What Was The Turn Around Point For You?????

Pain Pills
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Just wondered if everyone could share what it was that suddenly went through your head that caused you to seek treatment/stop using your DOC.

Saw a thread like this on another site and it was very inspiring to read, especially now on Thanksgiving. Anyone like to share their turning point??

Hugs,
Ali

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i would. I just realized that i was in a hole. A big hole. I had to get a game plan to dig out. I had to plan time off of work, I had to see 3 drs until I found the ne for me. Then I had to wd. It sucked, but.... there is no other way to do it. The body must rebalance itself

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For me, I was so sick of looking at the time for my next dose. I was sick of being in a fog all the time and being lethargic. I had lost my love for music and moving my body the way I used to. I was just sick and tired of taking so many pills to combat pain and still feeling like $#it. I was terrified of what stopping meant but kept seeing hope on the other side by reading another website where people were posting. (for some reason, God?, I couldn't register and a member led me here).
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ali,

for me, i was taking so much crap and it wasnt making me feel good anymore, i was just taking it to barely get through my day, i wanted to literally die, i by rights should have been dead, but i kept waking up everyday and getting really pissed. so finally i said ok god you win!! i couldnt take enough to kill me so my only other option was to get clean. i hated my life miserably and everyday still woke up. so finally it clicked in i must be here for a reason (my kids duh) so i made the choice to get clean gave my life up to god changed myself and my life to my likings and the rest is history.

terrianne
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Gosh...these are great...thanks all for sharing that "moment of having enough"

I so appreciate you taking the time to share your moment.

Hugs,
Ali
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Dear Achy joints
I started a thread I think yesterday asking you this and maybe you havent seen it...would you please tell me what you do for pain now???

Hugs,
Ali
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My moment came when I stood in a homeless shelter. My prize possesions were two empty syringes and a dirty spoon. I had a choice to run with a gang or get help. Thanks be to God I chose the latter.
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The turning point for me was when I couldn't walk, talk or breathe without being loaded. And being loaded meant so many pills that I couldn't make them last more than a day or two. It also meant that I couldn't get them from legit sources anymore and I crossed that line and bought them off the street from a dealer.

What's your turning point, Ali?
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My "moment" came when I woke one morning and went into a bathroom alone looking into a mirror and that moment in every addicts life came down on me. Every bit of the pain of addiction and the state my life was in caused me to FINALLY face my own reality. I saw only 2 ways out and as pained up as I was, I wanted my life back. Feb/06 I will have 6yrs clean. Happy Thanksgiving to all!
Darin
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My turning point came when I couldn't give a rat's a** if I lived or died. I did not think I could get off pills because all of the times I had quit before, I always got loaded, one more time. I got down and my knees and prayed for God's help, something I never did using. Slowly, I was led back to AA meetings where I let go absolutely. Not kind of. Absolutely.

Rachel
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Mine was when the producer of "night of the living dead" called me for a part.

I felt and looked just like they did. (not knowing how they felt), didn't look like they felt all that great.

I got to the point I was sick of being sick all for the prevention of migraine pain. It is a trade off, Walking Dead, or Pain. I had just had enough; I wasn't living, Doctor had me on Percs and a lollipop looking thing. Plus all these preventatives. I did it for me.

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My turning point came when i was sick of wondering who the hell i was and what my purpose was, i like many others have spent most of our lives being high low high low. jaxxxxxxxxxxx
By the way exellent thread it sure makes one think.
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DearCowgirl and All

Cowgirl, you asked me mine,,here it is

My moment came through loud and clear at a point i should have been happy. i had a good ten days with no bone pain and realized i just couldn't function without them...I had of couse known and agonized with shame dread and guilt within the last year EVER time i took them for things like energy stress, frustration, depression you name it.But id think..I'll worry about that later (yeah right)

But to suddenly not have pain, this should have been a time for celebration and instead all i could think of was....ive abused these drugs so much..i was having my first withdrawals and terrified and I CAN NOT FUNCTION WITHOUT THEM..

It dawned on me that I was being not only untrue and unfair to myself but my wonderful husband. he had just had a health scare recently and I thought how awful would that be if he had to go in to the hospital and I wasnt able to COPE all because of my own selfishness and immaturity in taking these narcotics.

What kind of a wife would I be able to be for him if i was on narcotics or worrying about getting the narcotics, seeing the dr, getting the RX., having withdrawl from narcotics...i just realized i would never forgive myself if i wasnt able to be there for him 100% in mind body and soul. He deserved that much.

I knew that was it...no more excuses, I have to do whatever i have to do to get this monkey off my back for good.once and for all

Thanks for sharing and letting me share my story.
Hugs to all
Ali
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Hi all,
My turning point came when i realized that all i thought about were getting pills. I had to go to the dr which was expensive as well as time consuming. I knew i couldn't function without them. I was sick of being in a fog and waiting for my dealer to come through. I realized what i was doing to my son and my family and friends. I was constantly in withdrawels and it sucked. My productivity depended on them. I was so sick of counting out pills and trading them with other people. I just wanted to be normal again. I couldn't think my way out of a paper bag. So a switch just went off in me and the sincere desire to get clean came to me. I am so thankful.
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just wanted to thank everyone for their "light bulb" moments what a great time ( Thanksgiving) to share and read them.

Just wanted to wish everyone a wonderful Thanksgiving, and to those of you who have this thing licked, thankyou for coming here and being examples to those of us still in the struggle..
Hugs,
Ali
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ali,

thank you for the thought provoking thread, it is refreshing around here as opposed to some others as i am sure you are well aware of by now : ) happy thanksgiving to you as well. (even though you are in canada, i am a neighbor near detroit : )

your friend in recovery

terrianne
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Hey Terraine,

I LOVED Detroit..people were so friendly to us as tourists..
Thankyou for your post as well...hope you have a GREAT thanksgiving and are amongst those you love.

Hugs,
Ali
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so sorry for typo...terianne....
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Fathers Day,,,,,I was opening up my gifts and looking at my kids faces and realized that my kids deserved better. I haven't used since then and I hold on to that feeling every minute I get the urge to use.


Frank
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My turning point was when I started having dreams/nightmares about pills. Not only were they directing my life during the day, but at night as well. I was non-functional without them. And I realized that the money I was spending was equivilent to a designer handbag per week. One day when I was sick, I was meeting a friend at Starbucks to give me a few to try to taper with. I saw a mom with 3 or 4 kids walking down the street. They looked like they didn't have very much money, but she had a glow on her face. She seemed energetic and happy. I thought, this lady has all of these children to raise, not much money to do it, and SHE doesn't need oxycotin just to function, AND she is HAPPY. And here I am with no major responsibilities other than a job, enough money to have everything I need and I'm the misersble one. That lady probably works 10x's harder than me, but I'm the one who just can't cope with day to day life without pills. Then I thought how my money that I was spending on pills per week was probably more than her paycheck. Then it hit me how f***ed up that is. It was very soon after these events that I made the decision to end the madness. Excellent Thanksgiving thread. Take care everyone, Atlas