I guess I should probably go to another forum after reading the different posts I have seen lately. I know I am a coward among all you strong people who have quit and continue to stay clean. I just wish I knew how to get up the courage to come clean. I feel like a broken record as I stated on a previous post. Does anyone know of another forum that I can turn to so I won't feel like I'm asking for everyone to feel sorry for me. That is not what I am looking for REALLY. I am wanting some suggestions PLEASE. I have tapered down a bit, but I am still taking my Vicodin ES everyday. Somedays are worse than others, but I can't seem to function without them, I have tried believe me. I didn't mean to become an addict, it just happened.
Missy,
Sweet heart listen we all understand what you are going through. I think one really has to be sick and tired of being sick and tired. Also you have to be willing to just STOP taking the vicodin... Suck up the withdrawls and get on with your life. Yes it's easier said then done but that is what has to happen.. Do you have anyone close to you that knows about your addiction? How many mgs did you take today???
Sweet heart listen we all understand what you are going through. I think one really has to be sick and tired of being sick and tired. Also you have to be willing to just STOP taking the vicodin... Suck up the withdrawls and get on with your life. Yes it's easier said then done but that is what has to happen.. Do you have anyone close to you that knows about your addiction? How many mgs did you take today???
you stay rite here little missy...I have been where you are and by golly its hard to change what the mind and body used to...I just one day said enoghe is enoughe...and a certain person shoched me intio to it ...but one day I decided to stop and did it ..and it will happen to you...when I dont no ..only you can answer that ..but dont leave no matter what...we love you here dear...and we will help has much has you will let us in ...so if you here a knock on your computer LET US IN...OK we need you has much has ypu need us we are family to all that need our help my angel...poopie
Today I took 8 Vicodin ES, that's bad isn't it, especially when I'm only suppose to take 3. My sister is the only one who really knows that I am addicted, but she is too. My husband does not know and I am afraid to tell him because we have been down this road before a few years ago when my Mom and Dad passed away. I became addicted to cocain, both of us did, lost everything because of that and I just am so scared to say anything to him about it. He has been doing so well, but I can't say the same for me. That's one of the reasons why I want to try to stop this on my own, but from all that I have read, that seems impossible.
Thank you so much for listening to me. Makes me feel some better.
Missy,
You better listen to Poopie when she says stay she means it... So don't go running off on us.. You need help and I am here to support you weather you are using or not. You have admitted you have a problem and that is the first big step. You want to change your life and that is a step in the right direction as well. Like Poopie said we don't know when you will stop ONLy you can make that choice. I am sorry to hear about your mom and dad that would be so hard..
Now let's talk about this.. You take about 8 --7.5's a day.. Tomorrow why not go to 7... Stay there for a few days and go to 6...You can e-mail me,call me whatever.. Just being accountable to someone helps even if I can't tell your cheating.. I think your withdrawl will be better if you taper. However, not everyone can do that, so do you think you can try?? If the answer is no then can you afford suboxone? Do you have insurance that may pay for out-patient treatment of some kind?
You better listen to Poopie when she says stay she means it... So don't go running off on us.. You need help and I am here to support you weather you are using or not. You have admitted you have a problem and that is the first big step. You want to change your life and that is a step in the right direction as well. Like Poopie said we don't know when you will stop ONLy you can make that choice. I am sorry to hear about your mom and dad that would be so hard..
Now let's talk about this.. You take about 8 --7.5's a day.. Tomorrow why not go to 7... Stay there for a few days and go to 6...You can e-mail me,call me whatever.. Just being accountable to someone helps even if I can't tell your cheating.. I think your withdrawl will be better if you taper. However, not everyone can do that, so do you think you can try?? If the answer is no then can you afford suboxone? Do you have insurance that may pay for out-patient treatment of some kind?
I am going to try. I will start with 7 tomorrow and I will contact you tomorrow. Thank you so much for all your understanding. Hopefully I can do this, no I know I CAN do this. Thanks to all. Talk tomorrow. Good Night.
E-mail me tomorrow Bunny4804@aol.com
So tomorrow you will ONLY take 7.. You will never be back up to taking 8 a day again,okay? You CAN do this, You WILL do this.. Hang in there..
Good night... Rachel
So tomorrow you will ONLY take 7.. You will never be back up to taking 8 a day again,okay? You CAN do this, You WILL do this.. Hang in there..
