Weird, but I feel like I failed myself last friday night. I had more than a buzz going with several beers. I went at it intending to get drunk. Like I wanted to remember what I did on occasion "before" pills. I didn't like it, but felt like I really screwed up? I talked myself into it, over the "poor me" attitude. A lot has happened since I quit the pills. (clean since 12-01-06). Some were a bummer, but not in comparrison to the hell I was into. The guy had been dating the last year has blown me off, that was strange cause he didn't know the real me?! The phone and cable were turned off, as I had literally less than 5 bucks in the bank. I still breathe a sigh of relief at my starting over...but what about the drinking crap? I thought I let that lifestyle go years ago. thanks, and nice to get the internet back, lol, (they "interupted " my service as they put it!, for nt getting the 3 month delinquent bill paid, duh?!!) I was too busy getting sober. Bills just didn't matter then. Brendidi
You have to be careful with drinking even if you don't have a problem with it....could lead you back to where you were. Its only a failure if YOU think it is...no one else can be the judge of that.
I have never had a real problem with booze...however I choose to NOT drink...I want to stay completely in the real world!
Good job on your clean time and beating the pills!
I have never had a real problem with booze...however I choose to NOT drink...I want to stay completely in the real world!
Good job on your clean time and beating the pills!
It sounds like you feel really guilty about this... Do you feel like it was a relapse, even though your DOC wasn't ever booze?
I think it comes down to what you feel and how you want to address it. You can just either be ok with it and go from there, say it was a relapse and go from there, but being stuck in between must be a ton of pressure and anxiety, and it's gotta suck.
But I think you're the only one who can really figure it out for yourself... Depending on how you feel about it.
What do you think?
Sorry I'm not much help,
SP
I think it comes down to what you feel and how you want to address it. You can just either be ok with it and go from there, say it was a relapse and go from there, but being stuck in between must be a ton of pressure and anxiety, and it's gotta suck.
But I think you're the only one who can really figure it out for yourself... Depending on how you feel about it.
What do you think?
Sorry I'm not much help,
SP
thanks for the support. I never got in trouble with alcohol, but I know that I could. I just have friends that are drinkers, and you know the rest. I actually hate getting drunk! I have horrible judgement boozed up. I only drank beer, but it can still do plenty of damage as I found out. I know it boils down to me needing to find new friends. I'm not willing to go back to even "casual" drinking anymore.
Alcohol is a drug in liquid form.Even if it was not your DOC,it could easily become so.Many people would disagree with this but addicts getting clean will certainly start looking for other avenues to get their fix.
Recovery starts the focus on why you would feel the need to take anything to escape your now .
Recovery starts the focus on why you would feel the need to take anything to escape your now .
A drug is a drug is a drug and alcohol is a drug.
I never had a problem with alcohol but the good little addict that I am, if I started drinking now, I would have that problem. We like to do things to the extreme...don't go down that road...it's so not worth it.
I never had a problem with alcohol but the good little addict that I am, if I started drinking now, I would have that problem. We like to do things to the extreme...don't go down that road...it's so not worth it.
