Jeff Thanbk you & yes you are right,some will always be blind because they cannot see past themselves(how lonely that must be)
I for the first timre in a very long time am enjoying & embracing the good,honest strong woman I am.Noone can take that away.
Rachel that was a beautiful post & so true.If someone is filled with bitterness & anger at themselves thats what they give to others.On the other hand if you truley love the person you are theres nothing but love & honesty to give back,And to me what a wounderful thing to be able to share the love I have with others.
Some may not want my love but I feel they are the ones who are truley lost & need it the most.Thank you for that post & I hope others realize the truth behind your words.
Dear sweet Kat youve always been(to me)someone who has never turned me away or back stabbed me when I needed some support.Your beauty is known by many of us & you are a blessing to life itself!!!
molly
Rachel...
Wow, that was awesome...for me, that's two fold...
Before recovery, if you squeezed me (if I even allowed you close), anger, resentment, bitterness, poor me, poor me, hatred and so many other ugly, ugly things would have come out....
Today is a blessing...today I work very hard not to have any of the ugly nor negative feelings fester inside me...today, God willing, I would hope love, acceptance, warmth, humility would come from me....
For the longest time, I always wanted somebody, something, someplace to make me happy...when I learned complete surrender and acceptance, I was granted unlimited happiness, peace and serenity.....thank you God...
I love you, girl and thank you for these positive posts....
xoxo
Stacey
Wow, that was awesome...for me, that's two fold...
Before recovery, if you squeezed me (if I even allowed you close), anger, resentment, bitterness, poor me, poor me, hatred and so many other ugly, ugly things would have come out....
Today is a blessing...today I work very hard not to have any of the ugly nor negative feelings fester inside me...today, God willing, I would hope love, acceptance, warmth, humility would come from me....
For the longest time, I always wanted somebody, something, someplace to make me happy...when I learned complete surrender and acceptance, I was granted unlimited happiness, peace and serenity.....thank you God...
I love you, girl and thank you for these positive posts....
xoxo
Stacey
M.J
PAIN SUCKS.
Thew last thing I wanted was back on another drug.
But for me-it does not affect my breathing --it enables m e to stay on a LOW dose of prednisone. Anybody who is educated on steroids 30+yrs--DAMAGE is done but it can get worse.
But on this low dose NOPE--I am amazed. It does not affect bowel movements like other opiates. It does not give me any form of a buzz??
I wanted off it so bad--fearing long term side effects
See I project and I hurt myself --make bad decisions when I project.
Back to work --Take care
PAIN SUCKS.
Thew last thing I wanted was back on another drug.
But for me-it does not affect my breathing --it enables m e to stay on a LOW dose of prednisone. Anybody who is educated on steroids 30+yrs--DAMAGE is done but it can get worse.
But on this low dose NOPE--I am amazed. It does not affect bowel movements like other opiates. It does not give me any form of a buzz??
I wanted off it so bad--fearing long term side effects
See I project and I hurt myself --make bad decisions when I project.
Back to work --Take care
Kat, I got what you said. You just keep on going.
Have a great day; and don't sweat the small stuff.
Have a great day; and don't sweat the small stuff.
The backstabbing wasn't directed at you Kat. So please don't give it another thought. You are and always will be my biggest fan and best friend. I am so incredibly lucky and blessed to have someone like you (and Rachel and Stacey) in my life. You guys keep me grounded and remind me of what's important and what is bs. Thank you for that.
Today I am grateful for my recovery and who I am. I am so happy today. And life is good.
Today I am grateful for my recovery and who I am. I am so happy today. And life is good.
I just have a few minutes before I have to pick up Kearra....
MJ honey...hi sweetheart! I have missed you so much and I owe you an email and I pinkey pinkey swear I am gonna get to that as soon as I get back. I know your heart...you are an amazingly tender soul and I for one admire you for the work you have done and how far you have come in your recovery!!
For those that have negative things to say about sub...are simply put "ignorant"...they have no idea what this medication does and how it works...it has freed so many from the bonds of active addiction...me included!!! Those people have no right to judge what one is doing for there own sobriety...addiction has alot more to do with behaviours than the actual ingesting of the pills or drug! You are such an inspiration and a true friend and I love you!!!
Hi Kat...hope everything is ok
Rachel...that was an amazing analogy...thanks for that!
Now....what am I doing for my recovery....everything that I wasn't before....
I am working so hard on not holding resentments...and spiritually I am so connected right now..before I would just eat a handful of pills rather than think about what was bothering me...now...I look to my HP....for strength...I have found a fellowship in others that share this disease....so many things.....
