I just wanted to come and say how much better ive been feeling so far this week.Last week i had a couple of rough days(no motivation and big time cravings)Thanks to those of you who replied to my cry for help,it really made things a little easier.....What a difference a week makes,i am so full of energy these past couple days,i was beginning to think i was going to be a vegetable for the rest of my life,lol....it really was bad,i have to say thats been the worst for me,the lack of energy,no desire to get up and get moving.Today i was up early went out and mowed the lawn(took 1 and a half hour,front and back)it almost killed me but i finished it all! Afterward i felt so alive,i almost cried,i sat on my deck and thanked god for this day,for giving me the power to finally get back to the me i used to be before the hydro took over.I just wanted to let those of you that are just getting started know to...hang in there,dont give up,because there is a light at the end of the tunnel!Hope you are all having a great day!~KIM
kim,
that is so freaking awesome, i am so excited for you!!! i know how that feels. i too am just starting to go through that and getting back to myself the person i used to know and love. except it took me alot longer. it has been shortly over a year for me. i went through a huge social anxiety and had a major fear of people and society in general. i only went out when i absolutely had to. then when i did i would dress in clothes i would never have been caught dead in normaly i would wear my hair wadded up and hats and sunglasses and avoided any contact with people if at all possable, this was so opposite of who i am. i was miss social butterfly who needed to be around people 24/7 always socialising and small talking and smiling at strangers and complimenting people who look liked they needed a pick me up. now i wear my make up and dress to the 9's again and look people in the eye and small talk at the gas pump and it feels good to be a functioning member of society again!!!! its amazing what an impact of what one person can have on your life good or bad. it feels sooooooooooo good to choose life again. i am so happy to share in your happyness/excitement. don't let go of that gift at all costs. i dont plan on it for nothing, ever again : )
terrianne
that is so freaking awesome, i am so excited for you!!! i know how that feels. i too am just starting to go through that and getting back to myself the person i used to know and love. except it took me alot longer. it has been shortly over a year for me. i went through a huge social anxiety and had a major fear of people and society in general. i only went out when i absolutely had to. then when i did i would dress in clothes i would never have been caught dead in normaly i would wear my hair wadded up and hats and sunglasses and avoided any contact with people if at all possable, this was so opposite of who i am. i was miss social butterfly who needed to be around people 24/7 always socialising and small talking and smiling at strangers and complimenting people who look liked they needed a pick me up. now i wear my make up and dress to the 9's again and look people in the eye and small talk at the gas pump and it feels good to be a functioning member of society again!!!! its amazing what an impact of what one person can have on your life good or bad. it feels sooooooooooo good to choose life again. i am so happy to share in your happyness/excitement. don't let go of that gift at all costs. i dont plan on it for nothing, ever again : )
terrianne
CONGRATS Kim and Adrienne, thats great, awesome, terrific, super and spectacular!!! I'm one month clean and feel okay. It scares me to think that after a year, I still might feel bad but I guess I'll have to live w/ it.
Anyway, Kim keep up the hard work. It is a great feeling knowing you have a clean body, mind and soul. I also feel like I'm someone that my children can look up to and respect. So w/ that I'll keep you in my thoughts and will check back tomorrow!!
Struggler
Anyway, Kim keep up the hard work. It is a great feeling knowing you have a clean body, mind and soul. I also feel like I'm someone that my children can look up to and respect. So w/ that I'll keep you in my thoughts and will check back tomorrow!!
Struggler
struggler,
i wasnt only battling an addiction after i detoxed and started attending n/a i was brutally attacked and sexually assualted it took me a lil longer to over come the battle of addiction and trusting not only myself but others again as well so my situation is a bit different then most. but today i am feeling like i kicked some major butt on 2 accounts : ) so please dont go by my time line, everyones situation is unique and individual. it takes what it takes. just do it : ) just know there is hope be it 6 weeks or 6 years. oh and i didnt feel "bad" the whole year i worked and fought and battled my butt off i struggled and marched on. i worked the process and learned more in those months then i have learned in 35 years of my life time. i would not change or go back and do anything different at all. it has made me who i am today and i love who i am very much so today.
terrianne
i wasnt only battling an addiction after i detoxed and started attending n/a i was brutally attacked and sexually assualted it took me a lil longer to over come the battle of addiction and trusting not only myself but others again as well so my situation is a bit different then most. but today i am feeling like i kicked some major butt on 2 accounts : ) so please dont go by my time line, everyones situation is unique and individual. it takes what it takes. just do it : ) just know there is hope be it 6 weeks or 6 years. oh and i didnt feel "bad" the whole year i worked and fought and battled my butt off i struggled and marched on. i worked the process and learned more in those months then i have learned in 35 years of my life time. i would not change or go back and do anything different at all. it has made me who i am today and i love who i am very much so today.
terrianne
Thanks for sharing your progress. It will give those of us that might be struggling right now alot of hope that IT DOES GET EASIER EVERYDAY.
