I can't keep my mouth shut any longer. I am not in a good place right now and my friends here are the only ones I have to turn to at the present time. I have refrained from posting on here about anything that is going on with me today for obvious reasons. I don't know if anybody is who they say they are. I don't know if I will be picked apart or jumped on for saying something wrong or corresponding with the "wrong" people.
I realize that this is the internet...that anybody can hide behind their computer and assume any identity that suits them...that this is a public forum and that everybody has the right to say what they want to. There are so many forums and chat rooms out there where any one of us can participate in this kind of behavior if we choose to. Why does it have to happen on an addiction recovery board? On a forum where so many are hurting and scared and lost?
I know this board isn't the answer for achieving sobriety. But it can be an excellent tool and support system, or atleast a beginning and a first step. I just don't see the point in asking for help at this time. There is too much drama to be focused on to bother with my little problems. So they will have to wait until everything calms down.
To those of you who are members of RB, I did post in there and reach out for advice. God knows it is tough to come by in here these days.
Hi Jodi... sorry i didn't see your post... is there something you need to talk about... if you want you can email me... you have always been here for me and i want to do the same for you... if you feel like it my email is brinorwood@hotmail.com The babies mom will be here in a minute and i will have to visit with her but it won't take very long so i will be right back on okay? I am staying out of the drama too... :) Love Bri
Bri,
I appreciate the offer. You have been one of the sweetest and most caring people on here. Unfortunately, my husband will be home any minute so I can't write to you tonight. I just got disgusted after catching up on some of the stuff that has been going on for the last few days. I just wish things would get back to "normal" again. Thank you again and I will talk to you soon.
I appreciate the offer. You have been one of the sweetest and most caring people on here. Unfortunately, my husband will be home any minute so I can't write to you tonight. I just got disgusted after catching up on some of the stuff that has been going on for the last few days. I just wish things would get back to "normal" again. Thank you again and I will talk to you soon.
Jodi,
I'm here for a bit, whats up? I can be a good listener, your problems shouldn't wait. Especially wait for this bulls*** to die.
Whats going on with you? I noticed in your post to me earlier that you had something on your mind. How can I help?
Redd
I hear ya... email me sometime.. i am here for you... take care of yourself okay?
Love Ya, Bri :)
Love Ya, Bri :)
Hey Redd,
I just wanted to congradulate you on the birth of your little boy. It's amazing how far they've come now with being able to save the babies huh? I'm so happy for you. How big is he now? Do you know how much he weighs now? Can you take a picture of him?
I just wanted to congradulate you on the birth of your little boy. It's amazing how far they've come now with being able to save the babies huh? I'm so happy for you. How big is he now? Do you know how much he weighs now? Can you take a picture of him?
Amy,
With all that you are going through, it means so much to me that you are willing to offer me your ear. As I said up above, I won't have enough time now. But just knowing that a few people are here for the right reasons puts my mind at ease a bit. Thank you for being such a kind soul. You astonish and amaze me. Talk to you soon. And I hope you get your Thanksgiving wish to hold that precious baby...I really do.
With all that you are going through, it means so much to me that you are willing to offer me your ear. As I said up above, I won't have enough time now. But just knowing that a few people are here for the right reasons puts my mind at ease a bit. Thank you for being such a kind soul. You astonish and amaze me. Talk to you soon. And I hope you get your Thanksgiving wish to hold that precious baby...I really do.
Jodi, I am sorry you are having a tough time right now. Please don't be afraid to post. I have been on here on and off for most of the day, and until the past hour or so, things have been very positive, friendly and recovery-oriented. Try to overlook the BS. The majority of the people are not involved and I'm sure they will respond to you in a helpful and positive way. The things that have been happening are very unfortunate. Take care, Atlas
Its been awhile since I've reached out Jodi, I've been kinda busy :)
Please, don't let this crap get to you. Weed it out, there is help here.
I hope I can catch you again, be good to yourself friend.
Redd
Hi there,
Sorry to hear your not feeling well right now...remember that the creams always rises to the top. The people who post with sincerity and with good intentions in their heart are what matters.
The game players ,haters and rebel rousers will get tired if we ignore them and go away.It is sad and pathetic that they have to be here at all but I suspect that is the one downside of the internet.
Hope youll feel better tomorrow.
Peace2all
Sorry to hear your not feeling well right now...remember that the creams always rises to the top. The people who post with sincerity and with good intentions in their heart are what matters.
The game players ,haters and rebel rousers will get tired if we ignore them and go away.It is sad and pathetic that they have to be here at all but I suspect that is the one downside of the internet.
Hope youll feel better tomorrow.
Peace2all
Hi Jodi...I am sorry to hear your hurting and feel uncomfortable posting about it.Please know that you can email me.I will be going down to the library a couple times a week.You know that you can talk to me about anything.I will try and do my best to give you my support.If nothing else,let me know if there is something we can pray for.
