Tina,
Things will happen our whole lives that will hurt.It's called being human.When you are dead,you will no longer have that happen..........that's all I meant.
I'm not quite sure what you thought I meant?
Later
wow, I didn't think this post would be so popular; I'm glad I posted it.
you did good Liz.
How are you doing?
How are you doing?
I understood exactly what you meant Tim.
Stacey...Kat's right, things that hurt a year ago, don't hurt now because of the ammends I've made, but I will continue to hurt as things come up. We weren't addicts for just a year or 6 months. I have 26 years of ammends to make. And that might not be achieved before I'm dead.
Love you girl
Lisa
Stacey...Kat's right, things that hurt a year ago, don't hurt now because of the ammends I've made, but I will continue to hurt as things come up. We weren't addicts for just a year or 6 months. I have 26 years of ammends to make. And that might not be achieved before I'm dead.
Love you girl
Lisa
Tim,
You answered when you are dead....
I took it just like that. It is just how I see it. I would rather feel, even hurt and be alive, then ever be dead. But that is just me....never know what you will miss....
I understand that hurt till the end, but hell I couldn't stay in that, even trip that to happen. I hope no one can/does.....like I said it would suck!
Love,
Tina
You answered when you are dead....
I took it just like that. It is just how I see it. I would rather feel, even hurt and be alive, then ever be dead. But that is just me....never know what you will miss....
I understand that hurt till the end, but hell I couldn't stay in that, even trip that to happen. I hope no one can/does.....like I said it would suck!
Love,
Tina
I know that when I was high, which was EVERYDAY of the last four years...probably more, just cannot remember...my feelings were not normal.
I did lie. I did manipulate anyone I could in order to get access to more pills.
I felt rage when I should have felt sorrow. I felt empathy when I should have felt repulsed. I felt companionship when I should have been alarmed by the company I was keeping. Up was down, and inside was out.
I know my heart is huge, and my capacity for love tremendous...but what I felt for the people that I love in this life during those years was not real love. It was an opiate enduced trance. Not the same thing at all.
Pain pills kept me from feeling the good as well as the bad. I was numb.
Thank God I have some distance from that. For real, Thank You God.
I did lie. I did manipulate anyone I could in order to get access to more pills.
I felt rage when I should have felt sorrow. I felt empathy when I should have felt repulsed. I felt companionship when I should have been alarmed by the company I was keeping. Up was down, and inside was out.
I know my heart is huge, and my capacity for love tremendous...but what I felt for the people that I love in this life during those years was not real love. It was an opiate enduced trance. Not the same thing at all.
Pain pills kept me from feeling the good as well as the bad. I was numb.
Thank God I have some distance from that. For real, Thank You God.
Tina,
Who is saying anything about wanting to be dead?
I don't think we are on the same page.It happens.No problemo.
I just saw Apocalypto.......Wow.......It was heavy.
I need to go chill after that.
Have a great evening everyone.
Who is saying anything about wanting to be dead?
I don't think we are on the same page.It happens.No problemo.
I just saw Apocalypto.......Wow.......It was heavy.
I need to go chill after that.
Have a great evening everyone.
