I know i cannot control what is happening but i wish i could.
When i came home from conneticut i was so proud of my brother (he was addictied to feteynol patches)(i know my speeling not the best just bear w/ me).
He did not go to treatment he detoxed w/ subs and didnt continue w/ any counsling and my better judjment said he cannot do it on his own.
Maybe he didnt get as bad in his addiction as me but it dosnt mean its going to be any easier for him.
When i came home he was a total diffrent person i intrduced him to my friends and we started going out together.
I was so happy he had new friends.
Then our house gets raided and 15 of our former friends were arrested too. Since then he has been dealing agian i caught him and i can tell he's using he cant hide that from me i know all the signs it's like looking into a mirror 2 years ago.It's killing me but i cant do anything!!!
Dosnt he realize this is the DEA he can do 20 years! I just want to scream at him WHAT DO YOU THINK YOUR DOING!!!!! but that will just make things worse. I feel better just telling you guys i have to get it out or i will explode.
And i was thinking ya know if i wasnt as strong as i am now w/ him using in the same house as me Its just not good for me to have that stuff around!!! I know that i am truly delivered my obsession is gone and i have God to thank for that.
I just hope that my infulence will incourage him to try harder i know he wont stop untill he's truley had enough. IT JUST SUCKS i cant do anything but pray for him and worry and i'm just scared.
Well that certinley helped alot thanks for listing guys
..Mia..
..im just dropping in to say hello to ya..to be honest i don,t know wot to say about your post cos anything i do say you already know..so i just wanna wish ya good luck and i hope your bro can see the damage he is causing for all around him..as you know when we,re in active addiction nothing and no one will get in our way to stop us using..and as you said its not good for you to be around the situation as the temptation can become to great sometime..make sure you take good care of yourself before getting to involved in wots going on mia..you obviously love your bro but you know he will only stop when he decides to so you,ve gotta look out for yourself also..i hope it can work itself out and he stays out of jail...take care.Robbie..
..im just dropping in to say hello to ya..to be honest i don,t know wot to say about your post cos anything i do say you already know..so i just wanna wish ya good luck and i hope your bro can see the damage he is causing for all around him..as you know when we,re in active addiction nothing and no one will get in our way to stop us using..and as you said its not good for you to be around the situation as the temptation can become to great sometime..make sure you take good care of yourself before getting to involved in wots going on mia..you obviously love your bro but you know he will only stop when he decides to so you,ve gotta look out for yourself also..i hope it can work itself out and he stays out of jail...take care.Robbie..
Thanks Robbie, I think just comming on here and venting has helped me.
Last night i was about to explode. I just wish i could do more, i hope he goes to rehab it would be good for him.
How are things w/ you over there?? With all this stress and moving back home i havent been on much latley. It's nice to hear from you. How much clean time do you have now?? I just got 6 months last week!! Its exciting cause i never had this much time before. Thanks for replying _MIa
Last night i was about to explode. I just wish i could do more, i hope he goes to rehab it would be good for him.
How are things w/ you over there?? With all this stress and moving back home i havent been on much latley. It's nice to hear from you. How much clean time do you have now?? I just got 6 months last week!! Its exciting cause i never had this much time before. Thanks for replying _MIa
Mia..
..Its good you had somewhere to come to and get out how you was feeling last night..i bet you feel so helpless at the moment regarding your brother and watching him go thru wot you know hes going thru..but your in the best place to get your feelings out as people on here know exactly what your venting for..its such a stressful life the drug game especially when your watching your loved ones in their addiction..its good to see you,ve got 6 mths mia..thats excellent.
.im pleased for ya reaching this far..i bet it ain,t been easy for ya..but all you can do is get thru the day the best way you can and try not to succumb to temptation..im doing ok cheers..so far so good...i,ll be 3 mths on the 10th..if i make it to the 10th that is..we can,t forsee tomorrow and wot we we,ll do.?..i,ll be the same as you...3 mths was the longest i stayed off the brown before i relapsed..so i suppose we,re both in new territory where the clean times concerned a..anyway mia..best of luck to you and your bro aswell...im normally about somewhere if you need an ear..take good care and be good to yourself...Robbie..
..Its good you had somewhere to come to and get out how you was feeling last night..i bet you feel so helpless at the moment regarding your brother and watching him go thru wot you know hes going thru..but your in the best place to get your feelings out as people on here know exactly what your venting for..its such a stressful life the drug game especially when your watching your loved ones in their addiction..its good to see you,ve got 6 mths mia..thats excellent.
.im pleased for ya reaching this far..i bet it ain,t been easy for ya..but all you can do is get thru the day the best way you can and try not to succumb to temptation..im doing ok cheers..so far so good...i,ll be 3 mths on the 10th..if i make it to the 10th that is..we can,t forsee tomorrow and wot we we,ll do.?..i,ll be the same as you...3 mths was the longest i stayed off the brown before i relapsed..so i suppose we,re both in new territory where the clean times concerned a..anyway mia..best of luck to you and your bro aswell...im normally about somewhere if you need an ear..take good care and be good to yourself...Robbie..
MiaT, my younger brother is an active addict. He started using 2 years b4 me. It is very hard to watch someone so close to you being addicted "when your clean". I've seen him in the hospital with a tube in him, breathing for him from an overdose. I've bailed him outta jail. You are right that yelling at them will not help. I don't know that answers, just wanted you to know your not alone. My brother even did a shot in the same room as me, when I was 4 weeks clean "on methadone". It will be a whole lot harder for you to stay clean living with someone who uses. I could not stay clean "i tired" living in a household with someone still using. My brother tells me i'm going to relasp and has ask if I want dope!. I hope your brother can get a handle on his problems. 20 years is a very long time to lose your freedom.
