hurt me..." That's what's gotten me in trouble so many times before. I'm glad that I'm on the sub to get me over that hump and give me longer clean-time under my belt.
It's rough, but it's well worth it. I can actually go pee and not be scared to look in the toilet (I had brown urine once because of a kidney infection; pain pills can cause kidney failure and I was always scared of that). Gross, I know..... but it's great not to have to still worry about that.
I have no friends except for you guys. I know ya'll probably think that is exaggerated, but it's not. I don't email anyone else. When I'm on the computer, I'm talking to y'all. I can't even use my home phone because my computer is always on (I keep it on 24hrs a day in case I want to chat). Because all of my friends used SOMETHING (alcohol, Vicodin, oxy, coke, methadone, xanax, pot, ecstasy, etc, etc, etc...... you know how strippers are! LOL), I had to take a break from everyone. That was hard, but towards the end of my addiction, I was becoming a hermit anyway.
I'm glad I found this site!
D
I am glad you found this site to. I didn't mean you shouldn't toot your own horn I just meant I wish I would have started the post for you(which I did)start one.. You know what I meant. LOL I know when I was using I always feared I would die or have something happen to me and then everyone would know of my addiction bla bla bla. Those worries are gone.. It is a feeling of being Free. I know the feeling of only talking to people on this board most of the time. I feel that way. I still have lots of friends I talk to on the phone,oh yeah I couldn't live without my phone. I am happy to have found this board and all you great people to. Just thought I would share that. Rae
You toot away sister, you deserve it. 2 months is HUGE, you made this happen Danni, I mean Lori, you chose to get your life back and regroup, to not let pills control your every move. You chose to see your son grow and raise him clean, you chose all of this and more. So, I say you are entitled to toot!
all the best
Redd
all the best
Redd
God Bless you, keep up the good work, Just for today.
You go ahead and toot your own horn, girlfriend - you deserve it.
DANIELLE HAS 2 MONTHS
DANIELLE HAS 2 MONTHS
DANIELLE HAS 2 MONTHS
DANIELLE HAS 2 MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU ROCK GIRL~!!!!!!!
Love ya,
Marie
DANIELLE HAS 2 MONTHS
DANIELLE HAS 2 MONTHS
DANIELLE HAS 2 MONTHS
DANIELLE HAS 2 MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU ROCK GIRL~!!!!!!!
Love ya,
Marie
TOOT TOOT!!!! YOU ROCK CHICA!!!! 2 MONTHS!!! WAY TO GO MY FRIEND :)
the next months ahead should fly by much faster and get much easier on you. it worked that way for me. i am super excited for you. you have made great progress and are incredibly inspiring. i gotta tell you normally my a.d.d. can not get through lengthy posts. but you are the only person on this board that can hold my attention with your wisdom in your writings and i am just in awe of your intelligence. i love to be educated and you have certainlly educated me about alot of things and even have helped me inderstand sub and come to appreciate it for what it is. i love your down to earth intelligence. i truly admire it. you are gonna be a great success in your next profession. but first you gotta hurry up and catch up to redd on the baby dept hehehe anyhow congrats kiddo. i'm super proud of you
terrianne
the next months ahead should fly by much faster and get much easier on you. it worked that way for me. i am super excited for you. you have made great progress and are incredibly inspiring. i gotta tell you normally my a.d.d. can not get through lengthy posts. but you are the only person on this board that can hold my attention with your wisdom in your writings and i am just in awe of your intelligence. i love to be educated and you have certainlly educated me about alot of things and even have helped me inderstand sub and come to appreciate it for what it is. i love your down to earth intelligence. i truly admire it. you are gonna be a great success in your next profession. but first you gotta hurry up and catch up to redd on the baby dept hehehe anyhow congrats kiddo. i'm super proud of you
terrianne
OFCOURSE you can toot your own horn, but I'm sorry I didn't realize it was your anniversary and post this for you!
I am SO PROUD OF YOU!!! Believe me, I KNOW what a huge deal it is, having been where you have. I know what hard work you have put into being where you are today, and how much it means to you and your family! You're on your way to the life you've been dreaming about and I am honored to sit back and watch you do it!
KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK, my friend!
2 months danni that is awsome!! Ever since i stopped taking pain pills all i do is eat. Ever since monday i eat all day long. I even eat up until 11 oclock at night. I only weigh 110 right now but it wont be long until i am the size of a house. Did anybody else get really hungry after they stopped pain pills? I know im not pregnant either. It seems to be going around on this site. Congrats REDD on the little Bun in the oven. Do you want a boy or a girl?
CONGRATULATIONS Danielle! You go right on tooting your own horn. You should feel GREAT about what you've accomplished. But you are so right about staying vigilant against those little voices that whisper "a couple pills won't count since I do have a headache.....kind of," or "one scrip won't really hurt," etc. The addictive mind sticks around long after the physival withdrawal is done. That's the challenge for me today as well. Stay the course -- your example shines!
