What is truth? I am learning that my truth is not The Truth
This is where we as people, people with problems like alcoholism fall down. We think our version of personal truth is IT. The real truth. It is not. It is a distortion.
The universe exists in perfect balance, its laws are immutable. When we are in tune with that power the power of the universe our higher power - then at that moment in time we are clearly aware of The Truth.
The minute our own ego begins to interfere we are again dealing with our personal version of truth which does not line up with The Truth as our higher power knows it to be.
When I function from my truth I behave, speak and think imperfectly. The closer we can get to functioning from The Truth the more improvements we will see in our own behaviour, speech and thoughts.
My truth is not The Truth. Understanding this is the first step in letting go.
My truth while I was still out there was so far-fetched...I didn't even start realizing this early on in my recovery; it took awhile to get that what I had fabricated in my mind was not the way things really were...my perception of reality was so distorted. Very profound Idgie, thank you.
Great post. Thank you! I am realizing my truth was self delusion. Thank God today there is a solution and I can change my perception and not distort my truth to accomodate that delusion. Early in recovery I caught on that my behavior was self will run riot. I know when I am full of fear and anxiety I am running on self will, not God's will. When I tap into God's spiritual energy things run more freely and smoothly.
Rachel
Rachel
QUOTE: I am realizing my truth was self delusion UNQUOTE
yes this is it exactly. Facing this and dealing with this is growing up. Even though I'm 36 I think its only in the last few years that I've started to grow up.
yes this is it exactly. Facing this and dealing with this is growing up. Even though I'm 36 I think its only in the last few years that I've started to grow up.
Hey Idgie,
You doing good growing up at 36, Im 39 and just starting to......I think!
You doing good growing up at 36, Im 39 and just starting to......I think!
Wow great post Idgie!!! This makes perfect sense to me., and i admire the way you put it into words.
I guess i'm like a 15 y/o stuck in a 31 y/o body;)
I guess i'm like a 15 y/o stuck in a 31 y/o body;)
Good Morning, I'm like the Grandma of this Board! I'm 46 and I didn't start maturing emotionally until I got sober a couple of years ago!
Hey Granny girl how's it going? LOL.
I think we're all at good ages - and I think every year gets better. I've never been one to whinge about my age - we should be thrilled we're alive not worried about getting older. Frankly my younger years sucked, I wouldn't want to go backwards.
So Ginge when's the big 40 mate?
I think we're all at good ages - and I think every year gets better. I've never been one to whinge about my age - we should be thrilled we're alive not worried about getting older. Frankly my younger years sucked, I wouldn't want to go backwards.
So Ginge when's the big 40 mate?
Thanks for that Idgie!
40 is in october, I dont feel 40, well sometimes I do!
My mates are saying what you doing for your 40th?
All I answer is if they want a party it will be ice cream and coke! (Coca cola)
You havent been to Brissie, come on girl,
And im a wanna be aussie, well I am a aussie now been here off an on since 1987, got citizenship a few weeks back,So im both Kiwi, and Aussie !!
40 is in october, I dont feel 40, well sometimes I do!
My mates are saying what you doing for your 40th?
All I answer is if they want a party it will be ice cream and coke! (Coca cola)
You havent been to Brissie, come on girl,
And im a wanna be aussie, well I am a aussie now been here off an on since 1987, got citizenship a few weeks back,So im both Kiwi, and Aussie !!
hey congrats on your citizenship Ginge - my H just got his citizenship on Australia Day. He's dual also Aussie and USA. Sadly, we've already managed to kill the tree they gave him - oops.
Someone said once that our maturity when we stop drinking is the same as the age when we started drinking. So i'll keep reading and maturing.
Hey Ginge your a kwazzie now also I'll be gone for a few days as going over to see the CRUSADERS play the Hurricanes. I'll do a check in the morning and again thankyou so much Ginge for telling me about this wonderful place to post.
Light and love Zac
Hey Ginge your a kwazzie now also I'll be gone for a few days as going over to see the CRUSADERS play the Hurricanes. I'll do a check in the morning and again thankyou so much Ginge for telling me about this wonderful place to post.
Light and love Zac
Have a great time Zac! Glad you're here too, it is great isn't it?
Howdy,
Zac have a good time at the Rugby, make sure you have something warm to wear, I take it that its at Jade Stadium,
This is a good place ay Zac, I had told you about it but took me a bit to let ya know, cause no one really knew me on here in person, but I know your cool, and I know we have both been down the same path, you know what I mean, Westcoast drunks!!!!
Yep Aussie now oi oi oi!
Hey Idgie you married an American?
I thought there was not many here, we all go there way!
Take care got to sleep but cant tonite, went to bed at 7.30 and tossed an turned till now an got up to look on here but better try as I have to be up at 3.00am!
Take care,
Go The Crusaders!
Ginge
Zac have a good time at the Rugby, make sure you have something warm to wear, I take it that its at Jade Stadium,
This is a good place ay Zac, I had told you about it but took me a bit to let ya know, cause no one really knew me on here in person, but I know your cool, and I know we have both been down the same path, you know what I mean, Westcoast drunks!!!!
Yep Aussie now oi oi oi!
Hey Idgie you married an American?
I thought there was not many here, we all go there way!
Take care got to sleep but cant tonite, went to bed at 7.30 and tossed an turned till now an got up to look on here but better try as I have to be up at 3.00am!
Take care,
Go The Crusaders!
Ginge
Zac - OMG that's scary - I started drinking (a bit) at age 14, but didn't drink a lot until 17 or so. Wow yeah I can see that - arrested development and all that. What a frightening and humiliating thought. And a good reason to stay sober - yikes - I want to be an adult - not just look like one.
Ginge - yup - he was a sailor boy LOL. Actually i spent 11 years over there with him (SoCal), dragged him back here 4 years ago.
I met him in Perth when his ship was in Freeo for a week - I'm such a cliche the Aussie girl and the yankee sailor.
Ginge - yup - he was a sailor boy LOL. Actually i spent 11 years over there with him (SoCal), dragged him back here 4 years ago.
I met him in Perth when his ship was in Freeo for a week - I'm such a cliche the Aussie girl and the yankee sailor.
God, I wish my emotional maturity is when I started abusing drugs (I started late..). Unfortunately, I was plenty, plenty immature even before the drugs. Scaaaryyyy.
My issue was "Reality? What reality", "People, what are people? What are these biological creatures and how do I relate to them?" The only people I related to were the ones I created in my head, because I felt they were the only ones that could possibly like or respect me. "Real" people could not possibly like or respect because I didn't like or respect me. And that is still a very, very big battle for me right now.
For me, AA is starting to help me realize that the "real world" is not such a scary place, and I do have and deserve to have, a place in it.
My issue was "Reality? What reality", "People, what are people? What are these biological creatures and how do I relate to them?" The only people I related to were the ones I created in my head, because I felt they were the only ones that could possibly like or respect me. "Real" people could not possibly like or respect because I didn't like or respect me. And that is still a very, very big battle for me right now.
For me, AA is starting to help me realize that the "real world" is not such a scary place, and I do have and deserve to have, a place in it.
