Well heres my story and I need your advice. I am a 28 yr old male with 2 beautiful children,a loving family and all the support I can handle. I have been battling a opiate for the better part of a decade with very minimal success.I have been to rehab 5 times and been on and off suboxone and other meds for years. I have done the 12 step programs and even put together a little clean time hear and there but I always go back. I am a heavy IV user and fear my addiction has progressed to the point of no return. I really dont know what to do. I have tried alot of things and got lots of advice for things to try by family. My mother suggested this site so I figured what the hell i'll try it. I have done all the grimy things Im sure we all have so Im not going to go into details about that. I dont know if that switch has clicked in me but I do try to stop and just never can. I dunno if its lazyness on my part or what it is but the motivation just doesnt seem to be there for me anymore.I would rather lay on my couch and wait for some magic thing to happen and cure me. I know thats not going to happen but what is going to kick me in the @$$ is a mystery. So here I am reaching out to all of you for advice. If you have any please send it my way. Thank you for taking the time to read this.
Hay bud its NEVER too late, I have been on and off (mainly on) for 25 years plus, but I still try, I have found that, getting off isnt the problem its staying off, with all the triggers out there, you have to deconstruct then reconstruct your old life, bin bag all the old friends, and old hang outs, and start doing new stuff, keep bizzie sitting around used to give me time to think (about scoring mainly)
And any pain would be magnified, this is not something that can be achieved overnight, take it slowly, small achievements will add up to massive things with time
Just take it minute by minute then hour by hour then day by day, if you find yourself about to slip, look into the loving eyes of your kids for inspiration
The longest journey starts beneath our feet, hang on in there it gets easier with time
bob
And any pain would be magnified, this is not something that can be achieved overnight, take it slowly, small achievements will add up to massive things with time
Just take it minute by minute then hour by hour then day by day, if you find yourself about to slip, look into the loving eyes of your kids for inspiration
The longest journey starts beneath our feet, hang on in there it gets easier with time
bob
Welcome and hello....i too, IV user for long long time, on and off...took the methadone route and have been clean for almost 4 years now...one relapse....i think i was just sick of being sick all the time...tired of the whole routine...decided enough was enough....I was using when I found this site too...so many here who have been thru it and have remained clean....it helps, at least for me to be able to come here and just talk...you have to be patient sometimes, were all in different timezones...im over in Bavaria....but please stick around...you can do it too...even if it takes a million times...eventually you get there...dont stop trying...each time it gets a bit easier to stay clean the next time...were all with you here...
Constantine
Constantine
WhatWillWork,
You did a good thing by coming to this site as you'll get a lot of information from people who are or have been in your shoes,whether new or for decades. You said you have been on various meds to help with your addiction,such as suboxone.
Have you been on methadone, either a detox or on a maintenance program? If so, what happened?? It is a very good step in the road to recovery,if you let it, but the stigma attached to its use sometimes stops one from using it to be free of opiate addiction mainly because of misinformation,wives tales and blatant lies about methadones benefits.
I used for years and now have been clean for years with methadones help and I became an advocate for heroin patients. If you have questions keep coming back...there are folks here to help you.Visit the methadone site too. It is relatively new but in its short existance there is a lot of good and informative stuff there.
As long as you realize you cannot fight addiction alone you have a fighting chance of becoming drug free...if that is really what you want. It seems you have made many attempts but still havent quite found your way to total abstinance.
Keep coming back...your mother is a wise woman.....LOL
Granny23
You did a good thing by coming to this site as you'll get a lot of information from people who are or have been in your shoes,whether new or for decades. You said you have been on various meds to help with your addiction,such as suboxone.
Have you been on methadone, either a detox or on a maintenance program? If so, what happened?? It is a very good step in the road to recovery,if you let it, but the stigma attached to its use sometimes stops one from using it to be free of opiate addiction mainly because of misinformation,wives tales and blatant lies about methadones benefits.
I used for years and now have been clean for years with methadones help and I became an advocate for heroin patients. If you have questions keep coming back...there are folks here to help you.Visit the methadone site too. It is relatively new but in its short existance there is a lot of good and informative stuff there.
As long as you realize you cannot fight addiction alone you have a fighting chance of becoming drug free...if that is really what you want. It seems you have made many attempts but still havent quite found your way to total abstinance.
Keep coming back...your mother is a wise woman.....LOL
Granny23
hey everybody thanks for the imput I really appriciate every one of you taking the time to reply. Today again is a rough day for me Ive been up since 8am tryin to figure out how to get money to use.nothing has panned out and im glad it hasnt I am going to try to resist the urge until I can get to a meeting tonight. Also in answer to your questions I have not tried methadone legally before it was always just something that i happened upon to get me by and it was few and far between. I have been really concidering getting on it though I actually was calling and getting some info today about a couple places. I think its either going to be that or another trip to rehab for me. But the methadone is something new and I have been to rehab numerous times without success. so Its more than likely what im going to do. once again everyone thank you. have a good day. Also I wanted to say it is nice to hear some encouraging words its been awhile. My family has just run out of hope anymore it seems like and I cant blame them at all. They still love me and want me to be clean. Its ive burned them on many occasions when all they had was hope. but again thanks
whatwillwork,
just a word of advice........most methadone clinics are filled with wonderful,kind,respectful, and educated persons who spend their days helping opiate addicts.
