Well as some of you may remember i got totally fat in my recovery. Really I gain the most on methadone then i got pregnant gained EVEN MORE!. I craved sugar got lazy and well it showed. I started Atkins when the baby was 2 months old. He's now 6 months old in 4 months i've lost 35-40 pounds. I'm still at least 35-45 pounds heavier then i was when using. Wanted to share with you guys what i've been working on as weight gain is very common in recovery. I'm still not thrilled with my body but, it's getting better!. It took sum courage to post these I WAS HUGE!!!!!!!!!!!! Here is my before pic: Febuary 19th 2007 Here is June 22ed 2007
Nice for posting these..i was a chubby kid so i understand the stigma of having some weight on..fairplay to ya ZG.keep it up...best wishes.........Davey
Hi z-g, totally well done on the weight loss. I've still got a few pounds to go till I'm my normal skinny self. I think a little bit of weight suits me though coz I was looking at photo's taken 12 months ago, just before I got preggers, and every bone in my body stuck out, and I think I was too thin really. But I hated the size I was when I was full term. My knees were creaking under the strain! I had really bad water retention, but it was great after I gave birth coz in the two weeks after having the baby I lost 30lbs of fluid - never seen those scales move so fast in all my life! Now I've got about 10 -15lbs of fat to shift till I'm down to my pre-pregnancy weight. Having kids sure is bad for your figure!
I have one picture of me with my new granddaughter, I have yet to post it or share it even with my family. I put on about 35 lbs after quitting cocaine. I need to get motivated enough to slow down on the food, and I am unable to exercise due to chronic pain issues. I keep telling myself that I need to lose it by Oct. because my 3 sisters and I are going to do a last time together with the parents. Sisters live in CT, I live in Louisiana and our parents live in FL.
Good for you on losing the weight!! Congratulations.
I think its very brave of you to put your photos on here like that and I personally think you look great and very healthy. Keep up the good work.
I put on 5 stone when I was pregnant and now I am 1 1/2 stone lighter than I was before I got pregnant and am back onto a 10-12. I am so proud that I am back to myself but truth be known I aint proud of how I done it. See the thing is I stopped eating when Kevin started taking heroin and everytime we had a row I wouldnt eat for days and days and then when I did eat I wouldnt eat very much. When things started to get better I started eating again but would feel guilty after a meal and would stick my fingers down my throat. This got into a little habbit that everytime I ate too much, I would feel physically sick and have to stick my fingers down my throat. I dont deny that I still do it now and again but I am working on that and have spoken to my doctor about it although he seems to thknk because I aint doing it after every meal that its ok.
Anyway how do you post pictures on here because I was wanting to put one on of my daughter, my princess, my angel...MY LIFE!!
you go girl--dont be so hard on yourselves ladies-were beautiful if we think we are i have alwaysw been heavy--alot of people said they never thought i was using because i didnt look like a junky--thats like say someone doesnt look like a pedophile-it used to piss me off--like why would i want to look all emaciated id rather be overweight than too thin to stand up. but yeah i dont have the greatest self-esteem, im workin on it though im liking me more these days--i have yet to meet an ugly person on this messsage board
Betty Boop.......I mean ZG..........just thought this.
That wasn't off topic.........it was relevant.........to all the using and the recovery and all..........not off topic at all..........and you done really well.
Love, Little Dutch Boy
That's what my fr*a*in Posh Spice bob turned out like..........my gentleman friend says "Yo ya got the little Ductch Boy hair off the paint can"!
That or a news caster..........they all got it.......Betty Boop's hott.
