I'm havin' a shi--y night, so I get home from a meeting and click on here and see people arguing, then some of the same people making the same a$$ kissin' posts they been makin' since I got here, "I love you" blah blah blah, like it couldn't be said in the chat they all belong to, or over the phone...No growth in those posts that I see....Am I finger pointing, yeah so what....I'm pi$$ed, I can't get what I want tonight, pitty pot for me tonight but I just can't get outta my head. I don't feel like drinking/drugging, but for this moment my serenity is gone and I need to vent. Thought maybe I'd see something here that might spark something, and all I saw was the same old sh--t. Thats where I'm at tonight, clean and sober and pissed off.
Does anyone here REALLY make a regular attendence of meetings or am I the only sap here serious about recovery? Cause I sure don't see it anywhere tonight.
Maybe I'm not looking hard enough, or maybe I did see what I needed but haven't realized it just yet.
Bob
Sorry your pissed off. Everyone has their days. Hope you find something better to look at. Took me awhile to even wanna post here myself the past couple of days and had to not read a good many posts as well. So good luck.
You get what you put out there Bob.
at least your not using.
take care,
peace,
pm
What I mean by "you get what you put out there" is if you put pissed off, anger, resentment, pissyness, fight, argument, negativity out there, you'll get ALL that back. If, however, you shift your energy to gratitude, serenity, acceptance, and care of others you will receive that back in return and shift the energy of things eventually. Is that not worth it???
You get what you put out there Bob.
at least your not using.
take care,
peace,
pm
What I mean by "you get what you put out there" is if you put pissed off, anger, resentment, pissyness, fight, argument, negativity out there, you'll get ALL that back. If, however, you shift your energy to gratitude, serenity, acceptance, and care of others you will receive that back in return and shift the energy of things eventually. Is that not worth it???
Hell bob i came lookin for an argument cause i was a bit bored tonight and i must be looking at the wrong posts. Damn, we are both just $hit out of luck. sounds like your recovery is going great. bitchy and moody, been there and done that. and will probably visit in a few hours.
hope things get better for ya, i would say the folks IN the meetings are going to have more in common with you than those sitting home on a computer. but that is just my lame opinion.
again hope things look up for you and good luck, have a great weekend
hope things get better for ya, i would say the folks IN the meetings are going to have more in common with you than those sitting home on a computer. but that is just my lame opinion.
again hope things look up for you and good luck, have a great weekend
Hey Bob,
I am normally in bed by 9 asleep by 10, insomnia has kicked in.. (hormones)..or lack of.
I wish I knew what to say to you to steer you into a more calm place in your head.
Have you ever meditated? I sit on my front porch or deck, clear my mind, and focus on the sounds around me. Birds, squirrels (leaves on the ground so you can hear them running around) wind, dogs barking in a distance, the smell of dog s*** in my yard.. lol yep, that too. just listen. I do this for 15 minutes or so, I really don't time it. And it certainly isn't formal I am just being with me for a while. I breath from my stomach, very slowly.
You will be amazed at what you hear if you listen close enough. Sometimes in the morning, the birds chirp so loudly I want to twist their lil necks.. LOL kidding, I did however remove my windchimes, they were totallly getting on my nerves.
I dunno Bob, just try to divert your mind from being pissed off and figure out what pissed you off in the first place..
Hope you sleep well.
Brook aka Brookshire
I am normally in bed by 9 asleep by 10, insomnia has kicked in.. (hormones)..or lack of.
I wish I knew what to say to you to steer you into a more calm place in your head.
Have you ever meditated? I sit on my front porch or deck, clear my mind, and focus on the sounds around me. Birds, squirrels (leaves on the ground so you can hear them running around) wind, dogs barking in a distance, the smell of dog s*** in my yard.. lol yep, that too. just listen. I do this for 15 minutes or so, I really don't time it. And it certainly isn't formal I am just being with me for a while. I breath from my stomach, very slowly.
You will be amazed at what you hear if you listen close enough. Sometimes in the morning, the birds chirp so loudly I want to twist their lil necks.. LOL kidding, I did however remove my windchimes, they were totallly getting on my nerves.
I dunno Bob, just try to divert your mind from being pissed off and figure out what pissed you off in the first place..
Hope you sleep well.
Brook aka Brookshire
HI, Bob you and gina have always been very kind to me i 'am so sorry you are feeling this way remember you told me some thing once and it was those words that helped me get clean and stay clean i don't know if you remember but you told me what ever it takes what ever works for me that is all that truly counts just think of today tomorrow is not here yet that is some of the things you and gina told me back then your support went along way in helping me recover it's been over a year now and i 'am proud of my clean time and yes i did slip at the begining as you might remember then and that is when you and gina told me to pick my self up dust my self off and learn and i did so please do not be upset please put a smile on your face you earnt it and that bob is NO B.S HUGS LITTLE H.
Hey Bob... i know exactly where you are... been there all day today. Been pissed off mainly at myself... got wisdom tooth coming in and it's impacted. Gonna have surgery on it Monday. Got real close to filling the lortab prescription but went to a meeting right after he gave it to me. Thank God i did... still sober for today. Damn that was a real tough test... and i am sure it's not over yet. I am sorry you are having a s***ty day... just want you to know that i feel for you and don't feel alone in this... being an addict really sucks. But, thank God we are sober just for today. Don't really know what's been going on with the board... haven't really logged on lately. Guess it's a good thing? Anyway... just want you to know that i am here for you. Hope you have a good night... tomorrow's a new day as they say.
