My son may try the Vivitrol injection. Does anyone have any experience / knowledge about it. the possible side effects sound as bad as his miserable days on the drugs. He has been feeling better than usual, going to meetings, therapist, doctors. I would hate for have to have depression and physical problems from the injection. but I do understand that it works well if the person does not have bad side effects.
My son has been clean for a month, living at home, his behavior is completely 'normal', except for insomnia, medications, dr appmts, therapist, group meetings, aa or na meetings. filling up his time - which is good, still using the car and using as much gas as ever! no time for a job now! ugh... he needs to do this sobriety work, and get past a court date and maybe try vivitrol, and then he will work again. he isn't opposed to working.
I should be doing the happy dance, but I feel so regretful of the past. especially of this past year. I wish I did more to stop what he was doing. I think I feel too much empathy that it is making me sadder than I have been I the past year. I think in the past year I was in a fright/flight situation, and now the grief of my son's life has caught up to me. I feel sad that he has to live with his regrets. and it has been one month, who knows what will be in 3 months. he tries to stay positive and no be sad about it.
--- as parenting said I just do not want to go thru this anymore. - my husband and I have worked hard to get where we are. I thought I would spend 20 years raising the kids and have 20 years for myself - to focus on career and things I had put aside... now I am wishing for retirement to come soon bc I am worn out! I have my sights on a beach in Florida. wishing I could just blink and be there!
thanks for listening to my roller coaster of thoughts!
I should be doing the happy dance, but I feel so regretful of the past. especially of this past year. I wish I did more to stop what he was doing. I think I feel too much empathy that it is making me sadder than I have been I the past year. I think in the past year I was in a fright/flight situation, and now the grief of my son's life has caught up to me. I feel sad that he has to live with his regrets. and it has been one month, who knows what will be in 3 months. he tries to stay positive and no be sad about it.
--- as parenting said I just do not want to go thru this anymore. - my husband and I have worked hard to get where we are. I thought I would spend 20 years raising the kids and have 20 years for myself - to focus on career and things I had put aside... now I am wishing for retirement to come soon bc I am worn out! I have my sights on a beach in Florida. wishing I could just blink and be there!
thanks for listening to my roller coaster of thoughts!
NY....you are in a good group...we all were given a ticket to the roller coaster ride. I know what you mean about the deep sadness that settles in after we learn to detach some, and the crazy settles down. Fear runs the show....but I have found it helps to break it down to day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute if need be. If I let my mind get too far ahead, it seems hopeless. Too much water under the bridge, regrets...too much to overcome. But I also know my son picks up on my fear...he wants to be better, and also knows it may not work. I keep learning every day to let go, and hang on for dear life. Sending peace on your "ride" Libby
