People suffering from a dependency to opiates are not the stereotypical "drug addicts" that we pass by on the streets. This disease afflicts people from all walks of life, regardless of social or economic status - from athletes to stockbrokers, entertainers to homemakers, students to skilled laborers.
We are all people with souls a life and a family we need each other everyday to pull together to help us with our disease.
Once in my life If I would have seen a person on drugs I would have judged them and said oh geez you know thats the easy way out of life. Wrong I too become a junky myself just being a mother a worker and a housewife I have no right in which to judge or be judge by anybody but myself and my maker.
God Bless you all You are all wonders of God and beautiful and strongest people I know
Love you all
Rhonda
I never wanted to become a junkie or an alchy...
Some of the best people I know are in recovery, and honestly, I would rather hang with recovering people because they understand the severity of living an honest and decent life. The human race if a messed up race to run in, and honesty works for me.
The funny thing is that I never had to do horrible things in my disease others had, but I still went into incomprehensible demoralization, and the last thing I ever wanted to do was disappoint anyone, or let hurt anyone. I never had to steal, but I did the other two. I never wanted to lie, either, but did that too.
kerry
Some of the best people I know are in recovery, and honestly, I would rather hang with recovering people because they understand the severity of living an honest and decent life. The human race if a messed up race to run in, and honesty works for me.
The funny thing is that I never had to do horrible things in my disease others had, but I still went into incomprehensible demoralization, and the last thing I ever wanted to do was disappoint anyone, or let hurt anyone. I never had to steal, but I did the other two. I never wanted to lie, either, but did that too.
kerry
OH RHONDA" you are so right u hit the nail right on the head " my gramma when she was still with us use to get very up set if she heard any one judge or think they were better then the next person if she was standing in a crowed of people even if she did not know some of them and they would talk about a person weather it be how they dressed or if they drank or whatever she had this saying' who are we to judge do we have a hallo or god written on our foreheads we were put on this earth to do a task and judgeing others or thinking we are better then others is not one of them so lets leave the judgeing to god please, anyway rhonda i think u are a very sweet lady and u have a very good heart please dont ever lose that. HUGS + LOVE LITTLE H.
My husband gets so mad that I spend so much time on here... when I'm down or depressed, he always tells me "You need to go back and see your shrink again. These people on this site are not professionals...they are drug addicts." But that's exactly why I feel so good talking to all of you - you are all just like me! With everyone and everything else in my life, I have to put up a front, be this perfect girl with the perfect home and the perfect family life. NO ONE in my life would understand how I could risk all of that for a prescription of pain pills... but on here, no one judges me or makes me feel like a lower-class citizen (well, ok, there are a few people on here that enjoy making others feel bad, but that's rare)..... I don't have to be perfect with all of you and that is the BEST thing.
For all of you newcomers, keep posting... it DOES help!
For all of you newcomers, keep posting... it DOES help!
I agree Danielle. Initially, the Board offered me a place where I could test the waters of getting honest about my pain pill use and addiction -- talk about the nuts and bolts of it. Now it helps tremendously in "keeping it green," so to speak. I need to remember, every day, what it was like at the end of my using -- as well as the fact that I will be right back where I left off if I think I can take a "little holiday" from complete abstinence. M.
HI DANIELLE" your husband loves you and i am sure he thinks he is only doing what is best for you and he means well but please keep posting no matter what anyone tells you' and even though my hubby supported me through my addiction and tried to help me in anyway he could god bless him" i still felt like i was all alone because he did not realy know or undersatand about addiction" so when it comes right down to it unless they have been there they realy dont know what to do" so weather we have the support of our family or not and it is alot easier on us if we have that support yes' but when i found this site it saved my life because these members helped me see i was not alone in this and they helped me get through the terrible guilt i was feeling because of how much i was worrieing my family and also that there were others out there who understood because they were going through the same thing and its because of members like my dear friend who has been there for me since i first became a member jacky" and others like marie" briar" rhonda" charmed" liz" bender" teresa1" iam clean today so PLEASE dont give up there are so many careing and supportive members here and you are one of them so keep posting and anytime u need support or even just to vent we are here . HUGS + LOVE LITTLE H.
Hi danielle...I think that I would rather talk to a bunch of sober addicts sometimes because unless the shrink is recovering himself, they have no idea what this disease is like.
Littlebeach Bingo,............
You hit the nail on the head....... these doctors think they have all the answers
the only people I beleive that have the answers are the ones that have experienced it we are the ginny pigs they use for there little experiements to see what works and what doesnt how long it takes for our brains to go back to normal ..DO we need anti-depressants........Do we need this that etc.