I'm gonna try to keep up I never expect so many replies!. I think i got that big because on the methadone I really only wanted sugar it got bad even my mom said i replaced H with Little Debbie and donuts. Plus I was depressed and not going anywhere to avoid old freinds and stuff and i was dealing with not having the kids anymore. I was utterly miserable my life had turned to crap after losing the kids. That was the biggest i've even been my whole life. Ty Herman for the reply. Davey it's hard on chubby kids my 11 year old is chunky it effects his self esteem. I was always way little when i was a kid use to get called "Skinny Jenny" which i thought was a insult it use to hurt my feelings when i was a kid. Bumpsnomore I know how it feels to not want people to see how much you've put on. The one and only reason i got real about losing weight was I was so unhappy acually embarased to see people who did not know how much i gained. BunnyRocker your doctor should for sure have been alarmed by what you've been doing. It is scary and very unhealthy. I'm glad you shared it admitting you have a problem is the 1st step and you know this is damaging to you. Hopefully you'l get a doctor to listen so this can get better for ya. Amity i have BIG family members I agree weight has nothing to do with being beautiful or being a beautiful person. I acually have a disorder that causes me to be predisposition to be heavy. I have PCOS and insulin resistance crazy hormone imbalance i only have periods like 3-4 times a year. PLUS having PCOS makes it harder to lose and easier to gain. After having kids i was never skinny in active addiction I was a size 14. I'm a 18 now was a 22-24 when i started to diet. After 3 kids i know my days of wearing a bikini are over!. I've accepted i'll never be small but, i would not accept being as big as i was either. Diff it's crazy how much you lose after the baby when i started to diet i had about 10-14 pounds "14 pounds is a stone?" that did not come off to get to my pre pregnancy size. i gained 37 pounds in pregnancy by the time he was 8 weeks i had lost 25 pounds. REMEMBER THOU before pregnancy I had put on about 50 or so pounds just from stoping H starting methadone so starting my diet was already 60 or more pounds over my regular size. Bryn i guess this did have to do with recovery i know it's very very common to gain in recovery even people who quit smoking pack on weight. I feel so much better I am still trying to get to to a 12-14 size jeans thou so i've got a lot more work to do. P.S you guys ALL ROCK!
I had a strange experience regarding weight when I came off heroin. My weight went into total freefall. I thought there was something wrong with my scales, coz I lost about 40lbs in six weeks, and although I guess I had a little weight to lose, I didn't have much, and I looked sick. I met my boyfriend about 3 months after giving up the gear, and for a while he thought I had a big problem. Even my Dr pulled me on it, and sent me to the hospital for tests. As I settled down a bit, I gained some weight, and looked much healthier. After I gained a few pounds, people kept stopping me and saying that I was looking much stronger, coz I had been really fragile.
How does PCOS effect you? I got something going on, but don't know what. The last week of May, I got my first period after having the baby. I bled really heavy all the time I was away, and after 3 weeks I went to see my Dr. She sent me for blood tests and gave me tablets to stop my periods, coz I was losing a lot of blood and getting very anaemic and tired. It was only a 7 day course of pills, just to stop the bleeding, but it's come back now, and its really heavy and painful - I'm taking co-codamol for the pain. I had a letter on Sat saying I had a high white blood cell count and a low red blood cell count, and telling me to go back for more tests in 2 weeks time. I don't know whats going on. All I know is that some mornings I can hardly drag myself out of bed. Anybody else had stuff like this going on?
Diff, nothing uite the same as you but I am going for regular tests because I get 2 periods a month, I suffer from extreme cramps and loose a hell of allot of blood but only bleed for 3-4 days at a time. I also feel tired all the time. I have been refered to a colposcopy clinic. I already got a cervical biopsy which was horrible, but the results showed up clear on that so its more tests for me now but they seem to of settled down a little lately. I also had to come off my pill for a little while.
Amity my doc definately said nothing to worry about if it aint every day but I knew from day one when I started doing this that it was some kind of illness or insecurity. Thats it though I was totally insacure and felt guilt everytime I ate and I would feel so fat and sick.
Anyway I know I have a problem but I guiss I will have to tackle it alone without the docs help. I know that I can do it cos I dont feel as much need to do it now as long as I dont eat huge meals and just eat little and often. Only thing is I think my sister is onto me because we went for a meal on Saturday night, it was an eat all you want buffet so I had to sneak off to the loo and she knew what I was up to, so I told her I had ate too much and it made me sick!
I will get there in the end. I feel so poorly today though..am feeling so sorry for myself. I had a honey, lemon, sugar and hot water drink. Normally I put a few paracetamol in but my head was banging so I tried a few codene but they knocked me for 6 and my head was spinning and I feel so rough now. Am burning up, been sick a few times, so so tired and I have had to get up with little one bacuase he is flat out. Sometimes I get jeluous of him when he sleeps at night because he can sleep without a care in the world but am sure he will loose out on his sleep when he gets of heroin.