Misty, yes, I usually put on weight every time I quit taking pain pills..... This time I didn't because the suboxone, Wellbutrin, and Zoloft took away my appetite (at least in the beginning... didn't last long); I actually lost 8 or 9lbs and got down to 97lbs, in just 4 weeks. I had no appetite at all!
But every other time I tried to get clean, I gained weight..... I don't know if we substitute food for the pills we once took, but it happens to a lot of addicts (look at all of those celebrities that go to rehab and come out a little bit "healthier").
One of my favorite books is called "A Million Little Pieces" by James Frey. EVERYONE SHOULD READ THIS BOOK!!!!!!!!!! It's the story of a young man (23), who has been addicted to drugs since his teens - pills, coke, crack, sniffing glue... everything. The book is about his stint in rehab, but it's written in such graphic detail that you feel like you're right there.
He talks about overeating while there..... And, the way he describes it, it makes sense. For the first time in years, he is without drugs, yet that need is still there.... the want, the need to satisfy.
He talks about wanting to fill, to fill that need with anything.... so he eats.... and eats, and eats, and eats..... He talks about wanting to stuff himself because he wants to feel SOMETHING, anything. He eats until he throws up, then eats some more. His body needs fuel - he had been getting fuel from drugs for so many years and that was taken away, so he turns to food.
Eat. Fill. Eat. Fill. Eat. Fill. Feel something, anything.
Terrianne....... what you said means a lot to me...... I am no more intelligent than anyone on here, I just know how to express myself in writing a little better.
My husband is sooooo smart, it's scary..... but when he writes a letter or an email, he doesn't get his message across like he would if he was talking to you.
Good hint for anyone who's interested.... If you're going to write long posts, space your sentences out.... After each idea, double space it. This makes it easier for the reader and has been proven to keep people more interested in what you have to say.
All of your words of encouragement have meant a lot. Thank you.
Danielle
But every other time I tried to get clean, I gained weight..... I don't know if we substitute food for the pills we once took, but it happens to a lot of addicts (look at all of those celebrities that go to rehab and come out a little bit "healthier").
One of my favorite books is called "A Million Little Pieces" by James Frey. EVERYONE SHOULD READ THIS BOOK!!!!!!!!!! It's the story of a young man (23), who has been addicted to drugs since his teens - pills, coke, crack, sniffing glue... everything. The book is about his stint in rehab, but it's written in such graphic detail that you feel like you're right there.
He talks about overeating while there..... And, the way he describes it, it makes sense. For the first time in years, he is without drugs, yet that need is still there.... the want, the need to satisfy.
He talks about wanting to fill, to fill that need with anything.... so he eats.... and eats, and eats, and eats..... He talks about wanting to stuff himself because he wants to feel SOMETHING, anything. He eats until he throws up, then eats some more. His body needs fuel - he had been getting fuel from drugs for so many years and that was taken away, so he turns to food.
Eat. Fill. Eat. Fill. Eat. Fill. Feel something, anything.
Terrianne....... what you said means a lot to me...... I am no more intelligent than anyone on here, I just know how to express myself in writing a little better.
My husband is sooooo smart, it's scary..... but when he writes a letter or an email, he doesn't get his message across like he would if he was talking to you.
Good hint for anyone who's interested.... If you're going to write long posts, space your sentences out.... After each idea, double space it. This makes it easier for the reader and has been proven to keep people more interested in what you have to say.
All of your words of encouragement have meant a lot. Thank you.
Danielle
Congratulations Danielle
Glad you found something that worked for you
and glad you can pee in peace
JohnDee
Glad you found something that worked for you
and glad you can pee in peace
JohnDee
I never ate on pills because I didn't want to lose the buzz. Those little red labels on the bottle said "take with food" which I never did. My friends that used did the same thing, we were all thin.
And idiots too.
Redd
And idiots too.
Redd
congratulations danielle on your 60 days of recovery!
wooooooo - hooooooo - look at you - go - grow - glow!
recovery sure looks good on you!
namaste'
sammy
You Go Girl....I am so proud of you!! Just remember to never lose your gratitude for getting out of the hell...
Kerry
TOOT TOOT baby! *does a cheer and hugs you tight
Danielle:
Congratulations on your two months. Keep doing what your doing. I'm proud of you.
Rachel
Congratulations on your two months. Keep doing what your doing. I'm proud of you.
Rachel
Danni,
Sorry late on this one---but way to go. I really enjoy your post. You are so honest--and I enjoy the way you express yourself--keep up the good work.
May you have many chances to TOOT your own horn !!!!!
Mike
Sorry late on this one---but way to go. I really enjoy your post. You are so honest--and I enjoy the way you express yourself--keep up the good work.
May you have many chances to TOOT your own horn !!!!!
Mike
