Hi there
One more thing - I am so tired of trying to explain to my drug addicted boyfriend (he just started suboxone again this week for the umpteenth time) that without trust you can't have a love relationship. The drugs and spending on drugs are bad (the spending being somewhat my business since he owes me alot of money) but the lying about everything and the just not mentioning things like driving around with his ex girlfriend to get drugs and talking to her everyday (he did stop after I found out), are what really drive me nuts. He can't understand that it doesnt even matter what the lies are about - I can't trust someone who lies. I believe absolutely nothing that comes out of his mouth and I'm thinking what a waste of time to talk to someone who could be making everything up as he goes along.
I even thought of starting to lie to him to see how he likes it but why should i stoop to that level. Also, I 'm not doing anything I have to lie about.
I'm just rambling again so I will go.
Bye.
Shirl,
Go ahead and lie all ya want to him............if he's using he won't care.
We don't trust ourselves when we're using so the trust thing is non-existant.
Him driving around with his old girlfriend means nada........as far as telling you about it.........it doesn't matter to him.........all that matters to him, Shirl is getting high........getting the next bag..........how is he going to get it.....where's he going to cop........how's he getting the money for the dope......that's it plain and simple and I ain't being mean.
With heroin while in active use we just don't care.........maybe deep down we do at some level, but it won't stop us riding with a perfect stranger if it's to get drugs let alone an old girlfriend.......and if she's an addict well there ya go.
Please, Shirl I understand your anger and pain, BUT it ain't going to change.....and even if it is it will NOT be because you want it to........he's the only one has to want it.
O.K> here ya go.......are you trying to jusify leaving him or being angry at him because he lies? I ain't being a smart a*s............because you can't trust him.
You'd be angry at anyone that lied to ya.........anyone borrowed money and didn't pay it back ya'd be mad.
So, why ya taking it.......why are you allowing yourself to be treated like that?
He can not hear you..........only thing he hears is where and when and how the next bag comes from..........sorry if that is harsh, but that's the way it is with a heroin addict.
Go ahead and lie all ya want to him............if he's using he won't care.
We don't trust ourselves when we're using so the trust thing is non-existant.
Him driving around with his old girlfriend means nada........as far as telling you about it.........it doesn't matter to him.........all that matters to him, Shirl is getting high........getting the next bag..........how is he going to get it.....where's he going to cop........how's he getting the money for the dope......that's it plain and simple and I ain't being mean.
With heroin while in active use we just don't care.........maybe deep down we do at some level, but it won't stop us riding with a perfect stranger if it's to get drugs let alone an old girlfriend.......and if she's an addict well there ya go.
Please, Shirl I understand your anger and pain, BUT it ain't going to change.....and even if it is it will NOT be because you want it to........he's the only one has to want it.
O.K> here ya go.......are you trying to jusify leaving him or being angry at him because he lies? I ain't being a smart a*s............because you can't trust him.
You'd be angry at anyone that lied to ya.........anyone borrowed money and didn't pay it back ya'd be mad.
So, why ya taking it.......why are you allowing yourself to be treated like that?
He can not hear you..........only thing he hears is where and when and how the next bag comes from..........sorry if that is harsh, but that's the way it is with a heroin addict.