I wish you all the happiness and success that being clean brings.
I wish you all the happiness and success that being clean brings.
I enjoyed reading you post. so yoku had a good ecperience mowing the lawn? And you felt better? Normal? Able to concentrate? Make plans?
would love to have some encouragement....
would love to have some encouragement....
Welcome to the board Sammy. Have you told your story yet? If so, I would love to read it and be more familiar with your plight. I dont want you to have to type it all out again so if you will tell me the name of the post, I'll search for it.
Thanks everyone.Im exhausted tonight,i not only mowed the lawn but our house is being appraised tomorrow(refinance)so i had to make sure it's in tip top shape,the lawn and house look great.If feels good to have accomplished it all.I know tomorrow could be totally different but for today..i couldnt be happier.
Sammy,welcome,yes,things have turned around for me,and im only 6 weeks into this thing.I know when i first started reading about quitting opiates and what to expect,i was terrified,i was reading things like a year to 2 years,to get back to 100% normal.I really was scared to death thinking how can i survive that long.But in a way it prepared me for the very worse case scenerio and i was/am prepared to wait it out no matter how long it takes! So,having some days like today are just like a huge ray of sunshine,i know im going to make,im going to be ok.Just knowing that...i'll be able to handle the bad days much better.There is hope,it's so worth getting my life back.Like msunderstood i would love to hear your story,hear how you;re doing.This place is very supportive,sometimes just writing down how you're feeling helps..and then to have people respond and totally understand and give encouragement,it's therapeutic(sp) to say the least.Keep us updated,take care~KIM
Sammy,welcome,yes,things have turned around for me,and im only 6 weeks into this thing.I know when i first started reading about quitting opiates and what to expect,i was terrified,i was reading things like a year to 2 years,to get back to 100% normal.I really was scared to death thinking how can i survive that long.But in a way it prepared me for the very worse case scenerio and i was/am prepared to wait it out no matter how long it takes! So,having some days like today are just like a huge ray of sunshine,i know im going to make,im going to be ok.Just knowing that...i'll be able to handle the bad days much better.There is hope,it's so worth getting my life back.Like msunderstood i would love to hear your story,hear how you;re doing.This place is very supportive,sometimes just writing down how you're feeling helps..and then to have people respond and totally understand and give encouragement,it's therapeutic(sp) to say the least.Keep us updated,take care~KIM
I remember that feeling at day 6, then day 7 hit and I felt like I over did it. At least you know you are getting better, remember this day when the bad days hit in the future, and they will. But they always get better and further and fewer.
Good luck
Charlie
Good luck
Charlie
charlie,
your so very right i had a good day or maybe a 4 day stretch then bam i hit a low for a few days to a wekk then a had my ups and they lasted longer and the lows lasted less. but this time ny ups have lasted me the longest evr i am going on a month straight with no sign of dark clouds anywhere and if i feel one or see one coming on i am gonna run for the hills baby hehehe. no but there is definately something different about this time i feel it. i am ready to take on the world. matter of fact i have been out in the real world taking it on by the horms and having a good time. i so wish it for everyone to know this feeling : ) i am sure i will have a day here or there still but i just know it isnt going to plague me like it had in the past because i refuse to let it!!!
terrianne
your so very right i had a good day or maybe a 4 day stretch then bam i hit a low for a few days to a wekk then a had my ups and they lasted longer and the lows lasted less. but this time ny ups have lasted me the longest evr i am going on a month straight with no sign of dark clouds anywhere and if i feel one or see one coming on i am gonna run for the hills baby hehehe. no but there is definately something different about this time i feel it. i am ready to take on the world. matter of fact i have been out in the real world taking it on by the horms and having a good time. i so wish it for everyone to know this feeling : ) i am sure i will have a day here or there still but i just know it isnt going to plague me like it had in the past because i refuse to let it!!!
terrianne
terriann, how long ago did you quit?
wiverson,
i quite on march 18 of last year is when i went to detox, i'll never forget it cause the18 of decenber ias mysonsb-day so it has extra special meaining to me. thanks for asking me :)
terrianne
i quite on march 18 of last year is when i went to detox, i'll never forget it cause the18 of decenber ias mysonsb-day so it has extra special meaining to me. thanks for asking me :)
terrianne