Then there are ones who have rude, uneducated and meanspirited persons who give methadone clinics a bad name & scare the crap out of an addict who has finally made the choice to be free of heroin.
Please make sure you follow your gut. If you are not treated with dignity, respect and kindness GET YOUR a** OUT OF THERE & GO SOMEWHERE ELSE!!!
What state are you in???? California by any chance??? I can maybe refer you if you are....
good luck........
just a word of advice........most methadone clinics are filled with wonderful,kind,respectful, and educated persons who spend their days helping opiate addicts.
Then there are ones who have rude, uneducated and meanspirited persons who give methadone clinics a bad name & scare the crap out of an addict who has finally made the choice to be free of heroin.
Please make sure you follow your gut. If you are not treated with dignity, respect and kindness GET YOUR a** OUT OF THERE & GO SOMEWHERE ELSE!!!
What state are you in???? California by any chance??? I can maybe refer you if you are....
good luck........
I have one question, I am a Iv user as well as orally, I have been trying to get info on the best steps to take.. I was able to get methodome from the streets and it works well I was 5 days clean and havent been that way in years, please can someone give me a reliable way to get the information I need , Thank you
to bemoorecareful,
You didnt say exactly what kind of help you are seeking.I am going to guess that you would like to stop the life you have been leading and try to clean up. If you are doing heroin there are a few ways out there that can help you to stop.
What state are you in???, do you have insurance orHave you applied for any type of aid or done any detoxes??
Methadone was the answer for me,it saved my life, but not everyone feels that way. For starters,you can go over to the methadone board and read up on what we have written there. It was started just for folks such as yourself who have questions and need/want good honest answers to their questions about methadone. If you dont find the answers you are looking for let us know as there are a lot of good,clean heroin addicts that wander the halls here ready to help you.
Most clinics have detox programs with varying lenghts of time from 21 days to 6 mos and more and of course maintenance. There is also Suboxone,which I personally know very little about.
You have taken the first step and reached out for help. You can also try N.A. meetings or A.A. meetings for support as well. Keep coming back to the heroin board and the methadone board as well. We are here to help you.
Granny23
You didnt say exactly what kind of help you are seeking.I am going to guess that you would like to stop the life you have been leading and try to clean up. If you are doing heroin there are a few ways out there that can help you to stop.
What state are you in???, do you have insurance orHave you applied for any type of aid or done any detoxes??
Methadone was the answer for me,it saved my life, but not everyone feels that way. For starters,you can go over to the methadone board and read up on what we have written there. It was started just for folks such as yourself who have questions and need/want good honest answers to their questions about methadone. If you dont find the answers you are looking for let us know as there are a lot of good,clean heroin addicts that wander the halls here ready to help you.
Most clinics have detox programs with varying lenghts of time from 21 days to 6 mos and more and of course maintenance. There is also Suboxone,which I personally know very little about.
You have taken the first step and reached out for help. You can also try N.A. meetings or A.A. meetings for support as well. Keep coming back to the heroin board and the methadone board as well. We are here to help you.
Granny23
Hi Guys!!
W.W.W!!I find it really strange buddy that after all the rehab routes you have tried,n,whatever other ways you have tried that you have never tried going on a maintenence script,even if just to get yourself stabilisied and decide from there whether to stay on the meth or subutex or whatever.By the way you are talking it doesnt seem that there is much info around where you are about these things.?Where is it that you live btw?
I think if you have been through all other options then why not give it a go.If you use it as your supposed to then you can live and function like a normal person,just ask Jack or Con or any of the other NORMAL people around here..lol..BUT..F.F.S.!!Dont ask me..lol..
Seriously though as others have said,,hang around,n,get all the info you need regarding drugs as there is always someone here with the info you need whether you want to hear it or not..Sometimes people dont like it bcoz they dont get the info they want!!What they get though is the TRUTH,from people probably like yourself ,who know ,usually bcoz they,ve been there or had to live with someone who has.........TAKE CARE M8....
ECK....
W.W.W!!I find it really strange buddy that after all the rehab routes you have tried,n,whatever other ways you have tried that you have never tried going on a maintenence script,even if just to get yourself stabilisied and decide from there whether to stay on the meth or subutex or whatever.By the way you are talking it doesnt seem that there is much info around where you are about these things.?Where is it that you live btw?
I think if you have been through all other options then why not give it a go.If you use it as your supposed to then you can live and function like a normal person,just ask Jack or Con or any of the other NORMAL people around here..lol..BUT..F.F.S.!!Dont ask me..lol..
Seriously though as others have said,,hang around,n,get all the info you need regarding drugs as there is always someone here with the info you need whether you want to hear it or not..Sometimes people dont like it bcoz they dont get the info they want!!What they get though is the TRUTH,from people probably like yourself ,who know ,usually bcoz they,ve been there or had to live with someone who has.........TAKE CARE M8....
ECK....