MJ honey...hi sweetheart! I have missed you so much and I owe you an email and I pinkey pinkey swear I am gonna get to that as soon as I get back. I know your heart...you are an amazingly tender soul and I for one admire you for the work you have done and how far you have come in your recovery!!
For those that have negative things to say about sub...are simply put "ignorant"...they have no idea what this medication does and how it works...it has freed so many from the bonds of active addiction...me included!!! Those people have no right to judge what one is doing for there own sobriety...addiction has alot more to do with behaviours than the actual ingesting of the pills or drug! You are such an inspiration and a true friend and I love you!!!
Hi Kat...hope everything is ok
Rachel...that was an amazing analogy...thanks for that!
Now....what am I doing for my recovery....everything that I wasn't before....
I am working so hard on not holding resentments...and spiritually I am so connected right now..before I would just eat a handful of pills rather than think about what was bothering me...now...I look to my HP....for strength...I have found a fellowship in others that share this disease....so many things.....
You can only give others what you have inside of yourself. Therefore to give love away to others, you must cultivate love for yourself FIRST. Dyer uses the metaphor of squeezing an orange - asking you what comes out when you squeeze it. Most people answer, "orange juice" comes out. Why? Because that is what is inside. When humans are squeezed, what comes out of them is what they harbor inside of themselves. Harbor love, acceptance, joy, confidence, peace and harmony towards yourself so that you can radiate it towards others.
Exactly. Funny, he is just like that.
Exactly. Funny, he is just like that.
LB I loved it the first time I read that & I love it now.If your filled with love for yourself that is what you give others & its a natural thing.Its easy.....But if you are filled with bitterness & self hate well than thats when you start hurting others.How sad for those people huh?
Well Im off to be with my Anne have a good nite all
Lisa....Bless you & take care
Well Im off to be with my Anne have a good nite all
Lisa....Bless you & take care
Yeah, I have learned alot about forgiveness and harboring resentments from Dr. Dyer...he has been through lots of hurt himself; but yet, practices love and kindess for those that wronged him.
Kinda like you, MJ. Tina has my email if you ever want to chat; you keep on your path...you have grown so much. Don't let anyone try to bring you down because of sub; or anything else for that matter. You rock.
Kinda like you, MJ. Tina has my email if you ever want to chat; you keep on your path...you have grown so much. Don't let anyone try to bring you down because of sub; or anything else for that matter. You rock.
Kerry...those are words are so true...I just love that!
uhhh ok so I can't speak today...lol...you know what I mean..lol
So funny...this morning I went to say something to Kearra's teacher...and I have no idea what came out of my mouth..but it was semi English....lol....
uhhh ok so I can't speak today...lol...you know what I mean..lol
So funny...this morning I went to say something to Kearra's teacher...and I have no idea what came out of my mouth..but it was semi English....lol....
After a while you will be speaking da kine anyway...lol. English isn't the first language over there, pigeon is.
I am so glad you and your grandaughter are loving paradise. Did you jump off the rock at Hapuna yet?
I am so glad you and your grandaughter are loving paradise. Did you jump off the rock at Hapuna yet?
LOL...so true Kerry...I think it is already happening...it is funny because most here ask specifically if I am Canadian...lol...apparently I have an accent....HEY!
No we havn't jumped the rock yet...but I know which one you are talking about now...in fact we haven't been to Hapoona in about 1 month..since we moved into Kona...when we were at Mauni Lani...we went alot...5 minuetes away!!!!
We will go this weekend and I will do it....yippeeeee!
Kearra rode her 2 wheeler for the first time last nite and she was so proud as were we...its a milestone in her development!!! I hope that that will be a memory she will cherish....she learned her two wheeler in Hawaii!!!!
Have a good one!
No we havn't jumped the rock yet...but I know which one you are talking about now...in fact we haven't been to Hapoona in about 1 month..since we moved into Kona...when we were at Mauni Lani...we went alot...5 minuetes away!!!!
We will go this weekend and I will do it....yippeeeee!
Kearra rode her 2 wheeler for the first time last nite and she was so proud as were we...its a milestone in her development!!! I hope that that will be a memory she will cherish....she learned her two wheeler in Hawaii!!!!
Have a good one!
Today I am being proactive in my life. I'm not sitting idly by and waiting for something better. I'm making it happen. I went to an awesome meeting today and heard everything I needed to hear. I was right where I was suppose to be. Today I don't live in fear or anger. Today I live in serenity.
