hello to all .....Today i got up from bed and went down stairs to realize neil was not in so my oldest daughter said he had gone out an he told her to tell me he wont be long so i never thought anything about it, a bit later on i noticed my only 20 pounds has gone from my purse so off course a sickly feeling came rushing through my body i have looked everywhere just incase i have misplaced it but it's no-where to be found anyway then there was a knock on my door it was his probation officer i invited her in an explained neil was not here etc etc she said it was just a routine call and that he was doing really well and how are things going ? i didnt tell her about the money as there could be a good enough explanation for it . neil has been gone now for 4 hours i dont know if it's just me but im starting to think something suspicious is starting , what do you guys think ? im also thinking" but would he risk loosing everything for one hit"? .i dont know would you guys risk loosing everything for 1 more hit ?
hopefully everything will fit in to place
take care xxxxxxxxxxxx
..Emz..
..just an honest reply frm me..a person would risk everything for one last hit..but they don't think they're gonna get caught..cos as you know..most addicts lie thru their teeth when explaing wot happened..if he had good reason to take it without your knowledge (thou taking money from ya purse without ya knowledge is neva a good reason)..like its ya birthday and hes run out to get ya sumfin quickly ?..or had to pay the gas or lekky cos the meters gone off ? or to get some milk and munchies..then maybe h has gone for that " One Last Hit " ?..just my opininon..Robbie..
..just an honest reply frm me..a person would risk everything for one last hit..but they don't think they're gonna get caught..cos as you know..most addicts lie thru their teeth when explaing wot happened..if he had good reason to take it without your knowledge (thou taking money from ya purse without ya knowledge is neva a good reason)..like its ya birthday and hes run out to get ya sumfin quickly ?..or had to pay the gas or lekky cos the meters gone off ? or to get some milk and munchies..then maybe h has gone for that " One Last Hit " ?..just my opininon..Robbie..
emz, I hope he's back now..........I say the same as Robbie.
emz, no matter don't go off on him...........just let his actions tell ya.
emz, no matter don't go off on him...........just let his actions tell ya.
feel for you emz..hope everything works itself out.
i dont wanna say what I thibk may have happened coz you just dunno til he gets back
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i dont wanna say what I thibk may have happened coz you just dunno til he gets back
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panic over he turned up with 18.50 said he had been hunting an didnt want to disturb me he took the money to get himself a drink , ive got to stop being so parra im gonna end up with nothing xxxxxxxx
emz - The paranoia will pass in time if all remains well, but a little piece of it will always be lurking in the background - just my experience. But you must also remember that this same instinct is what will inform you when something really is going on, so don't be too hard on yourself for your thinking, it's not so out of line to be going there in your head, really it's quite to be expected.
Take careMomNMore
Take careMomNMore
Emz, a smile came across my face there when i read your second post.... the para will go away in time. All the best, Kev
..Emz..
..Wot i said to you was exactly wot i did'nt like my family/mates saying/thinking
about me when things like that happened..took a real long time for them to trust me again..which i understood, but still hurt knowing it..seeing that look in their eyes n that..but i also still lack trust in some of my ole using mates to be honest wit me..just goes with the territory i think..glad it sorted itself and you know wot happened..Robbie..
..Edit to say..I hold my hands up to being wrong in my first post to ya..
..Wot i said to you was exactly wot i did'nt like my family/mates saying/thinking
about me when things like that happened..took a real long time for them to trust me again..which i understood, but still hurt knowing it..seeing that look in their eyes n that..but i also still lack trust in some of my ole using mates to be honest wit me..just goes with the territory i think..glad it sorted itself and you know wot happened..Robbie..
..Edit to say..I hold my hands up to being wrong in my first post to ya..
So glad it was all ok emz...don't be hard on yourself for being suspicious though...he's still a dam lucky guy :o)
Cool EMZ, and glad he is alright.......Robbie is so right.........especially in early recovery we hated that any one time something came up everyone thought that...hey I'm an addict and I thought "Whoaaaa, not good".......so sorry too.
Just glad he's chill.
Just glad he's chill.
Nice one Emz as Kev said i also was very pleased there was a rational explanation for the score...but Robbie was right initially coz 20quid=a bag...so you were right in yer first gut feeling ...getting that trust back will take awhile but it will come.Take care.......Davey
robbie/bryn dont worry about what was said , i come on here and i always know im gonna get 100% honesty of what ppl think, have done , what there feeling are etc And im so so glad, honesty is all i ever want so thank you guys everyones opinions count to me xxxxxxxxxx
