Hello Everyone!
Its been a while since I posted last - I am a vicodin addict, which I became after a c-sec, and have found a doc that specializes in addictive medicine. He has prescribed an anti-seizure med, Gabapentin - 600mg x3/day as well as one for sleep, I forgot the name, benzo, something or other - I think its an anti-depressant, not sure. So far so good - they seem to keep me calm all day and let me rest all night. Has anyone heard of this type of approach? I am also going to start therapy at a local rehab. This really sucks - vicodin made me feel like I could do everything and anything - I have never cleaned my house so well, taken care of 2 babies, and enjoyed everything so much more. I only hope that this will pass. Its enlighting to read everyone's messages and the courage you have to start a program that works. I am glad to be here and will be posting many times.
mommyof2
Hi Mommy of 2
I am also a mommy of 2 and addicted to vicodin. I agree that it gives you a ton of energy and helps you to get more stuff accomplished. It's like it takes a cloudy day and makes it instantly sunny. The euphoria is unmatched - that is why I find it so hard to stop! I feel for you - I know how hard it is to try to take care of 2 kids, work and all that other stuff in between when you have really low energy. I really wonder if I'll ever be able to have the energy I need to do the day to day stuff like I used to. I don't even remember what it's like to feel normal! They say it takes about a month or so. I don't know about you but I can never make it a whole month! I am still trying and am determined that it will happen for me. It will happen for you as well so don't give up trying.
Just thought I'd let you know that I can empathize with you!
Take care,
Jodie
I am also a mommy of 2 and addicted to vicodin. I agree that it gives you a ton of energy and helps you to get more stuff accomplished. It's like it takes a cloudy day and makes it instantly sunny. The euphoria is unmatched - that is why I find it so hard to stop! I feel for you - I know how hard it is to try to take care of 2 kids, work and all that other stuff in between when you have really low energy. I really wonder if I'll ever be able to have the energy I need to do the day to day stuff like I used to. I don't even remember what it's like to feel normal! They say it takes about a month or so. I don't know about you but I can never make it a whole month! I am still trying and am determined that it will happen for me. It will happen for you as well so don't give up trying.
Just thought I'd let you know that I can empathize with you!
Take care,
Jodie
You are not alone! I just started posting here 3 days ago and have been off Vicodin for 6 days.... You have found a wonderful place to vent, find comfort and to talk with other people that have been down your road. I too LOVE Vicodin. I am the mother of 3, and the energy on Vicodin is unbelieveable. I have just been through a week of w/d, and Im not going to lie, It sucks. How long have you been taking the Vicodin, and how much?
Hi Mommy, just about of all us took pills for energy but eventually they turn on you and you take them just to do the basics. Quit now while your ahead. The way your doctors detoxing you is good, its more comfortable with a little help. Staying off the pills is the hard part but you'll get a lot of help here on how to do that.
JohnDee
JohnDee
mommy,
congrats on taking the appropriate steps to getting clean. your doing the right thins. i know it sucks but actually the thought of rehab/detox sucks more then actually doing it. you will be so glad you are doing this for yourself and you are going to come out better then you were. my thoughts and prayers are with you. you. definately are not alone. you are going to get great help. you have all the great people on this board as well for support and advice. please keep us posted on your progress.
terrianne
congrats on taking the appropriate steps to getting clean. your doing the right thins. i know it sucks but actually the thought of rehab/detox sucks more then actually doing it. you will be so glad you are doing this for yourself and you are going to come out better then you were. my thoughts and prayers are with you. you. definately are not alone. you are going to get great help. you have all the great people on this board as well for support and advice. please keep us posted on your progress.
terrianne
Mommy,
Not a mommy here or a daddy--but I to fell in love with my Vic's. They gave me so much energy, life was good, the whole nine yards. Then I stopped taking them. Today I have 161 days.
Life today is SO much better. I could go on and on about what I have today. The best thing I have today is self respect. When I look back on how I was living, and what I had become I want to cringe.
I don't want to cringe today-instead I look forward to waking up, not reaching for my " friends". I enjoy spending time with other's not all alone with just my " friends " I am doign great with work, reconnecting with family and enjoying my real friends, those that care about me, think about me and love me.
Not using is allowing me to love back--something that I lost along the way.
I wish you the best of luck with putting these pills behind you. It is hard work, but you can do it--and when you do you will see what having real power is all about.
Mike
Not a mommy here or a daddy--but I to fell in love with my Vic's. They gave me so much energy, life was good, the whole nine yards. Then I stopped taking them. Today I have 161 days.
Life today is SO much better. I could go on and on about what I have today. The best thing I have today is self respect. When I look back on how I was living, and what I had become I want to cringe.
I don't want to cringe today-instead I look forward to waking up, not reaching for my " friends". I enjoy spending time with other's not all alone with just my " friends " I am doign great with work, reconnecting with family and enjoying my real friends, those that care about me, think about me and love me.
Not using is allowing me to love back--something that I lost along the way.
I wish you the best of luck with putting these pills behind you. It is hard work, but you can do it--and when you do you will see what having real power is all about.
