At age 42 I had major problems with my teeth. I had never taken anything stronger than a tylonal 3 even after minor surgery. I had a med fear. I also do not drink, stopped when I was 29 yrs old. At this time I was living with a nurse and she assured me taking percocets would help my pain better and its safe, she even got them FOR ME. and that's all it took, from then on I got addicted bad and FAST. 42 years old getting addicted to pills. I was and am so ashamed of this. I am 49 now, after 3 years of the chasing the pills game I confessed to my Dr, and said I want off the pills. They put me on suboxone. 3 of the 8 mlg a day which was WAY to much as I was only on about 60 mg of Percocet daily, so I fast lowered the subs down to one 8 ml a day and stayed on that for another 2 years. Now for the past 2 years I have been on 4 and 1/4 ml a day of the subs film. Each time I have taken myself down NOT the Dr. I am tired of the stigma, I am tired of being treated like I am a low life because I am on this med also. I do have real pain, I have lupus, psoriatic arthritis, COPD and depression for which I am on an antidepressant. I would prefer to stick with the pain from the arthritis than to remain on this nasty life killing drug. YES, it keeps you off the streets looking for pills but it is STILL an addiction. I have been watching some utube videos and want to taper down and then do a home detox which I pray will work. I will not wait until I am out of meds because then that urgency kicks in and the panic, I think its best to do it when you still have meds and CHOOSE to detox, not HAVE to detox. I have heard that an antidiareah meds helps along with IB profin, and a few other over the counter items to take while in withdraw. Does anyone have suggestions for me? I REALLY need to do this for me and truly want to help others after I get off this stuff. How far should I taper down before jumping off the subs? I wont ask a doctor ANYTHING because Doctors put me on this med, way to much and I think they want to keep you on it, at least mine anyway.
Does anyone else feel like these subs are a worse addiction then the Percocet? All I know is I don't want either in me anymore. And I want to CHOOSE to get off of it, it has been long enough. Any advice would really be appreciated. Thank you.
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