Hi to anyone interested, first time I been here. Just really wanted to see what other "users" are thinking. I have been on the gear for 12year now and it has had has as much of me as I can give. I have recently started a Methadone programme, this will be about the 8th time I've tried Meth. I have been on this particular programme for about 10 weeks now, early days you could say. What is driving me mad is that not a day goes by when I don't think about using. Nothing new there I hear you say. At first I was doing quite well I even managed to give 1 clean piss test at my clinic although it was positive for crack, I was proud that it was clear of heroin though.Over the last couple of weeks or so I have been using again and feeling real bad about doing this. I have an 8 year old son and he is such a smart lovely kid, he deserves better than this, salthoug I must admit I have tried to keep him away from the crap as much as posssible. My mum has been an angel through all of this. I just hope that my using over the last couple of weeks aint going to turn in to a huge relapse. What can I do to stop thinking about this?
..Alright claire..Welcome..
..Yeah..them cravings once you,ve stopped are a killer..They drive us mad for sure..just one last bag today and we,ll stop for good tomorrow..it won,t work like that..the cycle contiues day after day..as much as you try not to thing about using..its very hard to concentrate on anything else..its like a monkey on our back..its on us everywhere we go..i had sum cravings the other day and im almost 4 mths clean..so i know the urges when it hits us..but coming on here has helped me no end in staying clean..theres really good people on here who are willing to help and give their support..i don,t know wot you do to keep yourself occupied from using..i play and listen to a lot of music which also helps me..i,ve got a 12 yr old.(12 tomorrow) who keeps me on me toes..i read, long walks.,wotever can keep my mind ticking over..thats about all i can suggest to ya..maybe you can keep sum sort of diary on yourself and how your feeling thru the days..writing can relieve the tension i think..good luck when you decide to stop claire in getting and staying clean..Robbie..
..Yeah..them cravings once you,ve stopped are a killer..They drive us mad for sure..just one last bag today and we,ll stop for good tomorrow..it won,t work like that..the cycle contiues day after day..as much as you try not to thing about using..its very hard to concentrate on anything else..its like a monkey on our back..its on us everywhere we go..i had sum cravings the other day and im almost 4 mths clean..so i know the urges when it hits us..but coming on here has helped me no end in staying clean..theres really good people on here who are willing to help and give their support..i don,t know wot you do to keep yourself occupied from using..i play and listen to a lot of music which also helps me..i,ve got a 12 yr old.(12 tomorrow) who keeps me on me toes..i read, long walks.,wotever can keep my mind ticking over..thats about all i can suggest to ya..maybe you can keep sum sort of diary on yourself and how your feeling thru the days..writing can relieve the tension i think..good luck when you decide to stop claire in getting and staying clean..Robbie..
Yes, know ALL about those Cravings. Some things you may wish to try:have a plan for the day? I don't mean to sound schoolmarmish here, but maybe sit down write a list of things you gotta do that day. Even the little stuff like clean house.get groceries. cook a nice dinner for yourself & your kid.bake them a cake .do some mending. I hate to sound like Suzy Homemaker but what you're actually doing is diverting your energies/mind into other endeavours besides scoring. I cannot tell u how many times I've stared @ the phone, thinking "call him"(My Dealer) then scrubbed the floor, or gone for a walk & find I am not thinking about it anymore. Ive been battling 20+ yrs. & YOUR MIND is 90% of it, the Battle.If you're dosed u should not feel bad. Just get thru the day w/o scoring, once. You may get a rush of pride & courage to keep it up. If u do 1 day "sober" it's like money in the bank (literally, figuratively) And you'll have a REALLY clean house.Divert The Mind!! Good luck, kid! Keep posting.
Its o.k. to say do this and try a little light housework but when you re at a realy bad stage you dont even feel able to have a shower! I am so terrified of trying this rattle!! Its the fear and the leg pains and sleeplessness that is putting me off! Im on such a LOW dosage of meth and am still terified of doing it! god, I am so glad I found this site tonight! Its been a great help! But the one bit of advice I would give anyone is to try and avoid the meth! Im getting n the phone to nag all the support workers in my area to see about subutex 2morro! thanx again guys!
Hi Robbie thanks so much for your kind words (fellow Chelsea fan can't be bad!)
Happy 12th birthday to your child. I did not use yesterday and I have not used today. When I woke up this morning I was feeling a bit ropey but nothing to what I would be feeling had I not had my juice. I don't know if it is all inn my head or if it's because i never used yesterday. Maybe a bit of both?
This is really helpful and helps me realise that there are others in the same boat. Take care and you are doing really well, I hope I am in the same place you are now in 4 months time. Good luck, Cheers.
Happy 12th birthday to your child. I did not use yesterday and I have not used today. When I woke up this morning I was feeling a bit ropey but nothing to what I would be feeling had I not had my juice. I don't know if it is all inn my head or if it's because i never used yesterday. Maybe a bit of both?
This is really helpful and helps me realise that there are others in the same boat. Take care and you are doing really well, I hope I am in the same place you are now in 4 months time. Good luck, Cheers.
the meth program ig only good if they are tapering you down till you are off it completly.Methadone is an opiate too so it will help keepo your cravings up for dope also crack or coke will counteract the methadone and make you crave it.what i do is prey for strength in the morning and remember the withdraw's and bad times.then keep busy all day.
..Claire..
..Cheers for the birthday shout to my son..your a chelsea girl aswell..i like you already.lol.!!..i know,,theres nuffin worse is there..waking up and thats the first thing that you think of..you have to start sumwhere claire..there has to be a day 1 to start getting clean..seems to me they day could of been yesterday for you..if you can keep it up..we all have our good and bad days..weather we,re in recovery or not..but its no good looking back..just gotta keep focused on wots ahead..good luck claire..i hope you can make it to 4 mths and well beyond that also..stick around on here aswell..its a good place to get out of ya system wot needs getting out..see ya later..Robbie..
..Cheers for the birthday shout to my son..your a chelsea girl aswell..i like you already.lol.!!..i know,,theres nuffin worse is there..waking up and thats the first thing that you think of..you have to start sumwhere claire..there has to be a day 1 to start getting clean..seems to me they day could of been yesterday for you..if you can keep it up..we all have our good and bad days..weather we,re in recovery or not..but its no good looking back..just gotta keep focused on wots ahead..good luck claire..i hope you can make it to 4 mths and well beyond that also..stick around on here aswell..its a good place to get out of ya system wot needs getting out..see ya later..Robbie..