Lynds, Poor you! I'm just getting over a real nasty cold, sore throat, bad head, hot and cold sweats, coughing up loads of disgusting green stuff. It really knocks you sideways - not even half as bad as a cluck, but defo v. unpleasant. Plus the tablets my doc gave me to stop my periods made me throw up. I feel like I'm on such a concoction of drugs, what with my anti-psychotics, my anti-depressants, my thyroxin, my extra strong ibuprofen for my joints and my iron syrup, taking more tablets is just too much for my poor body - don't think it could cope with with the co-codamol and the hormone tablets. The docs give you a pill for everything, and I hate taking them, coz they all have side-effects, and they inter react with each other. I'm waiting for 8.30, so I can ring the drs to go and see about my periods again, coz I don't want to gross you out, but I've got clots the size of golf balls, and that just ain't normal! Half of me doesn't want to bother, coz I just know they'll send me for a d and c, and I'm totally squeamish about stuff like that. I ain't got time to be ill!
Poor Diff having kids makes your body do strange THINGS. I'm no doctor to me it sounds like you could have Endometriosis: Increasingly painful periods Lower abdominal pain or pelvic cramps that can by felt for a week or two before menstruation and/or during menstruation (the pain and cramps may be steady and dull or quite severe) Pelvic or low back pain that may occur at any time during the menstrual cycle Pain during or following sexual intercourse Pain with bowel movements Premenstrual spotting Infertility OR this could be your body getting back to normal after the baby. My doctor say's it takes anout 6-12 months for your hormones to regulate. ALSO if your still brest feeding it takes a lot of Vitamins and Minerals from you to make milk. PCOS is: (polycystic ovary syndrome) is a female hormonal disorder and affects at least 5 to 8% of women. Yet common as it is, many with PCOS find it baffling and so do many doctors.
PCOS should not be so hard to diagnose because many of its signs are visible: oily skin and acne, increased hair growth on face and body (hirsutism) and loss of scalp hair (androgenic alopecia). Many women with PCOS have difficulty controlling their weight; it is one of the major causes of obesity in women. PCOS can cause irregular periods, infertility and even depression. One of the underlying factors is insulin resistance (IR), also called metabolic or dysmetabolic syndrome.1) Skin and hair changes due to the action of testosterone. These are oily skin and acne, hirsutism (increased facial and body hair), and androgenic alopecia (the female hair loss).
2) Changes in the menstrual cycle (irregular periods) and infertility due to hormone changes inside the ovary.
3) Obesity due to difficulty controlling weight. The extra weight tends to be in the upper body and often the legs are quite thin. Often, standard diets dont work.
4) Shifts in metabolism, principally insulin resistance (IR) and unfavorable cholesterol changes. High blood pressure is not uncommon. All these can be risk factors for later heart disease. A skin change called ACN (acanthosis nigricans) can be a sign of IR.
5) The fifth feature is an indirect but very important one: the emotional stress of dealing these physical and metabolic changes. Some speculate that PCOS may directly cause depression by an effect on brain chemistry. This is not proven but is almost beside the point because the physical symptoms are discouraging enough in themselves. PCOS does not diminish femininity but its effects -- weight gain, hirsutism (increased hair growth), alopecia (hair loss), difficulty in getting pregnant -- can certainly make a woman insecure about herself.
Well am feeling a little better now. I have been to the Town Moor today or the Hoppings as some people call it. All the rides from all over the country meet up at a field in Newcastle and its the biggest fair in Europe. My heads still spinning from the rides though. My little girl is flat out from all the rides, slides, bouncy castles, trampoline etc. She is only 16 month yet it cost me more for her. I love to spoil her now that she is at an age to enjoy it. Candyfloss, sugar dummies mmmmmmmmmm.
Anyway I went out at lunch time and only got back at 9:00pm. I am always in for 7 at the latest to get my lil baby in the bath then bed but not tonight and I didnt ring Kevin to let him know where I was. He rang me atleast 8 times worried sick. I threatened to leave him if things dont change and when I got home he just grabbed me and held me in his arms and said he had been pannicking. He reckons this is the reality check he needed and thought I was gone for good. Said how come I didnt ring to say where I was...I said I didnt want you to know and next time I may not come back.