Please take care of yourself!!
Please take care of yourself!!
Jodi...I'm back now so if you're on IM me again. If not I'll talk to you in the morning. I know you're going through some rough stuff right now and I'm so sorry for having to leave this morning and cutting our conversation short. I feel like a s*** for it.
Please don't be afraid to post here if that's what you feel you want or need to do. There are enough here that truely care about you and want to help. If anyone jumps you or bashes you, they won't be able to do it for long. I promise you that.
You'll always get what you need on RB. So check there tomorrow as well.
Hang in there sweetheart. You're heart and spirit are in the right place. Trust in your gut instincts.
XXX
Cowgirl
Please don't be afraid to post here if that's what you feel you want or need to do. There are enough here that truely care about you and want to help. If anyone jumps you or bashes you, they won't be able to do it for long. I promise you that.
You'll always get what you need on RB. So check there tomorrow as well.
Hang in there sweetheart. You're heart and spirit are in the right place. Trust in your gut instincts.
XXX
Cowgirl
Truth is addiction takes its toll on people and their personalities.
When people have been addicted for years, instead of dealing with emotions in a mature manner drugs were used to numb feelings so one couldn't feel. So although we have aged, we still have the emotional maturity of where we left of when we began the addiction. This is why we need support and tools to help us. We need to learn to deal with life on life's terms. During the addiction process we were careless, irresponsible, islolated, paranoid, selfish, out of control, unable to feel and on and on. So say somebody in there 20's used for 20 years and they are now 40. During that time the emotional growth was stunted. People did not deal with the normal mature process.. what happens is thet person still has the emotional maturity of a 20 year old. I think this explains some of the highschool, immature, drama behavior that is often spoken about on this site. But we learn and grow once we are in recovery and things change.
lovebird
When people have been addicted for years, instead of dealing with emotions in a mature manner drugs were used to numb feelings so one couldn't feel. So although we have aged, we still have the emotional maturity of where we left of when we began the addiction. This is why we need support and tools to help us. We need to learn to deal with life on life's terms. During the addiction process we were careless, irresponsible, islolated, paranoid, selfish, out of control, unable to feel and on and on. So say somebody in there 20's used for 20 years and they are now 40. During that time the emotional growth was stunted. People did not deal with the normal mature process.. what happens is thet person still has the emotional maturity of a 20 year old. I think this explains some of the highschool, immature, drama behavior that is often spoken about on this site. But we learn and grow once we are in recovery and things change.
lovebird
Tracey
Good to see you here and i enjoy reading your post. i agree with you on alot lately.I see alot of bashing and name calling and so.Like for instance why did the mod's close the post :Newbies say hello and help?And not close the post from marie to jean?it maybe or going to get closed but,why has it run so long with this nonsence going on? dont know why the mod's feel its a post to help us here,I dont know.I think the mod's have a hard job and try to do thier best but,lately i see post that starts off all wrong and it will run for pages long.then to see the post on recovery be locked it just dont make no sence.I see alot of people here take sides
where they shouldnt i try to stay out of post like these.I have been in a few i have posted one time in the few i have....About everyone attacking
where it wasnt about them.We are human beings here trying to stay clean or some in early stage of getting clean.If they had as many respones as the threads that had no meaning to recovery .it would be a better place here by now and all the druma would of have died... .i know some here are not what they say and Cg,said when she reply on one she cant help for most are not clean.Shes right anyone can say thier clean we dont know and anyone can pretend to be something thier not.I know many come here with good intenions to get help and stay clean.Everyone came here for a reason and we are all diff. So,i thought anyways.........some will agree for the fame .I dont want to become famous here.i just want to stay clean,learn all i can about recovery........I have alot of proof that some are a fake but,im not going to go thier.But,to see them in the middle of the druma .or telling others how to keep clean .....I want to say more but im not so i will close.hope to talk with you later,,,,crystal
Good to see you here and i enjoy reading your post. i agree with you on alot lately.I see alot of bashing and name calling and so.Like for instance why did the mod's close the post :Newbies say hello and help?And not close the post from marie to jean?it maybe or going to get closed but,why has it run so long with this nonsence going on? dont know why the mod's feel its a post to help us here,I dont know.I think the mod's have a hard job and try to do thier best but,lately i see post that starts off all wrong and it will run for pages long.then to see the post on recovery be locked it just dont make no sence.I see alot of people here take sides
where they shouldnt i try to stay out of post like these.I have been in a few i have posted one time in the few i have....About everyone attacking
where it wasnt about them.We are human beings here trying to stay clean or some in early stage of getting clean.If they had as many respones as the threads that had no meaning to recovery .it would be a better place here by now and all the druma would of have died... .i know some here are not what they say and Cg,said when she reply on one she cant help for most are not clean.Shes right anyone can say thier clean we dont know and anyone can pretend to be something thier not.I know many come here with good intenions to get help and stay clean.Everyone came here for a reason and we are all diff. So,i thought anyways.........some will agree for the fame .I dont want to become famous here.i just want to stay clean,learn all i can about recovery........I have alot of proof that some are a fake but,im not going to go thier.But,to see them in the middle of the druma .or telling others how to keep clean .....I want to say more but im not so i will close.hope to talk with you later,,,,crystal
Same board, different people. Thats all.
