Just droping in. It's 5am I'm tired can't sleep. Wondering if anyone heard from Alaska? I'm still doing okay. I thought my lil brother was kicking H to. He told me yesterday he started banging oxycottin. His arm was lumped in a spot where he totally missed, and I am sure he dose not think about how it affects me. Im 13 months clean i'm starting to get this lonely feeling 4 the old people "users" I use to know. I know no good can come of contacting them. Being clean I cut off from most everyone I knew. wHY? would I miss them, I guess life was always exciting then. Everything I own is in my apartment and not a pawn shop, which would quickly change with one phone call. Being around my lil brother brings up issuses for me. I think i'm going to have to put strict limits to time spent with him. He talks about "old" friends and scoring and I think he's too big a temptation for me. Just wanted people here to know i'm still off, still fighting. I'm 11 weeks pregnant woke up at 4:00am 2day vomited and my nose was running That brings back flashbacks from being dope sick. Yesterday I was with my mom she had to pull the car over because I was gaging. SO GLAD IT'S NOT DOPE SICKNESS thou.
stay with it&yeh morning sickness and dope ill r poles apart.im just a fella so im presuming.yer bro sounds like hes in the belly of the beast,crushed tablets not a good idea,sorry 2 put a downer on things but ive had,mates who have lost limbs from bangin up pills.at least make sure hes sucking off the coating then let dry &crush pure as talc if poss.good luck 2 u both&the nipper to come ..davey