Anyway got fuzzy head and ringing in my ears so gonna watch big bro and then go to bed for a much deserved sleep....am soooo tired.
oh herogirl............you look so great..you should be so proud of yourself..........despite the demands of being a mom, taking care of your mom and now losing weight and taking care of yourself..............dont ever doubt yourself or all that you have accomplished.........Me, I am trying to diet myself lately too...never have really been heavy and at 6ft tall can hide it easier,but between getting clean and then being in meopausestarting to be an amzon Woh-Man :-).........seems harder than ever to lose the weight I have put on........been trying to eat a lot of fruits and veggies, but I honestly hate foods that r healthy.........big junk food eater i am, and working at the diner and serving Delicious looking food all night doesnt help..........really trying to stay away frm the bread,which i nibble on all night usually.............AND soda, another of my weaknesses....<sigh> i tend to be always hungry anymore.......you will be my inspiration :-).....you look fantabulous........and your children ro so beautiful too........i'm so proud of you :-)
Hi Lynds, I love hearing about other peoples lives - I think I'm just nosey! Sounds like you had a good night. So nice to spend quality time with your little girl. I love my night, coz it's just me and my baby - I don't sleep in the same bed as my boyfriend, coz we drive each other insane. He talks in his sleep and I'm quite restless. I've had a crappy day really. The shower didn't work this morning. Water pressure too low - a light came on to tell that, but I only noticed it after stepping into it and discovering it was freezing cold. But it was probably just as well, coz after I'd leapt back out of the shower I noticed that my boyfriend had left the cap off the shower gel and it had all poured down the plug hole. Phoned the water board to tell them the water pressure was really low, and its gonna take 24 hrs for someone to call out. Just what I want when I'm bleeding like a stuck pig, and want to take 3 showers a day! Then I turned the sterilizer on, and when I looked back at it, it was bubbling and foaming and generally behaving very strangely. Didn't have time to investigate, coz I had to take my girl to the Drs for her jabs. Needless to say we both left the surgery in floods of tears. Then is rained cats and dogs on the way to the car. Went out then to try and buy a baby walker from a second had baby stuff shop, but discovered it was shut until July 12th. Then i thought I'd go to quikies to get something to eat, and for some strange reason the shop was like the Marie Celest - not one fresh vegetable, or piece of fruit, no fresh meat, no milk, no butter. In fact, the only thing in the shop was tinned beans, toilet roll and that super strength cider the alkies drink. It must be about to close too... Anyway, get home, rustle up something to eat, but never get to eat it, as my baby is having flash backs and needed constant attention. Oh well, some days are just totally pear shaped!
Bunch of newsie chicks........that's what y'all are.
Haaaaaaaa, kidding.
Any woman I see went on methadone gained alot of weight........and like POOF. I mean like overnight.........but our ZG, she is a tough and determined lady.
ZG, ya know what too..........I know you get everything for the kids.......but if ya can catch a sale........get yourself some tops or something.......only saying that cause your pic is in a T-s***.........my staple too anymore.........I put on a regular top and shirts and people are all........"OH you lost so much weight and you look so great"...........NO I put a good bra on.......MINIMIZER, ZG.....and got out of sweats and T-shirts........you deserve new cause ya did so good.
Bunny Rocker,........PLEASE PLEASE.........you talked to your Doctor about this?..........BR not to preach but that's serious............about control........I know this..........your teeth are gonna need to get fixed and your tonsils will get messed up and the least of it..........please, baby........please.......check on that.....tell someone........and thanks for sharing with us.
Oh and anyone endometriosis..........just call me.........suffered from it since I was 14.........cut open six times.............and tons of laproscopies..........and FOUR YEARS at a fertility specialist.........banging my head on the wall, missing work and social functions.
Although possibel, I don't think Diff has that...........the fertility rate is pretty low there........15 years of that...........I know.........hope ya feel better Diff. Could be fibroids...........Tres got them..........not fun either.