Regards,
Tom
Regards,
Tom
Crystal,
How are you today? Good I hope. I enjoyed talking to you the other night too and I'm happy to get to know you.
I noticed that in several different posts you keep talking about Marie's thread and it seems to upset you. Its obvious that you support a member of this board that is mentioned in that thread so I just thought that maybe you could start a thread of your own in support of her. Sometimes we only see one side of a person. Perhaps you could tell us what you like about her and the good things you know of her. This would help the board to understand her too. I don't care who the person is, I think everyone has good qualities. I'm glad that she has a friend like you.
Sincerely,
Sharon
How are you today? Good I hope. I enjoyed talking to you the other night too and I'm happy to get to know you.
I noticed that in several different posts you keep talking about Marie's thread and it seems to upset you. Its obvious that you support a member of this board that is mentioned in that thread so I just thought that maybe you could start a thread of your own in support of her. Sometimes we only see one side of a person. Perhaps you could tell us what you like about her and the good things you know of her. This would help the board to understand her too. I don't care who the person is, I think everyone has good qualities. I'm glad that she has a friend like you.
Sincerely,
Sharon
Sharon ,,
hello,Yeah i have wrote on serval post about marie and the post to jean.Im not friends with jean or Cowgirl .i wrote what i wrote b/c of the kinds of things being said to Jean an attack.i understand jean and Cw haveing thier promblems and many many steped in to CG's defence.So why is it that i cant say it was wrong for so many to jump in...To make jokes on jean ,say they dont understand a word she says and if they did they didnt belive what she said anyways.I know many dont like for people to take up for her.But,shraon if it was you or any other i would have done it also.Rather i knew who you or not without me knowing who are you are and anyother for that matter.like ive said i know what went of with jean and Cw ON the board.If im wrong for specking up and saying it was wrong ........Then,why wasnt it wrong for the other that got involied in it as well and no one said anything to them about how they were acting.Take care,,,crystal
hello,Yeah i have wrote on serval post about marie and the post to jean.Im not friends with jean or Cowgirl .i wrote what i wrote b/c of the kinds of things being said to Jean an attack.i understand jean and Cw haveing thier promblems and many many steped in to CG's defence.So why is it that i cant say it was wrong for so many to jump in...To make jokes on jean ,say they dont understand a word she says and if they did they didnt belive what she said anyways.I know many dont like for people to take up for her.But,shraon if it was you or any other i would have done it also.Rather i knew who you or not without me knowing who are you are and anyother for that matter.like ive said i know what went of with jean and Cw ON the board.If im wrong for specking up and saying it was wrong ........Then,why wasnt it wrong for the other that got involied in it as well and no one said anything to them about how they were acting.Take care,,,crystal
Crystal,
That was not the point I was trying to make with my post to you. There is nothing wrong with you supporting anyone on here. Believe it or not, I don't like kicking someone when they are down either. That's why I said in one of my post's, to just let what happened die. In case you have not noticed, I have not said another ill word against the person you keep referring to. I noticed that you just recently joined so maybe you don't know the whole history of what went on between CG and her. I've been here awhile, and even I don't know the entire story and I don't want to. If you keep bringing the subject up though, things will never get better, it will just keep the fire burning. As far as this board is concerned, we have no control over the posts that get deleted. That is entirely up to the moderators discretion. They have certain rules that they follow and I'm not privy to those rules, and I don't envy them for what they have to do to keep this board focused on recovery and maintain the peace here.
The only thing that I suggested you do, since you seem to know her is to make a support post to her. This will give her encouragement and let her know that she is loved and has friends.
Sharon
That was not the point I was trying to make with my post to you. There is nothing wrong with you supporting anyone on here. Believe it or not, I don't like kicking someone when they are down either. That's why I said in one of my post's, to just let what happened die. In case you have not noticed, I have not said another ill word against the person you keep referring to. I noticed that you just recently joined so maybe you don't know the whole history of what went on between CG and her. I've been here awhile, and even I don't know the entire story and I don't want to. If you keep bringing the subject up though, things will never get better, it will just keep the fire burning. As far as this board is concerned, we have no control over the posts that get deleted. That is entirely up to the moderators discretion. They have certain rules that they follow and I'm not privy to those rules, and I don't envy them for what they have to do to keep this board focused on recovery and maintain the peace here.
