Using Thoughts, Missing Everything

Okay being sober is hard.

I am doing the right things ...............Trying to find a job, staying sober, but things dont seem to be coming together yet.

I am impatient as hell I know.

Missing my babies, My mom and so many things.

Damn it this is hard..........had fleeting thoughts of using today, but not going to do it.

but god is it tempting sometimes.

Just had to vent

I just want a job and a respectable lifestyle back, damn it

Hugs

Jodi

Javagirl
Jody, it is tempting isn't it? We were self-medicating for a reason before. Life is hard. We need to find other ways to fill that hole in ourselves that we previously filled with drugs. Do you have any hobbies that you used to do before you started using? I used to read until I became too blasted to concentrate. I have started again now. Some like to needlepoint or knit, something that occupies our hands and minds.

Keep on looking for that job honey, it is out there. You will find happiness.

How about meetings during the day?
Not only do you need to find another outlet for your anger and frustration, you have to get to the bottom of why you were self medicating in the first place. That comes with working the steps with a sponsor. It helps us understand why we are the way we are. Keep it simple Jodi. Don't over think things, just get through today...xxxooo