Good night... Rachel
dear missy, you are where you need to be here on this board,your in the right place,so stay,we can help.it is a struggle,and the withdraws are well,hell,but they pass, i never thought i be where i am today,but i am.i did it, and you can too.you are not alone, and i dont think you are wanting pitty,you are seeking help and wanting to be free of vicoden,you can,you have to really want it and fight for it.seriously,try starting tomorrow, to take 7 instead of 8,tell yourself your gonna do this and stick to it.i had to really discipline myself when i first started my journey into recovery.i am here,if i can help,or just talk or listen,let me know.you are stronger than you think,fight and really want to be clean,life is so much better not being controlled by a pill,i promise.you are in my thoughts sweetie,luv kimber:)
Missy
I have been in the same place you are. I also tapered down and quit. It wasn't pleasent at all but it wasn't as bad as I thought. Like Rae said...you have to really want to stop. The fact that you're here tells me you are ready. When I first came here I had no idea what I was doing. I was very fortunate to find a few people that really, really helped me. There are a lot of people who post here and some may rub you the wrong way but you'll quickly know who they are so just don't read their posts and by all means, don't let them discourage you. You will also find that most are so understanding and sensitive to how you are feeling that they can really help you get through this. Just remember that most everyone here has gone through exactly what you're going through right now and that a lot of them are in recovery and have really improved the quality of their life. You can also better your life. You deserve it.
Frank
Hey Frank,
It's nice to see you posting..How are things going?
Missy,
When you read this please drop me an e-mail at the address above.. I hope you stick with the plan for today. I am thinking of you. Write back when you see this.. Rae
It's nice to see you posting..How are things going?
Missy,
When you read this please drop me an e-mail at the address above.. I hope you stick with the plan for today. I am thinking of you. Write back when you see this.. Rae
Missy,
I've been where you have been and in 2 hours it will be 96 hours clean cold turkey. Trust me, this has not been easy. In many respects I am a weak person and it ook me losing everything: job, money (filed chapter 7 2 years ago), sanity. Like another said above, you have to sick and tired of being sick and tired. Cold turkey is not fun at all- but in 2003 I went to a medical detox because I had some sense of sanity left and knew beyond a shadow of a doubt I'd be dead if they didn't take me. I had no insurance, no job but the county paid for it and that was in Northern Va. One of the best places. But ya know what? I had no suffering because of the suboxne and 30 days later I picked up again and here I am now. Now, I've been suffering, I have no extra pills to taper and I knew I was to weak to do so anyway.
Please know the suffering is part of the recovery and the recovery is all about saving your life.
I'm pulling for ya and whichever way you do it- I know YOU CAN!!
Believe in yourself!
I've been where you have been and in 2 hours it will be 96 hours clean cold turkey. Trust me, this has not been easy. In many respects I am a weak person and it ook me losing everything: job, money (filed chapter 7 2 years ago), sanity. Like another said above, you have to sick and tired of being sick and tired. Cold turkey is not fun at all- but in 2003 I went to a medical detox because I had some sense of sanity left and knew beyond a shadow of a doubt I'd be dead if they didn't take me. I had no insurance, no job but the county paid for it and that was in Northern Va. One of the best places. But ya know what? I had no suffering because of the suboxne and 30 days later I picked up again and here I am now. Now, I've been suffering, I have no extra pills to taper and I knew I was to weak to do so anyway.
Please know the suffering is part of the recovery and the recovery is all about saving your life.
I'm pulling for ya and whichever way you do it- I know YOU CAN!!
Believe in yourself!
Well I'm up and I am going to try and start to taper down today. Wish me luck.
Missy I hope you realize just how much we are pulling for you.I think that youll be able to do it.Sure your gonna have BAD days but thats when its best to come here & pour it out.good Luck 7 Ill try to be around if you need help ok???mj
Missy I thought I was gonna die a drug addict I was still using when I came here and it helped me to find the strenth to finally quit and so will you If you werent ready you wouldnt be here see what I mean?
So do I stay at 7 for a few days or do I go to 6 tomorrow. How does this tapering down work. Should I go to 6 1/2 tomorrow. HELP???
kymissy:
Im really don't know you well. So your addicted to Vicodin? Your married and the husband has no idea and you haven't told him.
Do you work during the day? Can you go to meetings? Ever thought about telling your husband? Im sure he would want to know this. Not to mention I'll guarntee its eating you up inside especially when you look at him.
