Hi, I chose Stupid Me!, cause that's how I feel. My ex BF is a crack addict, so to stop the pain, I've turned to pain pills, Hydrocodone 7.5. I don't know if I'm addicted, but I haven't gone more than a day without taking a couple for over a year. Most days I only take 2-4, usually 2 at night, but sometimes a couple during the day. I don't steal, lie, become abusive, it doesn't effect my job or my relationships. Nobody knows or suspects it at all. First question, do you think I have a problem? Second question, (for the ladies) does this affect anybody's periods? I have missed a few since I started this and now I have missed 2 months in a row. I have always been normal up til the past couple of months. There is no way I'm pregnant (I did say ex-BF), and I'm not old enough for menopause (took the test for that anyway, negative result).
I think I can help you with the first question, (since im not a gynacologist or a lady, cant help with the second.
Before i do, 'stupidme' come on, lets get a little more positive like 'maybenotagenuis"., anyway, do u have a problem. Well , lets put it this way, you are taking a narcotic to help you cope with life.
Now the fact that you dont lie, cheat , steal , and all that other stuff is good. I guess you are probably a good person.
I was a heroin addict for a number of years, and I didn't usually lie or cheat or steel or do bad things to other people. At least usually , and usually if i did it wasn't from my drug use. I was no saint, but I tried to be a pretty good person. So I guess the real question here is, can good people be drug addicts. Answer: yes.
I don't think you have a major problem at this point in you r life. I think (anyway i hope) you got rid of your major problem which was having a boyfriend who is a crack addict. I hope you keep it that way. I have sympathy for all addicts, but crack has such nasty effets on peoples personalities, that it is a toaly destructive drug.
I think you need to find a better way to cope with life then thru the use of pills. I believe you can, and it may be a little difficult, but not as hard as you think. I don't think you will go thru much of withdrawels, maybe some discomfort, maybe some depression, but it wont last too long.
Find things to do to get you out of your "head" and feelings. There must be things you like, or used to like. Really, go to some movies, or plays, or bowling or dancing, or swimming, or yoga, or some other fun things & get involved with other new people. I think you need to do something, anything, but don't stick with the pills. At best, well, there isnt much at best exept for maybe dulling the pain a little, but the at worst road is endless. There are a lot of better choices out there, and the sooner you start making them, the easier, or the less difficult, they will be.
Before i do, 'stupidme' come on, lets get a little more positive like 'maybenotagenuis"., anyway, do u have a problem. Well , lets put it this way, you are taking a narcotic to help you cope with life.
Now the fact that you dont lie, cheat , steal , and all that other stuff is good. I guess you are probably a good person.
I was a heroin addict for a number of years, and I didn't usually lie or cheat or steel or do bad things to other people. At least usually , and usually if i did it wasn't from my drug use. I was no saint, but I tried to be a pretty good person. So I guess the real question here is, can good people be drug addicts. Answer: yes.
I don't think you have a major problem at this point in you r life. I think (anyway i hope) you got rid of your major problem which was having a boyfriend who is a crack addict. I hope you keep it that way. I have sympathy for all addicts, but crack has such nasty effets on peoples personalities, that it is a toaly destructive drug.
I think you need to find a better way to cope with life then thru the use of pills. I believe you can, and it may be a little difficult, but not as hard as you think. I don't think you will go thru much of withdrawels, maybe some discomfort, maybe some depression, but it wont last too long.
Find things to do to get you out of your "head" and feelings. There must be things you like, or used to like. Really, go to some movies, or plays, or bowling or dancing, or swimming, or yoga, or some other fun things & get involved with other new people. I think you need to do something, anything, but don't stick with the pills. At best, well, there isnt much at best exept for maybe dulling the pain a little, but the at worst road is endless. There are a lot of better choices out there, and the sooner you start making them, the easier, or the less difficult, they will be.
Thanks Browndog,
Yeah I know I'm using them to cope with life on life's terms, and I've tried moving on and putting him behind me. He was my everything, and I was nothing but someone to use to him. He's out of my life, but still has my damn heart, always will. I have tried the hobby/intrests approach, I know I deserve better, I would never go back to the chaos. But, it's like I'm stuck. I guess I need therapy of some kind. Thanks for taking the time.
Yeah I know I'm using them to cope with life on life's terms, and I've tried moving on and putting him behind me. He was my everything, and I was nothing but someone to use to him. He's out of my life, but still has my damn heart, always will. I have tried the hobby/intrests approach, I know I deserve better, I would never go back to the chaos. But, it's like I'm stuck. I guess I need therapy of some kind. Thanks for taking the time.
Have you tried to quit taking them alltogether? You said you took them to deal with him..if he is gone and you are still taking them to cope with life, you may have a problem. If not yet, you probably will soon. Therapy may be a good thing for you, they can help you sort out your feelings so you won't need the pills to deal with life. I never had the female problems you spoke of, maybe you should see your family doctor as well. Take care and keep us posted...
God Bless,
Deb
God Bless,
Deb
Hi ! Nice to meet you
I never had any problems with my period when using Hydro. I don't know if that helped but Iwanted to answer your question. I was taking around 30 a day.
I never had any problems with my period when using Hydro. I don't know if that helped but Iwanted to answer your question. I was taking around 30 a day.
Hi,
Welcome. I can't answer the female-type question, but if you've been taking 2-4-6 a day for over a year, chances are that you at least have a mild physical dependence on them, if not mental. But from the little you've written, I'd agree with Deb and browndog -- sounds like there's a mental dependence there also. Enough of one for you to be worrying about it, perhaps. Do you have a chronic pain condition...is that how you're getting them without lying, stealing, or breaking the law? Wherever you're at is ok, just let us know if we can help. M.
Welcome. I can't answer the female-type question, but if you've been taking 2-4-6 a day for over a year, chances are that you at least have a mild physical dependence on them, if not mental. But from the little you've written, I'd agree with Deb and browndog -- sounds like there's a mental dependence there also. Enough of one for you to be worrying about it, perhaps. Do you have a chronic pain condition...is that how you're getting them without lying, stealing, or breaking the law? Wherever you're at is ok, just let us know if we can help. M.
