I'm guessing hardcharger might be in Canada, hence the flurries. :-)
Too tired to talk. C ya tomorrow.
but do they have swampboxes in canada?
notice i am obsessed with swamboxes? i suppose something to do with being a city chick:) jo
up late working......
notice i am obsessed with swamboxes? i suppose something to do with being a city chick:) jo
up late working......
being a city chick, you would like to come to my swampbox. but don't be obsessed, it is just a hiding place. that is not what we should be thinking about in sobriety, it is those secret little places that are the trouble.
Like when I was at my meeting on Tuesday night, I told my story. And afterwards two guys are talking to me. Both are sober I think > 1yr. One guy starts bragging about all his pot exploits, selling, growing, then talks about how great the stuff smells, blah blah blah. What the HELL kind of sobriety is that. The other guy gets this big grin while he's telling me how he can't go to beach anymore because how he like to smoke. Then all about how nice it is no a nice drive. I know I am at the point, at least right now, where I don't to "glamorize" my pot habit. I don't think we shold glamorize this swampbox. So two weeks ago, I put my pot away, about 3/4 oz. When I'm ready, I'll get rid of it somehow. Yes I live in the country, and I've had a zillion woods walks smoking. but i want to forget about that life. really. I know pot was dragging me down. It is illegal and I don't want to get in trouble with the law. But, that is a small part of it. I want my brain to start thinking like it used to think when I was totally sober for 10 years. Pot is wrong, for me, it is absolutely not the worst thing in the world. that's the trouble. it is seductive, it pulled me back, knowing a few smokes won't affect my life very much, but before I know it, like immediately, I am back on smoking all the time to get good feelings. I think I have to get my good feelings somehow else.
So let's not glamorize a pot hiding place.
Like when I was at my meeting on Tuesday night, I told my story. And afterwards two guys are talking to me. Both are sober I think > 1yr. One guy starts bragging about all his pot exploits, selling, growing, then talks about how great the stuff smells, blah blah blah. What the HELL kind of sobriety is that. The other guy gets this big grin while he's telling me how he can't go to beach anymore because how he like to smoke. Then all about how nice it is no a nice drive. I know I am at the point, at least right now, where I don't to "glamorize" my pot habit. I don't think we shold glamorize this swampbox. So two weeks ago, I put my pot away, about 3/4 oz. When I'm ready, I'll get rid of it somehow. Yes I live in the country, and I've had a zillion woods walks smoking. but i want to forget about that life. really. I know pot was dragging me down. It is illegal and I don't want to get in trouble with the law. But, that is a small part of it. I want my brain to start thinking like it used to think when I was totally sober for 10 years. Pot is wrong, for me, it is absolutely not the worst thing in the world. that's the trouble. it is seductive, it pulled me back, knowing a few smokes won't affect my life very much, but before I know it, like immediately, I am back on smoking all the time to get good feelings. I think I have to get my good feelings somehow else.
So let's not glamorize a pot hiding place.
hc- i'm sorry i was just being silly. (and also interested in what folks do in the country)..... no offence meant at all. i'm glad for your clean time. you are much more sensitive than you frist came off to be. truly i was just having fun with the concept. and not you okay?
have a good clean thanksgiving.
first time in a long time for me too!
-jo
have a good clean thanksgiving.
first time in a long time for me too!
-jo
what those guys are doing is called euphoric recall. they may be further along in recovery, but it is dangerous all the same.
jojo, those smells you smell in the street will eventuall smell repulsvie to you as well
jojo, those smells you smell in the street will eventuall smell repulsvie to you as well
i was guessing louisiana till he mentioned snow