The only thing that I suggested you do, since you seem to know her is to make a support post to her. This will give her encouragement and let her know that she is loved and has friends.
Sharon
Crystal...I don't like my name to keep popping up in this subject. So I respectfully ask you to just let it go and leave my name and me out of it. I didn't ask for this mess and took a break from the board hoping it would die down, so please, just stop.
The longer you talk about it, the longer everyone will keep thinking about it.
Nobody really cares anymore and it has nothing to do with recovery. We've all said our piece, defended our postitions and now it's time to put it to bed.
Talk about your own recovery, that's a good place to start.
Cowgirl
The longer you talk about it, the longer everyone will keep thinking about it.
Nobody really cares anymore and it has nothing to do with recovery. We've all said our piece, defended our postitions and now it's time to put it to bed.
Talk about your own recovery, that's a good place to start.
Cowgirl
YEAH ,CG
im doing just great!!iI have already started with myself awhile back and still stuggle daily .But,i promise you this im a better person then i once was while useing.you put all the druma out for all to see made jean out to be
the devil herself... Poping in a message that have no meaning to your recovery as well.I see your groups and what they do.You gave it a break for how long?Im not trying to start problems here.I see that you have been involied in this and is the main reason for alot of this mess.I just took it to heart when i seen you have alot of double teaming going on here .Well, i couldnt call it double teaming lol. half the board.For you to say start with self.Hun,i have made major changes already...When was this let go?I cant see where it ended ....How about yourself lisa ?Have you started with yourself? havent seen many positive post you have been active in lately.I said Jean and CG both names not blameing all on you.Ive beed reading and i dont know Jean ,i know since she been on your sh** list she has had alot of people knocking her down.When you should of handle this yourself.if i was to get into it with other members it wouldnt of went as far as this has.I have to say im sorry and sorry that you dont understand.What if you were the one reading and seen alot of others attacking this one person.it wasnt
about them nor myself.I just want to speak my mind and i know other have seen this as well.I was saying and will say again.i know what went on the board with you and jean.I dont know what was said personal to sharon......So,thats why i address the part i know about .....You dont need friend to defend you through all your battles here.You can handle it right?Then when you came and posted
many said i should come read the suport i have at the board.What you wrote was you cant help many that are not truthful /You dont know who is clean and who isnt ethier do i .So, lets not asume that many are not clean.Give them that hard advice you always have .maybe they will listen .......i know you are well thought of here but,if you had any feeling at all you would of have asked them to
stay out of it you could handle it.
There was alot of things that got out of hand on that post.How do you know this woman isnt really trying ?Most asumed it b/c of you.i have read many of her post and i dont see any out of line here.Only defending herself .....I want go any futher with this .I got in to defend jean hell no one else would.When many may be scared that they will be on your list next......Im sure you will take wrong and get the gang up ....I can handle it though........take care,crystal
im doing just great!!iI have already started with myself awhile back and still stuggle daily .But,i promise you this im a better person then i once was while useing.you put all the druma out for all to see made jean out to be
the devil herself... Poping in a message that have no meaning to your recovery as well.I see your groups and what they do.You gave it a break for how long?Im not trying to start problems here.I see that you have been involied in this and is the main reason for alot of this mess.I just took it to heart when i seen you have alot of double teaming going on here .Well, i couldnt call it double teaming lol. half the board.For you to say start with self.Hun,i have made major changes already...When was this let go?I cant see where it ended ....How about yourself lisa ?Have you started with yourself? havent seen many positive post you have been active in lately.I said Jean and CG both names not blameing all on you.Ive beed reading and i dont know Jean ,i know since she been on your sh** list she has had alot of people knocking her down.When you should of handle this yourself.if i was to get into it with other members it wouldnt of went as far as this has.I have to say im sorry and sorry that you dont understand.What if you were the one reading and seen alot of others attacking this one person.it wasnt
about them nor myself.I just want to speak my mind and i know other have seen this as well.I was saying and will say again.i know what went on the board with you and jean.I dont know what was said personal to sharon......So,thats why i address the part i know about .....You dont need friend to defend you through all your battles here.You can handle it right?Then when you came and posted
many said i should come read the suport i have at the board.What you wrote was you cant help many that are not truthful /You dont know who is clean and who isnt ethier do i .So, lets not asume that many are not clean.Give them that hard advice you always have .maybe they will listen .......i know you are well thought of here but,if you had any feeling at all you would of have asked them to
stay out of it you could handle it.
There was alot of things that got out of hand on that post.How do you know this woman isnt really trying ?Most asumed it b/c of you.i have read many of her post and i dont see any out of line here.Only defending herself .....I want go any futher with this .I got in to defend jean hell no one else would.When many may be scared that they will be on your list next......Im sure you will take wrong and get the gang up ....I can handle it though........take care,crystal
