When am i an a adult?
When i see myself in a mirror and think F#ck whats dad doing there!!!
When i go to the doctor cause i have herniaed thinking i am still as strong as a 21 year old (the age i feel looking out)
Everything else that i do in life i see as a child and how do i answer the posts hmmmmmm as an alky sharing my E.S.H...not always correctly but as good as i can at the time
When i am running along the beach chasing the kids, they think dads silly but dad thinks he is just another kid wwwwoooohoooo
When i am riding the four wheeler i am free and my smile is that of a child:)
When i am fearful my reactions are multiple,
As a dad i can be dominant
As a husband i can sulk or rant
As a person i am a child
That is why i choose to be sober today because it allows the inner me to mature and bloom and become the person i was meant to be...sober
light and love zac
Beautiful post. Today I spent the day with my sister and grandmother. At one point my sister said, "I am so glad you are sober again. Sober Lisa is the authentic Lisa". I was so grateful for this sentiment...amazing how much a person can change for the better in just 39 days sober. Can't wait to see what the future holds.
Love your posts Zac (and especially this one).
Zipper, congratulations on 39 days of sobriety, that is fantastic and isn't it amazing that "we clean up so well" after we put down the drink. Let me know if you need to chat.
Geri aka VWGirl
Zipper, congratulations on 39 days of sobriety, that is fantastic and isn't it amazing that "we clean up so well" after we put down the drink. Let me know if you need to chat.
Geri aka VWGirl
VW...I really respect and admire all your posts. I'd be honored to chat with you. If you want, my email address is: lisan1373@yahoo.com. Thank you for reaching out your hand. I have a hard time asking for help. ;)
Congradulations zipper on 39 days and one day at a time the future holds happiness and sobriety
light and love Zac
light and love Zac
congrats Zipper on one day at a time. You are doing great you really are. xxxxooo
Another great post from the Zak man! You know Zak If it wasn't for you and one other person on this board I may have never returned to this board late last fall. I had remembered you always telling us to be grateful and to store up some of it. I have talked about you and how you taught this to me, now passing it on to my family.
Just think I'm 115 days sober today! WOO HOO YEE HA I'M FEELING GOOD!!!
So the buck didn't stop here so to speak. Thank You for teaching me what to do when the ping pong balls start rolling around hitting each other with negativity in my head. I have a deep respect for you and your words have a profoundness that not only changes my thinking but deeply has touched my spirit over the course of several months.
Not all my days are woo hoo days. But I'm now committed to my sobriety no matter what. I'm never going to completely grow up. For x-mas my Mom gave me a giant bottle of bubbles, my request. I love them. I hinted for my b-day in July to my oldest kid that I want one of those giant wands. I'm going to head over to my youngest ones apt. her and her roomy live on the third floor. I can't wait to see them sailing.
Of course they overlook the pool so we might make somebody unhappy. Well then I'm going to climb on the roof of my house. I'll make sure hubby's home. I don't mind climbing up on high things. I get a little fearful coming down. Crap that sounded like the old drinking days. Well you know how this alkie head thinks sometimes.
We just started day light savings here so more sunlight. I feel like playing. I feel like being a kid today.
Just think I'm 115 days sober today! WOO HOO YEE HA I'M FEELING GOOD!!!
So the buck didn't stop here so to speak. Thank You for teaching me what to do when the ping pong balls start rolling around hitting each other with negativity in my head. I have a deep respect for you and your words have a profoundness that not only changes my thinking but deeply has touched my spirit over the course of several months.
Not all my days are woo hoo days. But I'm now committed to my sobriety no matter what. I'm never going to completely grow up. For x-mas my Mom gave me a giant bottle of bubbles, my request. I love them. I hinted for my b-day in July to my oldest kid that I want one of those giant wands. I'm going to head over to my youngest ones apt. her and her roomy live on the third floor. I can't wait to see them sailing.
Of course they overlook the pool so we might make somebody unhappy. Well then I'm going to climb on the roof of my house. I'll make sure hubby's home. I don't mind climbing up on high things. I get a little fearful coming down. Crap that sounded like the old drinking days. Well you know how this alkie head thinks sometimes.
We just started day light savings here so more sunlight. I feel like playing. I feel like being a kid today.
Zak, from the first I felt you have something special. I'm flailing around like a fool right now trying to make sense of stuff that I feel is hitting me from every angle, and your posts are like messages from the Eye of the storm....always calm, considered, kind and serene. I want what you've got.
And congratulations zipper and chris!
And congratulations zipper and chris!
Congradulations and yyyyeeeeehhhaa Lookinup for 115 days
Gidday Martin
It is easy to get what i have got, stay sober, go to meetings and give yourself a chance at life and that is all i have done also i havent got it all sorted and im not always right but i am gratefull to be sober and i have the willingness to learn and more and more the courage to change, one day at a time
An old timer once said if you walk into the wilderness for 6 hours it still takes 6 hours to walk back...dont expect it all at once, it will come as long as you have trust and work at it:)
light and love Zac
Gidday Martin
It is easy to get what i have got, stay sober, go to meetings and give yourself a chance at life and that is all i have done also i havent got it all sorted and im not always right but i am gratefull to be sober and i have the willingness to learn and more and more the courage to change, one day at a time
An old timer once said if you walk into the wilderness for 6 hours it still takes 6 hours to walk back...dont expect it all at once, it will come as long as you have trust and work at it:)
light and love Zac
When I am an adult perhaps I will be able face a classroom full of misbehaving students and chew them out with out bursting out laughing at their antics in the middle of my tirade.... I started off quite well, but when you start laughing it spoils the whole effect.....oh well.... Maybee I'll grow up someday.... they behaved better today...
one day at a time Cookster
one day at a time Cookster
