MollyJean asked me this question on another thread, and I thought it would be a good idea to start a new thread so that others could share too if they wanted...
What brought me here is actually really scary in a Karma kinda way.
I had been surfing looking for online drug companies. That was one line I hadn't crossed yet but if not for this board, I would have. When I put in the word percocet in the search bar, this website for recovery came up. Something interveened....... I came here so beat up, scared and alone. It became my life line.
Anyone else?
Molly, I appreciate your very sweet nature. Just don't others take advantage of that.
Cowgirl
CG- I came here looking for information on drug wd's. I did a google and this board came up..thank god and a BIG thank you to the people who run it..
Kinda how I feel about them....
Kinda how I feel about them....
I came here because I need to remember...
I need a solution, sometimes daily.
I also come because vicoden had me beat, scared, sicker than hell, and totally alone...
I just want to reassure people that there is a way out..
Kerry
I need a solution, sometimes daily.
I also come because vicoden had me beat, scared, sicker than hell, and totally alone...
I just want to reassure people that there is a way out..
Kerry
I got here, much the sme as Danny, I googled for boards that had an interest in recovery. I stayed because people welcomed me and seemd to want to help.I was always remember that newbies nead to be welcomed and first impressions are important.
Thanks for what I think will be an interesting thread Cowgirl, its good to see you back
Paul
Thanks for what I think will be an interesting thread Cowgirl, its good to see you back
Paul
Desperation.........
Thank you cowgirl I was hopen you wouldn't take me the wrong way.And to answer my own question...I really don't know why I came here.Maybe because I'm sick of these little white pills controling me.Maybe because I finally got to the point of realizing if I keep going the way I was I would end up dead.Maybe I just got sick of feeling so lost and alone with this problem.as you can see I'm still a work in progress.I still have a hard time as far as being an addict but at least I don't feel so damn alone.Also I know somewhere that I am more than just an addict I am a mother a girlfriend a daughter and I am a good person with a drug habit.There are layers to all of us and I'm just beginning to peel the layers off.mollyjean
Well, This Is A Cool Thread,
I think it was Febuary when I got here. If I remember right I had about a month clean and sober after relapsing from being clean for two years. My wife found this site and since I went cold turkey at home the second time, I was looking for constant recovery talk. So, aside from my face to face meetings, I started getting involved with recovery on line as well. It's been a big help to me, I've met some great people who I'm sure I'll meet at some point, I've learned to be more cautious with being so trusting at the same time not putting up a wall in front of those that are sincere and loving people. The concept of "Let It Go" has gotten easier for me to practice due to on line recovery. I was thin skined and learned to not take myself so seriously because of coming here. I learned a great deal about my disease here too. For those I've become friendly with here, I thank you
for help and guidence at times when I needed it. And for those I haven't really talked to, I thank you too, I read most of the posts and I apply in my life alot of what I see other people say they do, and have learned by other peoples set backs what not to do. I've gotten pissed off here, I've laughed my a** off here, it has really been good for my recovery being a part of this board so far.
It's been great seeing the people I've come to love grow in recovery as well.
Cowgirl, for example, you've come so far and the change in you is like night and day. I'm proud to call you my friend, I'm happy your a part of my recovery, and thanks for starting this thread. It'll be interesting to see the posts here.
Take care.................................God bless..........................................Bob
I think it was Febuary when I got here. If I remember right I had about a month clean and sober after relapsing from being clean for two years. My wife found this site and since I went cold turkey at home the second time, I was looking for constant recovery talk. So, aside from my face to face meetings, I started getting involved with recovery on line as well. It's been a big help to me, I've met some great people who I'm sure I'll meet at some point, I've learned to be more cautious with being so trusting at the same time not putting up a wall in front of those that are sincere and loving people. The concept of "Let It Go" has gotten easier for me to practice due to on line recovery. I was thin skined and learned to not take myself so seriously because of coming here. I learned a great deal about my disease here too. For those I've become friendly with here, I thank you
for help and guidence at times when I needed it. And for those I haven't really talked to, I thank you too, I read most of the posts and I apply in my life alot of what I see other people say they do, and have learned by other peoples set backs what not to do. I've gotten pissed off here, I've laughed my a** off here, it has really been good for my recovery being a part of this board so far.
It's been great seeing the people I've come to love grow in recovery as well.
Cowgirl, for example, you've come so far and the change in you is like night and day. I'm proud to call you my friend, I'm happy your a part of my recovery, and thanks for starting this thread. It'll be interesting to see the posts here.
Take care.................................God bless..........................................Bob
I came to this site about 20 days ago after typing "hydrocodone withdrawal help" in a search. I immediately knew I needed to be here and have read it daily and posted a lot since that first day.
I have gotten a great deal from many people here and am very grateful for all the advice given and knowledge obtained. I have learned so much about my addiction and about recovery just by reading the posts. There are several very informed, intelligent writers here whose posts I love to read. (Sammy especially) Many of you I've never even talked to, but I feel like I know a lot about you and I appreciate what you are doing for me and the other "newbies". Your conversations are very enlightening and it's been interesting to get a glimpse into the lives of other addicts.
I must admit I have not been much help to anyone else here. I try to reach out and offer kind words when I read something that speaks to me and I feel moved to do so. Most of the days I've been on here, I have barely felt able to help myself, let alone felt capable of helping anyone else. Being so new to recovery, I would never pretend I have anything to offer another addict in need of help, when there are so many other posters here who do is with much more grace and clarity.
Perhaps I have bragged about my success too much. I am very proud of the first 25 days in 8 years that I have not been on pills. But please forgive me if I have mentioned that more than I have mentioned how proud I am of all of you who are doing it, or even trying to do it.