I suggest you listen to what people here say and don't start attacking people like me as you have in the past.
Im clean and sober and I can help. So listen up when we talk.
I know you feel very bad and weak for being a drug addict, I can tell by what you say. Your embarrassed and don't even know how to get started to stop and thats even if you want to stop.
Also tell you husband about your addiction. Swallow your pride. You can't change what you don't acknowledge. Start by telling him, get his support and go from there. Even if you try to keep it from him, when you are tapering/withdrawling he'll figure it out. You can't keep something like this from him and what right do you have to lie about this too him? He's your husband!
Im really don't know you well. So your addicted to Vicodin? Your married and the husband has no idea and you haven't told him.
Do you work during the day? Can you go to meetings? Ever thought about telling your husband? Im sure he would want to know this. Not to mention I'll guarntee its eating you up inside especially when you look at him.
I suggest you listen to what people here say and don't start attacking people like me as you have in the past.
Im clean and sober and I can help. So listen up when we talk.
I know you feel very bad and weak for being a drug addict, I can tell by what you say. Your embarrassed and don't even know how to get started to stop and thats even if you want to stop.
Also tell you husband about your addiction. Swallow your pride. You can't change what you don't acknowledge. Start by telling him, get his support and go from there. Even if you try to keep it from him, when you are tapering/withdrawling he'll figure it out. You can't keep something like this from him and what right do you have to lie about this too him? He's your husband!
Kiwis right I told everyone starting with my doctor Hes right cant quit what you dont aknowledge
Im not gonna sugar coat it and say its ok to be a drug addict. Because me, you and everyone else knows its not fun and nobody wants to be one.
1 - If your not mentally strong you will fail, fail, fail. So don't say its gonna be hard right off the bat, cause your already setting yourself up for failure. Just be very stubborn and say your gonna do it. Your not gonna let a tiny, little pill control your life anymore. Do you like the label Drug Addict. Apparently not if you wont even tell your husband.
2 - You gonna tell your husband. Sooner the better. Keeping such a BIG secret, lie, drug addiction from your husband is not just morally wrong but you have no right keeping him in the dark about this. If he loves you he will support your addiction and support is your best friend here.
3 - Tell your doctor. He can maybe even help you our or recommend someone who can. There are tools even prescriptions that can help with quitting cold turkey or w/d's.
4 - Cut off all your supply of drugs. Whoever you get them from.
5 - Acknowedge your a drug addict with a problem and that you need help.
6 - Be mentally strong.
7 - Be mentally strong.
8 - Be mentally strong.
Have you ever thought about just going cold turkey? 4-5 days of having the flu verses tapering slowly all the time??? Or do you like the drugs that much?
There's a start.
1 - If your not mentally strong you will fail, fail, fail. So don't say its gonna be hard right off the bat, cause your already setting yourself up for failure. Just be very stubborn and say your gonna do it. Your not gonna let a tiny, little pill control your life anymore. Do you like the label Drug Addict. Apparently not if you wont even tell your husband.
2 - You gonna tell your husband. Sooner the better. Keeping such a BIG secret, lie, drug addiction from your husband is not just morally wrong but you have no right keeping him in the dark about this. If he loves you he will support your addiction and support is your best friend here.
3 - Tell your doctor. He can maybe even help you our or recommend someone who can. There are tools even prescriptions that can help with quitting cold turkey or w/d's.
4 - Cut off all your supply of drugs. Whoever you get them from.
5 - Acknowedge your a drug addict with a problem and that you need help.
6 - Be mentally strong.
7 - Be mentally strong.
8 - Be mentally strong.
Have you ever thought about just going cold turkey? 4-5 days of having the flu verses tapering slowly all the time??? Or do you like the drugs that much?
There's a start.
Rae
I'm doing OK. Thanks for asking. How are things with you?
Missy
I think the tapering thing can work but there is no way I could do it without help. I think you need someone to hold them for you. I tapered for a while trying to reduce a little every few days but it seemed like after a certain point I wasn't getting anywhere. I decided that the last week I would only take one when I started to go into wds. For 4-5 days I only took 2 a day. The last day I took 1 and that was it. Like I said the wds were bad but not terrible. Believe me a few days of feeling like crap is worth it. You have to set a day that you are going to stop and just do it. I used for 8 years and I thought I would never quit. It can be done and you will feel so good about yourself after you quit....Really
Frank
