I aint to sure where to post this ............so ill stick it here .it z been awhile since i posted bout wutz goin on in my life since january 24. Alot has happened since then alot of it good some of it bad.I been clean for the most part ive gotten high twice unlike the past 7 monthz where ive binged out every chance i ve gotten .i desreve no credit for only gettin high twice in the last lil while, i know. When i binged out the past two times it was in a 2 day period i had close to 2 eight balls and a bunch of herion i did 4 pointz of H in day and the same amount the next day i dont usual do it .i basicly was tryin to kill my sefl. I dont know y i get in those type of "moods" where i jus wanna die . I dont understand it at all .Its like a monthly thing like my menstraul period Im not sure wut sets it off or y i actual atempt this risky behaviour .Not jus the drugs and the lifestyle that come with it .All of this happened over 2 weeks ago since then ive been CLEAN from the hardstuff.Proud to say that i aint makin the dealers rich ne more im spendin my cash on my a** makin myself look good .I like hearing dang look at the fine a** mamacita instead of wanna smoke a rock not only do i need and have to get my life back on track for my self i have to look after my father for 2 months cause hes goin in for surgery on his knee next week.consider i live in british columbia Canada he will be very lucky if the procedure doesnt get cancelled as it has been moved from on date to another once already . idont know wut elese to include in ths post cept im TRYIN HARD to stay CLEAN and stay out of trouble
1_sad_girl,
You are doing the right thing. Not to sound like steppin it, but it is only one day at a time. Doing the best you can when you can is when it counts the most. Those days that you used was just a moment in time. Today, tomorrow, and the next day is all that matters. Just the fact that you post shows you want to quite. Keep up the fight and no matter how many times you use, don't ever give up on quitten.
The best of luck
to you.
You are doing the right thing. Not to sound like steppin it, but it is only one day at a time. Doing the best you can when you can is when it counts the most. Those days that you used was just a moment in time. Today, tomorrow, and the next day is all that matters. Just the fact that you post shows you want to quite. Keep up the fight and no matter how many times you use, don't ever give up on quitten.
The best of luck
to you.
I am also trying to be clean. It is scary some time and I sure have dropped off the wagon many times. But then sometime after my last binge I will start trying again. I don't make it all the time. But sometime I can put off a binge. So I as you all will keep on trying.
Keeping on keeping on,
Kyra
Keeping on keeping on,
Kyra
Haven heard from u lately, Hope all is well. I know the feeling of lonelyness and sometimes it is unbearable, lay awake at night wondering who all I have hurt in the past years. I wish I could take it all back, but time moves forward not back.Hopeing for a better tomorrow.
Kyra
Kyra