My heart goes out to each and every one of you who are trying to be clean and going through hell to get there. My words may not be as pretty as some, but they are as sincere as any. God bless each and every one of you.
Guidence, (got none), frienship, ( found a few, that i will charish all ways!) and u know who you are.. and above all RECOVERY, but people seem to think drama is better than recovery and putting people down, i guess it makes them feel better...what ever....
Mitzy........There is nothing better for any of us or our children than recovery. Nothing. Please try not to let anything get in the way of that. Nothing. Ever. You have 3 daughters and there is nothing in the world more important than their having a mother who is "present". But, you already know that, don't you?
Have a good evening!
I came here for support and guidance because I didn't know much about drug addiction and to what lengths people will go to get drugs. I found that and so much more....I found a lot of kind, compassionate, loving friends who are willing to share their stories, their heartaches, and their experiences with me to help me deal with my son's problems. I feel very blessed that God guided me to this board!
Love,
Susan
Love,
Susan
P.S. I also have come to have more compassion and understanding for those struggling with drug addiction.
I came here looking for drugs over the internet . and ran in to this site .. that is that AND i thank all for that god number one ..If it wasent for this post .. I mat still be taking those little pills goush you think my spelling would get better love poopie love all and it does get better
wow, that was a great sign, arnt you happy you found this insted??, i am glad you are here! have a great night:),,,,
Hi,
I'm sorry if this starts s--t but, Mitzy you said, "Guidence, (got none)". Well I gotta tell ya', between earlier this year till now, I don't know how many posts I've seen where people really tried to be their for you, tell you what you needed to hear and tried to give you the chance to get honest with us and yourself. Now, you don't have too, you sure don't have to answer to us, but don't say nobody tried to give you guidence, even the Moderators have posted to you in the past in the hopes you'd take a look at your actions and reactions.
Sorry but I read that and had to say something, have a good night......
Take care.................................God bless.......................................Bob
I'm sorry if this starts s--t but, Mitzy you said, "Guidence, (got none)". Well I gotta tell ya', between earlier this year till now, I don't know how many posts I've seen where people really tried to be their for you, tell you what you needed to hear and tried to give you the chance to get honest with us and yourself. Now, you don't have too, you sure don't have to answer to us, but don't say nobody tried to give you guidence, even the Moderators have posted to you in the past in the hopes you'd take a look at your actions and reactions.
Sorry but I read that and had to say something, have a good night......
Take care.................................God bless.......................................Bob
Bob, i understand where your comming from, but why do you only answer the negative posts and never the postive??, i remember when you would post to me all the time, u and best wishes, cowgirl and others who have since left, that i do not understand? look i understand what u r saying, but i have tryed to help so many people, and i get yelled at for posting to every post, what does it matter, i am trying to stay a float im this disease of addiction and i have a lot on my plate and do not need to be called a liar... take care Bob...... Mitzy
Mitzy,
First I don't only post to the negetive. 2nd, sorry but I stopped posting to you because I'd rather stay out of the bulls--t. You in my opinion are seeking attention and it's gonna get you banned again if your not careful. I really don't care if your lying or not it's only yourself your hurting if you are. Your posts are almost the same as they were almost a year ago. I'd rather not discuss it any further and would be greatful if you left me out of your drama from this point on.
If your really clean then thats great, I wish you all the best luck in the world.
If these things you say about yourself are really true, than I pray things get better for you soon.
If your not clean I hope for you that you get clean it's a beautiful way to live.
If the things you say about yourself are not true, than I feel bad for you and the people your involving that believe you. Your wasting alot of peoples time that are really having a hard time with recovery.
I really do wish you all the best in life and with recovery, but I just don't have the time to post on deaf ears.
Take care.......................................God bless........................................Bob
First I don't only post to the negetive. 2nd, sorry but I stopped posting to you because I'd rather stay out of the bulls--t. You in my opinion are seeking attention and it's gonna get you banned again if your not careful. I really don't care if your lying or not it's only yourself your hurting if you are. Your posts are almost the same as they were almost a year ago. I'd rather not discuss it any further and would be greatful if you left me out of your drama from this point on.
If your really clean then thats great, I wish you all the best luck in the world.
If these things you say about yourself are really true, than I pray things get better for you soon.
If your not clean I hope for you that you get clean it's a beautiful way to live.
If the things you say about yourself are not true, than I feel bad for you and the people your involving that believe you. Your wasting alot of peoples time that are really having a hard time with recovery.
I really do wish you all the best in life and with recovery, but I just don't have the time to post on deaf ears.
Take care.......................................God bless........................................Bob
When I first got sober in 1984, the oldtimers used to say, "Sit down, shut up and listen." I'll never forget that. I did what they said because I was scared of losing my a##. This still holds true for me today even though I have a few days clean sometimes I need to just listen. They say," the answers will come if your own house is in order." That's the guidance I needed.
Peace,
Rach
Peace,
Rach
They also used to say, "Poor me, poor me, pour me a drink!"
R
R
Hi Rachel,
Sounds like we have talked to the same people! lol My dads one of those oldtimers, he is great and no bulls--t, don't pick up under any and all conditions period! "Take The Cottin' Out Of Your Ears And Put It In Your Mouth"!
Nice seeing ya' Rachel.
Take care....................................God bless.......................................Bob
Sounds like we have talked to the same people! lol My dads one of those oldtimers, he is great and no bulls--t, don't pick up under any and all conditions period! "Take The Cottin' Out Of Your Ears And Put It In Your Mouth"!
Nice seeing ya' Rachel.
Take care....................................God bless.......................................Bob
