I have been smoking almost everyday since the age of 13. I am now 23 and have begunt o realize that weed has taken over my life mentally. I cannot focus on what has happened in my life from the time iI have started smoking until now.
I have stopped for almost two weeks but I hate the way my mind works without it. I have trouble sleeping at night & I dream very weird things when I finally fall asleep. I just feel as if I am dreaming the entire night. When I smoked, I never did. I also start to remember the things that have gone on in my life that I guess the wedd had blocked out. I hate it and it's extremely hard to cope. Nothing really awful but it is still hard to cope. I want to smoke more now than when I stopped. mY boyfriend has tried to help me but I gues it's hard with all the modd swings & staying up with me evry night.
I don't want to go to any meetings and I work so much that I rarley have anytime anyway.
I hope that someone can give me some pointers to releive this stress I'm having.
Thank you
I know how you feel.
I'll pray for both of us.
I'll pray for both of us.
Hi Mellie,
I also smoked for ten straight years before quitting. I'm glad you found this site. It helps to know you are not alone. I understand exactly how you feel. Quitting is very hard. I used to smoke cigarettes too, but I gave that up seven years ago, and what I learned from that is quitting an addiction can be very empowering. Once I quit smoking cigarettes, I felt like there was no task I could not accomplish, so I know you are struggling but keep it up. YOu benefit in so many ways, ways you could never even fathom. You just have to keep in mind how easy it is to smoke and how difficult it is to quit. You have to take the harder path to learn the most. I have made it two months without pot today, and I empathize with your statement about coping. It helps to keep in mind pot became your coping mechanism. Now it is a matter of teaching yourself to cope without turning to the weed. I have made a few unsuccessful attempts to quit, and I experienced dreams just like you are talking about.My dreams were terrifying. It also isn't that you didn't have dreams before, now you just remember them. (One of pots effects on memory) (They are much crazier dreams though aren't they?) I was also very tired all the time. The truth is that you are having a hard time sleeping because you were not choosing to go to sleep when you were stoned.The pot was determining when you fell asleep. For me every night I fell asleep exhausted, and I was never choosing to go to sleep, the pot chose for me. Once you stop smoking it becomes up to you to decide when to go to bed, and it is difficult for your body to adjust. That becomes easier. I found taking tylenol pm helped, but it is not good to rely on it, if you need to take it do it because it is important to get your sleep, but use it with caution. I used it for the first week. I also found the mood swings to be unbearable, and you know what kept me going--I could not bare to suffer through those again. Starting over would just be too painful. The times when I really struggle, I come on this site and read through other people's posts and the replies. It always helps me to feel better, and often times I get the strength I needed to make it a couple days longer. It is unusual, because sometimes quitting is easier the first few days, and it gets more challenging later, and for some reason that is the opposite of what you are prepared for. I felt the same way you mentioned, weed has taken mental control over you, and it has. You have to work to gain control of yourself back. Believe in yourself! You can do this. You'll be amazed how much weed affected your life once you have stepped away from it for a bit.
Good Luck
rubie
I also smoked for ten straight years before quitting. I'm glad you found this site. It helps to know you are not alone. I understand exactly how you feel. Quitting is very hard. I used to smoke cigarettes too, but I gave that up seven years ago, and what I learned from that is quitting an addiction can be very empowering. Once I quit smoking cigarettes, I felt like there was no task I could not accomplish, so I know you are struggling but keep it up. YOu benefit in so many ways, ways you could never even fathom. You just have to keep in mind how easy it is to smoke and how difficult it is to quit. You have to take the harder path to learn the most. I have made it two months without pot today, and I empathize with your statement about coping. It helps to keep in mind pot became your coping mechanism. Now it is a matter of teaching yourself to cope without turning to the weed. I have made a few unsuccessful attempts to quit, and I experienced dreams just like you are talking about.My dreams were terrifying. It also isn't that you didn't have dreams before, now you just remember them. (One of pots effects on memory) (They are much crazier dreams though aren't they?) I was also very tired all the time. The truth is that you are having a hard time sleeping because you were not choosing to go to sleep when you were stoned.The pot was determining when you fell asleep. For me every night I fell asleep exhausted, and I was never choosing to go to sleep, the pot chose for me. Once you stop smoking it becomes up to you to decide when to go to bed, and it is difficult for your body to adjust. That becomes easier. I found taking tylenol pm helped, but it is not good to rely on it, if you need to take it do it because it is important to get your sleep, but use it with caution. I used it for the first week. I also found the mood swings to be unbearable, and you know what kept me going--I could not bare to suffer through those again. Starting over would just be too painful. The times when I really struggle, I come on this site and read through other people's posts and the replies. It always helps me to feel better, and often times I get the strength I needed to make it a couple days longer. It is unusual, because sometimes quitting is easier the first few days, and it gets more challenging later, and for some reason that is the opposite of what you are prepared for. I felt the same way you mentioned, weed has taken mental control over you, and it has. You have to work to gain control of yourself back. Believe in yourself! You can do this. You'll be amazed how much weed affected your life once you have stepped away from it for a bit.
Good Luck
rubie
I just wanted to thank you for your replys. It's now the 4th week and I do feel so much better. My dreams are still there but I never realized that this was normal. Dreaming is actually fun but at the same time very, very weird. My mood swings are still in full blow but I'm learning how to deal with them. They must be getting better if I'm arguing with my boyfriend less. Actually the're just arguments. I don't have that overexaturated rage anymore. Of course my personality is changing for the better but I can still be a b**** at times (haha).
I feel much better in the morning and I have learned to mentally sleep instead of my body being forced to by weed. I do miss it at times like on a Sunday, especially rainy, when your inside all day watching movies. But there are other things to do like the laundry & cleaning (haha).
This was one of the best things that I did. Finding this message board & website. Alot of people around me have said the same things that you guys have said about weed, but It wasn't until I found this site that I realized it was all true. Reality check on my end. Unfortunatley it takes experience with addiction to give the best advice but fortunate for the addicts that we can relate to others.
I feel much better in the morning and I have learned to mentally sleep instead of my body being forced to by weed. I do miss it at times like on a Sunday, especially rainy, when your inside all day watching movies. But there are other things to do like the laundry & cleaning (haha).
This was one of the best things that I did. Finding this message board & website. Alot of people around me have said the same things that you guys have said about weed, but It wasn't until I found this site that I realized it was all true. Reality check on my end. Unfortunatley it takes experience with addiction to give the best advice but fortunate for the addicts that we can relate to others.
