I leave for work today like I do every Monday...I get there and its closed. So I get out of my truck try the door...locked...now Im pissed!!! Now Im screaming and cursing like an idiot because noone called me to let me know. Cursed them out the whole way home...In my head my old thinking comes right back. Screw them...I'll just quit! How dare they do this to me!! Ya know a phone call would of been nice. I get home and my husband tells me my sponsor just called. In my head I say well...F&**^ that I dont feel like talking to nobody right now. Then he says shes gonna call you at work...then I think ah f*(^& now I gotta call her. Anyway....I tell her whats going on so I feel alittle better but still pissed. She suggests that I go to the 1:00 meeting...I say well maybe I'll go...hey wait a minute isnt today a step meeting..oh wait today is the last monday so its a tradition....she laughs....I really do NOT want to go.... She told me she will be there and hopefully she will see me there. So what will I do...I will go even though I really dont want to...because its this little s*** that can take me back out....
gi
ps....ok tell me how this works...im in a bad pissed off mood...my phone just rang and its a girl having a bad day...do I want to answer? NO...selfish me...Im in my own s*** dont want to hear anyone elses....but I am gonna call her back as I didnt hear the message till just now....and I know it will end up helping me...ok talk to you guys later....sorry for rambling...lol
Gina, Sounds like you had an opportunity to start this day all over again! Remember it's progress not perfection. My Sponsor suggests that I breathe and recite the Serenity prayer over and over. That usually calms me, but also working with another alcoholic always helps and gets me out of myself.
hey Gina - best to pour it all out on the board than to let it fester inside.
"angels fly cause they take themselves lightly."
"angels fly cause they take themselves lightly."
Thanks guys...you know the serenity prayer was not what I was thinking today..lollol.. anyway my day got a whole lot better. The meeting was good to. And your right progress not perfection. The meeting was on Tradition 5...lol...how funny is that? I am glad I called that girl before I went to the meeting because I would of really felt like s*** if I hadnt. I called her back later on and we talked for a while, then she thanked me for listening to her babble...I just told her no thanks needed she helped me just as much if not more than I helped her. So heres to another good day.
take care
gi
take care
gi
