I first camehere the other day and I cant believe how much this has helped me. I have not used heroin since wednesday, just sticking to my methadone. It has been a lot easier than I thought it would be and definately a lot easier had I not had the meth! There are some cool people who know what they tlking about and you don't feel like you are being patronised as I seem to feel when talking to certain people. It has been hard(especially when you have got people asking you to score for them.I have to say NO!). I am still thinking about it alot, and that gets me down. When will it stop?
Keeping myself busy has been a bit of a help, but it still manages to slip in somehow, I am trying to remind myself how much hard work it is being a junkie and all the crap that goes with it. How much it hurts yourself and those around you etc. I really want to be able to go to my clinic this week and give my first negative test. So fingers crossed for me eh people? Cheers for all your words!
Claire, my son is on methadone as well, just started 4 or 5 days ago. I wish you a lot of luck. My son gets calls too and I imagine it is people who want drugs. I thought about not answering, but I know this is his battle. It is nice to know that you realize that people care about you and are rooting you on.
..Claire..
..Thats good that you ain,t used since weds..your always gonna get people asking you to score for them or d,ya wanna go arfs on a joey until they get the message that ya staying off the brown..going to the clinic and giving ya first clean sample is a buzz in itself claire..you,ll feel proud of yaself if ya do it..good luck mate..it,ll get easier as time moves on..take it easy..Robbie..
..Thats good that you ain,t used since weds..your always gonna get people asking you to score for them or d,ya wanna go arfs on a joey until they get the message that ya staying off the brown..going to the clinic and giving ya first clean sample is a buzz in itself claire..you,ll feel proud of yaself if ya do it..good luck mate..it,ll get easier as time moves on..take it easy..Robbie..
I remeber my first negative test, my couselor was so proud of me as well as my wife, that was 6 years ago, and now I have a great life (On methadone) I go to a doctor once a month, and pick up my 4 week supply of methadone pills. I live a normal life , no more clinic, it is great. I have a house , job, 2 kids, wife and a beautiful life, It is a long way from a hopeless junkie from the NYC ghetto.It takes alot of hard work, but it is worth it. I also had to accept i take medicine every day to be normal , much like a diabetic, but it is better then the alternative,
Hi there clueless. thanks for bothering to put a few words in love. Your son has made the first step in the right direction, there are alot of people out there who say that methadone is just as bad as heroin, which is most probably debatable, we all know it is addictive, but at least your are not sticking needles in our arms or smoking etc. It is early days for your son and you, but you sound supportive and that is a huge help in its self, beleive me it sure makes a huge difference when you know you have got someone rooting for you like yousasy. Good luck to you both, would love to hear from you again. Hope you get this love Claire
Hey there Billedtrain, thanks for your words. It is sooo nice to know that there is life at the end of the proverbial tunnel! You have done really well and you deserve the best. What a battle eh mate? So glad that you have support around you, I to have been lucky there as well, but I know so many people who have no one. Take care friend Loadsa love Claire
Alright Robbie, love to hear from youcos you sound well sound, just wanted to get this out the way first 4 - 1 !!!!! WHAT A TOUCH!! I have cmposed myself now. It is monday now and guess what still aint used!! looking good for that negative test eh bruv? This is a bit of a personal question, but do you live in the south east?
Please stay in touch with me mate, got to go put me boys tea on!
See you later loadsa love Claire xx
Please stay in touch with me mate, got to go put me boys tea on!
See you later loadsa love Claire xx
..Claire..
..Thx..ya sound like a nice girl yaself..i know i was well pleased with the rsult..not long to go now until the end of the season..man u at home will be the one that,ll cap it think..well pleased for ya that you ain,t used yet..keep it up girl..ya doing well..its ok to ask where im frm..im always curious about wot areas people live in..im frm london..south west..im 15-20 mins walk frm chelsea,s ground..i live bang on the embankment..wot about yaself..you sound like ya frm the south..how many kids ya got if ya don,t mind me askin..i think i told ya i,ve only got 1 boy..of course i,ll stay in touch..us addicts have gotta look out for each other claire..apart frm the familes no one else will look out for us..i,ll be around most of the night if ya wanna have a talk or sumat..it can get a bit boring at times when ya fighting addiction..i suppose ya kid/s keep ya on ya toes thou :-) ..enjoy wots left of the day mate..see ya when i see ya..
..Robbie..
..ps..i see ya asking how to keep using mates away when ya tryna stay off the brown..ya just gotta be strong and tell them ya not using or getting nuffin for them claire..as hard as it is..cos you know thm and they might be sick..you,ve gotta look out for yaself cos ya might get dragged back into it..and if they,re friends and they know ya trying tostay off the gear..they should,nt come knocking if they respect ya wishes..cos they ain,t just dragging you back into it..they,re bringing ya kids back into a life of living with an addicted parent aswell..good luck mate...go on the blues :- )
..Thx..ya sound like a nice girl yaself..i know i was well pleased with the rsult..not long to go now until the end of the season..man u at home will be the one that,ll cap it think..well pleased for ya that you ain,t used yet..keep it up girl..ya doing well..its ok to ask where im frm..im always curious about wot areas people live in..im frm london..south west..im 15-20 mins walk frm chelsea,s ground..i live bang on the embankment..wot about yaself..you sound like ya frm the south..how many kids ya got if ya don,t mind me askin..i think i told ya i,ve only got 1 boy..of course i,ll stay in touch..us addicts have gotta look out for each other claire..apart frm the familes no one else will look out for us..i,ll be around most of the night if ya wanna have a talk or sumat..it can get a bit boring at times when ya fighting addiction..i suppose ya kid/s keep ya on ya toes thou :-) ..enjoy wots left of the day mate..see ya when i see ya..
..Robbie..
..ps..i see ya asking how to keep using mates away when ya tryna stay off the brown..ya just gotta be strong and tell them ya not using or getting nuffin for them claire..as hard as it is..cos you know thm and they might be sick..you,ve gotta look out for yaself cos ya might get dragged back into it..and if they,re friends and they know ya trying tostay off the gear..they should,nt come knocking if they respect ya wishes..cos they ain,t just dragging you back into it..they,re bringing ya kids back into a life of living with an addicted parent aswell..good luck mate...go on the blues :- )
