God am I pissed off... I'm sick of this woman that phones my mum interrupting everything to just moan about nothing... all she says is that "Oh I've had a terrible time" when she doesn't even know the meaning of the flipping phrase... the latest now is that she's accusing someone of stealing 1800 from her using her cards... which also happens to be the same person she accused of taking some ornaments from her when she was having her house painted... which then turned up under the kitchen sink! She moans and moans and moans about nothing... she makes her life difficult for herself in my opinion deliberately so she can find someone to moan at for half an hour... then when she's finished she doesn't even say bye or cheerio when she puts the phone down... like I've got that off me chest so that's that... I'm so mad... she's got everything that should make her happy... a nice house... a good pension... a nice load of savings... and she's just wasting her life... and just makes a nuisance of herself.... she doesn't know she's living... I'd like to give her my life for a week... see what having a terrible time about something really means... feeling like you don't actually control your life... like substance abuse controls you... feeling like you want to die just because you missed the bus.... having feelings of anger that overtake you so you don't know who or what you are anymore... The slightest thing that can tip you into suicidal ideation or feelings of happiness at the most random thing??? I WISH she felt some of that... I don't complain about it... it's my life... I didn't ask for a Borderline Personality... I didn't ask for some perv to come along and ruin my childhood... I didn't ask for an abusive dad... But I got it and I accept it... I just wish other people might take a long hard look at themselves and see how lucky some people can be...
Izzy X
Yes, I know how feel Izzy, my BF's Grandfather is very similar to the woman you described in your post. I was told early on in sobriety, I cannot change people, places and things and i can only change how I react to situations; I am reminded that feelings are not facts. Hoping by the time you are reading this post you are feeling better. Some of us just have it a little bit harder than others, but try to remember that you need not give up your sobriety for anyone or anything...keep posting and venting, I know from personal experience it is not good to hold it in, however I've been taught a constructive way to deal with what angers me...most of the time!
