I've been posting here occassionally for a few weeks but have not shared my entire story yet. I have a hard time with words, but feel the need to try to tell my story. I am a 32 year old wife and mother. I first started taking lortab at the age of 26. I have cracked vertabrea and nerve problems in my neck and back. Like most others, I took them as prescribed at first. Eventually I started taking them because they seemed to make life easier. After about 2 years, I went into rehab. I was taking about 7 or 8 pills a day. I went into a 5 day rehab and came out thinking I was "all better". I was clean for about 7 months. Then I was in a horibble accident and hurt my right leg and foot really bad. Of course, this started me right up with the pills again. After about another year I went back to rehab. At that point I was up to about 10 to 15 pills a day. This time the rehab didn't help at all, or I guess I wasn't willing to help myself. I went back and forth for several months. Started fighting with my husband and having bad depression. At that point my psychiatrist told me to get on methadone to get off the pills. I didn't know anything about methadone nor did I know anyone who was on it. My psychiatrist told me that this was the best plan for me. So I went on methadone. It costs $12.50 a day and for the first 6 months you have to go up there every day except Sunday. I was on it for 2 years and finally got off it in Sept. this year. I was up to 90mg. at my highest. I got down to 11mg. before going off it completely. To me, it was as difficult to come off the 11mg. of methadone as it was to come off the lortab. My point is that I felt the methadone was a waste of time and a lot of money. It may work for some people but my advice to anyone thinking of going on it, really research it and talk to people who have been on it or are currently on it. Since off the methadone, things are getting better. I have noticed though that I don't have very much holiday spirit this year. I have a 9 year old daughter though so I will make myself put up the tree, get presents, maybe even bake some cookies. Well, I feel better now that I finally got my story down in words. I enjoy this message board and look forward to becoming more a part of it.
dear michelle,
Youve been narcotic free since september??thats is so great! Congratulations.
Did you find the methadone was as tough a detox as your other D.O.C.? You stated that you were in an accident that put you back on narcotics after coming off them through rehab...you stated that the 2nd time you were taking more, but were you taking for pain only or abusing them for emotional satisfaction??
Im surprised that from the amount you were on the shrink thought you should go on methadone....from what ve read its tough if nott ougher to detox from..
Holidays are tough honey, Im going through the same thing right now, but have no children so I really do not have any motivation to put up the tree, decorate etc..only to have to take it all down in 4 weeks...just dont have the holiday spirit.
Keep up the great work, and go throughthe motions for your childs sake, before you know it you will actually be having a great time in seeing your childs responce to Christmas, and thejoys it can bring. Fake it till you make it..lolol
Thanks for sharing your story,
Hugs,
Ali
Youve been narcotic free since september??thats is so great! Congratulations.
Did you find the methadone was as tough a detox as your other D.O.C.? You stated that you were in an accident that put you back on narcotics after coming off them through rehab...you stated that the 2nd time you were taking more, but were you taking for pain only or abusing them for emotional satisfaction??
Im surprised that from the amount you were on the shrink thought you should go on methadone....from what ve read its tough if nott ougher to detox from..
Holidays are tough honey, Im going through the same thing right now, but have no children so I really do not have any motivation to put up the tree, decorate etc..only to have to take it all down in 4 weeks...just dont have the holiday spirit.
Keep up the great work, and go throughthe motions for your childs sake, before you know it you will actually be having a great time in seeing your childs responce to Christmas, and thejoys it can bring. Fake it till you make it..lolol
Thanks for sharing your story,
Hugs,
Ali