Mike
Me four! I'm also a Mom of 2 and Vicodin addict. But I just say an addict. I've been through an acid phase, a Quaalude phase, a cocaine phase, and always smoked pot heavily. I started with prescription meds when I got a bit older. Xanax, Soma and of course Vicodin! I had back surgery, that started it off. Then I always had an excuse to keep using. During my second pregnancy I had chronic headaches and my OB gave me Codeine #4. I had been off the V's for a while but that got me back on the opiates. I also loved Perc's and Oxy's. Amazingly I now have over a year clean and I'm so glad to be living life on it's own terms! If I can do it, so can you. I have a sponsor and attend not enough meetings. I'm only on baby step 2. I love the 12 steps. I'm in NA. Well time to go to dinner with the kids.......
Take care everyone, I'm glad to be here!
Mama K.
Take care everyone, I'm glad to be here!
Mama K.
Me Five....I also am a mother of two and a hydrocodone addict. I was addicted for 8 years, and now have over 100 days clean. Much of the credit for my clean time goes to this board and the wonderful people I have met here. Many of them are moms, also, with Vicodan addictions.
Like JD said, most of us were after the energy. The euphoric feeling that we could do anything, conquer anything, and never tire. For everyone, and especially moms, that is a highly desirable state. Hey! It was great being Supermom all those years. But the reality is, the day comes when no matter how many you take, you do not get the same feeling you used to. So you take more, and more, and so on, and so on. A vicious circle and then you are in hydro hell.
If I can quit depending on the love of my life, the answer to every problem I ever had, ANYONE can. Keep talking here, and listening here. You will find the help you need. And, of course, the meetings, too. Take care!
Mom 2
Everything Carol said........Ditto
Except i'm a dad and I want to be here for my kids.
Frank
Hi Everyone!!
Thank you all for your encouragement and words of wisdom - LOL - I am glad to be here too. Did you know that the largest percentage of vicodin users are usually mommy's in the age range of 30-40 - I read that somewhere...anyways, I got started after my first c section, 3 years ago. It started with Morphine/Demarol shots - post op - then after the iv was gone, it was percocet and then vicodin. To top things off - I got a nice rx for lots of Vicodin - with refills no less. Well lets keep on requesting those refills!!! Life was wonderful, motherhood was even better.....my second child was born 14 months later, also by C-sec - the hospital and docs did not want to be liable for the potentially fatal risk of a vbac. I really did not care - personally I liked c-sects - you can schedule them! Anyways, being off vicodin for 9 months was excruciating - but my baby was more important. After my c-sec, again, wonderful shots, and lots of pills with refills and then some. I was in heaven and could not stop, did not want to stop - it helped me function. Its been going on till now - 3 years. Now my kids are2&3 and I am just starting to realize that I cannot live this lie anylonger - I was so desperate, I took my uncles pain pills - well, not all, some, he does not know, I went doc shopping and finally one doc pulled a state report that lists my name as a potential user. I guess they know stuff like that, from pharmacies and doc's.....so I got a really nasty letter in the mail, banning me from the clinic - how rude is that??? I actually went to get a shot of tardol because i have a bad sinus infection - i did not want an rx of any kind...that made me feel really little and humiliated me - that is when i called this super doc up that treats addictions - he is a shrink, but hey - he's great!!! so i got those great meds that help and make me feel good. I was on a max of 5 vic's a day for 3 years. Ironically enough, I always followed the instructions. LOL - In anycase, not to bore you any further - hehe - I am so glad I found this place and I know that we can all do it together. My rehab starts next week and I am excited to go. I will keep you guys posted, let me know what is going on with all of you!!!
Good Luck/Get Well/Hang In there!!!!!!!!!!!
mommyof2
Thank you all for your encouragement and words of wisdom - LOL - I am glad to be here too. Did you know that the largest percentage of vicodin users are usually mommy's in the age range of 30-40 - I read that somewhere...anyways, I got started after my first c section, 3 years ago. It started with Morphine/Demarol shots - post op - then after the iv was gone, it was percocet and then vicodin. To top things off - I got a nice rx for lots of Vicodin - with refills no less. Well lets keep on requesting those refills!!! Life was wonderful, motherhood was even better.....my second child was born 14 months later, also by C-sec - the hospital and docs did not want to be liable for the potentially fatal risk of a vbac. I really did not care - personally I liked c-sects - you can schedule them! Anyways, being off vicodin for 9 months was excruciating - but my baby was more important. After my c-sec, again, wonderful shots, and lots of pills with refills and then some. I was in heaven and could not stop, did not want to stop - it helped me function. Its been going on till now - 3 years. Now my kids are2&3 and I am just starting to realize that I cannot live this lie anylonger - I was so desperate, I took my uncles pain pills - well, not all, some, he does not know, I went doc shopping and finally one doc pulled a state report that lists my name as a potential user. I guess they know stuff like that, from pharmacies and doc's.....so I got a really nasty letter in the mail, banning me from the clinic - how rude is that??? I actually went to get a shot of tardol because i have a bad sinus infection - i did not want an rx of any kind...that made me feel really little and humiliated me - that is when i called this super doc up that treats addictions - he is a shrink, but hey - he's great!!! so i got those great meds that help and make me feel good. I was on a max of 5 vic's a day for 3 years. Ironically enough, I always followed the instructions. LOL - In anycase, not to bore you any further - hehe - I am so glad I found this place and I know that we can all do it together. My rehab starts next week and I am excited to go. I will keep you guys posted, let me know what is going on with all of you!!!
Good Luck/Get Well/Hang In there!!!!!!!!!!!
mommyof2