Love and God Bless,
Bri :)
PS... don't have the script anymore... got rid of it... but husband practically had to pry the damn thing away... ha... and i thought after a year of sobriety i would have been better than that.
Love and God Bless,
Bri :)
PS... don't have the script anymore... got rid of it... but husband practically had to pry the damn thing away... ha... and i thought after a year of sobriety i would have been better than that.
Ive grown tired of all the fighting too Bob lots of us are and many of us have just stopped coming to the board because of it.
You know... i think that's alot of the reason i don't come here that much either... it's like we all have problems at home and we come here to help each other and be helped, and then there's a bunch of bs that pops up here. I am glad i missed it this time. Thank God for meetings, right, lol? :)
bob ive found ya just cant keep things bottled up, go ahead n tell it.speak ya mind,point out people,if somethings eatin at you, gotta get it out,were all adults,lol if were ,well like me a doper wining at times while others have givin there life,fighting for a cause..yea i get that way but,u know saying people will be disapointing,after all were just human,fighting our demons i suppose..be well
Hi Wildman... about to go to bed... but saw your post on here and thought i would say hello... haven't seen you in a while... hope all is well... i will try to be on more this weekend... going thru tough time right now... so i will be needing support the next few days for sure. Take care and good night! Love and God Bless,Bri :)
Bob,
I can't sleep.My puppy is still out of sorts from her spay. In Brazil we use to use this prayer everyday for this exact type of thing. In fact we used it for everything. It was one of the daily prayers in our prayer books.
The Serenity Prayer
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Maybe it will help you too.
peace,
pm
I can't sleep.My puppy is still out of sorts from her spay. In Brazil we use to use this prayer everyday for this exact type of thing. In fact we used it for everything. It was one of the daily prayers in our prayer books.
The Serenity Prayer
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Maybe it will help you too.
peace,
pm
Bob
I'm sorry you're having a bad time right now but you know it will pass. I do know what you mean. I can go from being in a good mood to just being pissed at the world for no good reason. I hate it when it happens but we just have to realize that it won't last. That its just happens. Pick up that thing you make beautiful music with, lock yourself in a room and do your thing. I'll bet after a couple of songs you'll be feeling fine.
You know if you ever need to chat, you have my email.
Take care Bob
Frank
i know i really do hate the bickering to but i threw my name in on a post where all the blows were getting thrown in at jean so the heat would get taken off her and it worked, for a while.untill i kept getting told that every post wasnt about me, or revolving around me so get over it. well this was mostly true except when my name directly gets thrown in to it. but i geuss my point is what was told to me if the post doesnt pertain to you and your recovery, move on. i know i have heard you, yourself say that before even bob and it certainly is a good reminder for me as well. i hope you are feeling better today and maybe if the weather is nice you can go out and do something nice as a family. take care
terrianne
terrianne
wow Bob you little tiger you lol bob ive not seen you this angry in a long while sure blows out the cobwebs eh? howy a feeling today Bob? jaxxxxxx
Hey Bob,
I was going to post to you last night but I was Skeerd because I knew you were mad and you know me the words don't always come out my mouf all that good.:-0) I know it's spelled mouth.. Anyway, So I thought I might piss you off if I wrote to you. All I can say is I hope today is a better day then last night was for you. Take care and enjoy your weekend with your family.It will calm down around here, you know how it goes...Rae
I was going to post to you last night but I was Skeerd because I knew you were mad and you know me the words don't always come out my mouf all that good.:-0) I know it's spelled mouth.. Anyway, So I thought I might piss you off if I wrote to you. All I can say is I hope today is a better day then last night was for you. Take care and enjoy your weekend with your family.It will calm down around here, you know how it goes...Rae
Terrianne:
Guess I missed something. LOL geez the board is about recovery. Not sure exactly what happened but I like the phrase if it does not apply let it fly.
Jeff
Guess I missed something. LOL geez the board is about recovery. Not sure exactly what happened but I like the phrase if it does not apply let it fly.
Jeff
Jeff,
I love the comment at the end of your posts
"Never argue with an idiot, he'll bring you down to his level and beat you with experience."
It is so true..now if we would all take it to heart...
Traci
I love the comment at the end of your posts
"Never argue with an idiot, he'll bring you down to his level and beat you with experience."
It is so true..now if we would all take it to heart...
Traci
No Jeff you didn't miss anything.
Anything good planned for the weekend?
Brook aka Brookshire
Anything good planned for the weekend?
Brook aka Brookshire
Keep coming back Bob.
We are a bunch of addicts doing our best to get through the day..bitching and moaning at times...but underneath it all, I truly believe we all just want to be loved, accepted.....and SOBER. It is a drag when the bickering starts. but that's life.S**T happens and we move on..I never expect perfect behavior...Life is FOR-GIVING/FORGIVING...Sorry you had a lousy night...hope your weekend is better...Love, Sharonn
