It feels like it's been forever since I wrote a post about me. Here it is. Still working on my benzo and beer issue, ...Translation means i'm not sober . Life is always confusing for me. My fiance bought a house in October. This place is more beautiful then ANY place i've even lived, he calls it OURS but, leaglly it's HIS. I'm working as a nurse aide doing some work at a nursing home some work at home health care. I don't know if this is for me. I had my 1st lady die on my watch. The aides "ME" do the Post-mortem clean up. Clean the body and bed. It's not a experience i'ld care to have again. The couple i do home health care for are falling apart the husband starts chemo for lung cancer this monday. I don't know how to deal with that. I like the guy so much he's a cool old guy i don't wanna watch him fall apart. The wife has dementia so that's always fun more then half the time she forgets who I am. It's a very stressful job. My fiance keeps nagging for me to get more hours honestly it takes all i got to do what i already do "emotionally". I get totally resentful that the fiance of mine has no IDEAL how demanding my job is. My kids are a wonederful blessing but, so much WORK my oldest is nearly 13 my girl will be 11 next month the baby turned 2 in December. The stress of a house a job 3 kids and a relationship are a bit MUCH. I thought life without h would be eazy LOL. It was less work to just work on my high everyday. Anyhow that's my update and i'm going to keep up the good fight.
Good for you ZG. Really good to have some news from you. I cannot imagine doing the work you do, and from what I understand you really have to love it to be able to it day in and day out. I have many teacher friends who have done this as a second or summer job and they do love it...it takes a very special person to handle the stress of attachment and then illness, sometimes death. You are special and I know it's incredibly hard, people who do this work are angels to those they care for. Your presence has no doubt been an enormous comfort to the elderly couple and anyone else who has been fortunate enough to have you as their caretaker.
Have you talked to your guy about the emotional toll this takes on you? Have you told him you barely have enough to go around as it is?
Glad you're still soldiering on and happy to see you.
Peace ~ MomNMore
Have you talked to your guy about the emotional toll this takes on you? Have you told him you barely have enough to go around as it is?
Glad you're still soldiering on and happy to see you.
Peace ~ MomNMore
Hi ZG...sounds like you totally have your hands full...that kind of work is really really emotionally draining....be careful about yourself...you and your kids are the most important....i agree with M&M...maybe you should speak with your husband about how draining your job is and how demanding everything can get with trying to care for your kids, and your job and everything...im glad your still trying...recovery is probably the most important thing you got to look at...without at least trying to stay clean, well, we all got pretty much of nothing then after awhile...definetly keep up the good fight...thats the only one you need to win in order to deal with everything else...hugs
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Awwww, ZG I'm sorry about the person dying and I am sorry about your couple. I know you enjoy the gentleman.
Death is not pretty.
Anybody on this earth would be drained if they were in your shoes. Anybody. I vote no talking just kick him in the a*s and say "Dude, knock it the he** off with your crap. What I look like Superwoman or what?" Then you say "Get my da*n name on that house".
You know you're my girl, honey.
Death is not pretty.
Anybody on this earth would be drained if they were in your shoes. Anybody. I vote no talking just kick him in the a*s and say "Dude, knock it the he** off with your crap. What I look like Superwoman or what?" Then you say "Get my da*n name on that house".
You know you're my girl, honey.
Thanks ladies for the input and replies. After I re-read this it seemed so negative. I do acually love my job. It just screws my head up also. I like all the + things about it. I do like caring for people. It would break my heart to not have my job. At the same time it is a real emotional crap to carry. My man pushes too much for sure. He always makes me feel like it's not enough. He knows exactly how i feel about things. He always thinks I should suck it up. He's real big into not understanding me.