We are addicts and be proud of it what we did while using or if still using isnt important its what we do today just today that counts. Im glad my little post brought a little thought into some heads everybody consintrates on getting better how long does it take when will I be will You will get well..... You guys are better than a person who has studied for 20 years at uni only to find out what we already know about drugs.....LOL we know there addictive we know that they f*** with our heads so we done use them ( even though they feel good) It doesnt matter how long you have been clean or how long you have been trying to get clean the thing is you are trying and thats all that matters thats something in all these months that I have learnt thats all that matter in our lives right now.
Love you all guys Keep posting.
Rhonda
I havent posted for a while been busy cleaning my house what a MESS!!
You hit the nail on the head....... these doctors think they have all the answers
the only people I beleive that have the answers are the ones that have experienced it we are the ginny pigs they use for there little experiements to see what works and what doesnt how long it takes for our brains to go back to normal ..DO we need anti-depressants........Do we need this that etc.
We are addicts and be proud of it what we did while using or if still using isnt important its what we do today just today that counts. Im glad my little post brought a little thought into some heads everybody consintrates on getting better how long does it take when will I be will You will get well..... You guys are better than a person who has studied for 20 years at uni only to find out what we already know about drugs.....LOL we know there addictive we know that they f*** with our heads so we done use them ( even though they feel good) It doesnt matter how long you have been clean or how long you have been trying to get clean the thing is you are trying and thats all that matters thats something in all these months that I have learnt thats all that matter in our lives right now.
Love you all guys Keep posting.
Rhonda
I havent posted for a while been busy cleaning my house what a MESS!!
It is funny, when I was in treatment, there was this counselor that was the only one who could make me be honest, or make me cry...the other "drs" I could run circles around. But this guy, whom I have great respect for, was a recovering heroin addict. All he had to do was look at me, and I would spill all...I don't think that people know what it is like.
Danielle, I always wondered why I was the same way you are. Even today, with 90 days, I would give it up in a heartbeat if you told me that I could enjoy a high again. But I learned that it just doesn't work.
Danielle, I always wondered why I was the same way you are. Even today, with 90 days, I would give it up in a heartbeat if you told me that I could enjoy a high again. But I learned that it just doesn't work.
H and Little Beach, it's posts like yours that cement what I'm saying.... unless someone has been in my shoes, they don't understand. I would ask my husband to hide the pills and he would, but not good. Then I would find them and would take them and he would say "I just don't get it... Just don't take them."
I would take them even when I didn't WANT to take them. I'd see them and swallow three of them and then think "Why did I do that? I'm getting ready to go to bed, so that's a waste."
All a shrink does is judge.... unless they have been addicted to something, their only job is to judge you. I would rather someone who has been there - who can say "Look, I did this and I screwed up. Here's the way you should do it.?
Writing these posts is like lying on a couch in your therapists' office.. you get to talk and talk and get everything off your chest, but there's no $200 bill to be paid at the end
I would take them even when I didn't WANT to take them. I'd see them and swallow three of them and then think "Why did I do that? I'm getting ready to go to bed, so that's a waste."
All a shrink does is judge.... unless they have been addicted to something, their only job is to judge you. I would rather someone who has been there - who can say "Look, I did this and I screwed up. Here's the way you should do it.?
Writing these posts is like lying on a couch in your therapists' office.. you get to talk and talk and get everything off your chest, but there's no $200 bill to be paid at the end
Danielle...echo...ehco...echo....I did that too....I used to ask myself the same thing. why am I taking these damn pills, and why can't I stop????
someone told me the farther you get away from your last pill, the easier it gets.
It is also a DAMN lot of work to change addictive behavior.
It is a little better, but days like today, when the s*** hits the fan, i just have to hold on.
someone told me the farther you get away from your last pill, the easier it gets.
It is also a DAMN lot of work to change addictive behavior.
It is a little better, but days like today, when the s*** hits the fan, i just have to hold on.
Rhonda..I just read that you're from Australia!!! I am dying to go there!!! I used to have an email friend from there, but my computer broke..
I have never met anyone from down under that I didn't like. I don't know if it is like that living there, but you guys seem so happy!!
I have never met anyone from down under that I didn't like. I don't know if it is like that living there, but you guys seem so happy!!
Littlebeach,
Pls email me rhondac3@hotmail. or talk to me on msn would love to have you talk to me we could cam and have so much fun.
Take care my girl
Rhonda
xx
Pls email me rhondac3@hotmail. or talk to me on msn would love to have you talk to me we could cam and have so much fun.
Take care my girl
Rhonda
xx
