Just thought I would ask.
A guy I was living with broke my arm and the doc gave me vics. They made me sick but I liked the buzz. Although they were prescribed for pain I only took them for the buzz. The pain wasn't that bad that motrin couldn't have fixed it.
DEPRESSION/ABUSE/ANGER
Both.
I was perscribed oxys for herniated discs at L-3. L-4. L-5 and S-1 resulting from a car accident. If I would of only knew then what I know now I would have done things different. Shantel
Hi,
I was already an alcoholic and drug addict when I started taking pills. I was on my way to work one day in 1995 and a guy I picked up on the way took a few pills. I asked what they were he said percocet. He handed me 3. I took all 3 and by break time I was itching and sweating like crazy! I wanted to kick the sh-- outta him! I said WTF did you do to me? lmao he said thats normal it'll stop. Aside from the itching and sweating, I felt great. Then I spent the next several years trying to achieve that same high I got the first night. It never happened. With the amounts I took I should be dead. I took them first for no other reason than to get high. Then as time went on, I developed back problems and a chronic kidney stone problem. Between the doctors and buying them on the street I was never able to score enough to satisfy my addiction.
Those 3 pills I took that first night got me high all night, that never happened again and thank God I'm able to sit here now clean and sober, look back on it with somewhat amusment, shake my head and be grateful I made it out of the hell my addiction put me through.
Take care, God bless,
I hope you all have a safe, healthy, and happy Christmas and New Year.
Bob
I was already an alcoholic and drug addict when I started taking pills. I was on my way to work one day in 1995 and a guy I picked up on the way took a few pills. I asked what they were he said percocet. He handed me 3. I took all 3 and by break time I was itching and sweating like crazy! I wanted to kick the sh-- outta him! I said WTF did you do to me? lmao he said thats normal it'll stop. Aside from the itching and sweating, I felt great. Then I spent the next several years trying to achieve that same high I got the first night. It never happened. With the amounts I took I should be dead. I took them first for no other reason than to get high. Then as time went on, I developed back problems and a chronic kidney stone problem. Between the doctors and buying them on the street I was never able to score enough to satisfy my addiction.
Those 3 pills I took that first night got me high all night, that never happened again and thank God I'm able to sit here now clean and sober, look back on it with somewhat amusment, shake my head and be grateful I made it out of the hell my addiction put me through.
Take care, God bless,
I hope you all have a safe, healthy, and happy Christmas and New Year.
Bob
My very first script was for acute pain, but I abused that first bottle. I loved the feeling. Over 10 years, I would get the occassional script for various pain issues, I would always take more than I needed, but did not seek out more. Eventually, I took them with increasing frequency just to get high, until I was taking massive amounts, seeking them daily and they were controlling my life. After about 4 months of that, I sought help and quit.
I started in 2001 for a chronic tension headaches and severe muscle pain. I took for over two years then started slowly abusing until I was seeking pills from 6 different online pharmacies at once. Been on subs since 9/12/06.
Hope it's O.K. I post here. I'm from the heroin part of the site.
I had endometriosis. Four laparotomies, and countless laprascopies. They took my overy out as a teenager. I suffered for years with that endometriosis, and they gave me perc's, lortabs, darvocets, Vic's. I never misused them. Never took more than I should have. No abuse.
Many years later I became a heroin addict. That confused me. If I am an addict than why didn't is eat every pill they gave me? It wasn't until I realized the reason I used is when I got clean.
I had endometriosis. Four laparotomies, and countless laprascopies. They took my overy out as a teenager. I suffered for years with that endometriosis, and they gave me perc's, lortabs, darvocets, Vic's. I never misused them. Never took more than I should have. No abuse.
Many years later I became a heroin addict. That confused me. If I am an addict than why didn't is eat every pill they gave me? It wasn't until I realized the reason I used is when I got clean.
Interesting posts. Thanks all.
I took them for pain, and I took them to get high. For the last years of my addiction, I took them to feel good -- if I had legitmate pain, that was just a bonus b/c it meant a legitimate script.
The poll should probably have a third category for people who began using for pain, but ended up using for pleasure.
I think physical dependence and addiction are two different things, although i think some addicts aren't honest with themselves about what they have -- probably because of the judgment many people have about "addicts." Regardless, I think physical dependence to a drug is much easier to get over than the physical/mental disease of addiction. Both require an uncomfortable physical withdrawal, but only one requires a lifetime of vigilance and a willingness to challenge -- and then change -- one's way of living and thinking. jmo
The poll should probably have a third category for people who began using for pain, but ended up using for pleasure.
I think physical dependence and addiction are two different things, although i think some addicts aren't honest with themselves about what they have -- probably because of the judgment many people have about "addicts." Regardless, I think physical dependence to a drug is much easier to get over than the physical/mental disease of addiction. Both require an uncomfortable physical withdrawal, but only one requires a lifetime of vigilance and a willingness to challenge -- and then change -- one's way of living and thinking. jmo
i injuerd my back at work, and they gave them to in hosiptel, well that was 5yers ago, never stoped if only i new then what i no today, big mistake. karen
i want to say that i started pills for pain from surgery and became dependant on them, then i continued to take them for 5 yrs when i had no pain!
after surgery and i was released to home is were the trouble started. i would immediately go to my bedroom, get my cigarettes and pepsi, call all the animals in and start the big high! all the attention and meals brought to me was fun, then i could escape reality and check out of life for a while.a week later i would call in for a refill and that gave me another week in the bedroom, did it again for 6 weeks i stayed in my room, watched tv, loved on my animals. that warm fuzzy secure safe feeling!!!! then when it was time to go back to work, i became so depressed to leave my room, 3 more surgeries followed and it was the same scenario each time. after the surgeries were over then i realized it was fun to have this super mom energy, i did not know i was addicted then. i knew i was in trouble when i couldnt live my life without them, each time i said i was gonna quit i couldnt and played my doctor for years, then i played another doctor my gp, and whn he started to say no, i would go the urgent care and lie and said i had a toothache or head ache to get more pills, never had to pay one penny for them, my insurance paid for the generic version of them, never had to talk to a doctor for a refill, just called the automated system for the pharmacy. finally went to rehab, that didnt work i relapsedl used for one more year, went back into rehab and started sub and its worked for 6 mos now! jewels.
after surgery and i was released to home is were the trouble started. i would immediately go to my bedroom, get my cigarettes and pepsi, call all the animals in and start the big high! all the attention and meals brought to me was fun, then i could escape reality and check out of life for a while.a week later i would call in for a refill and that gave me another week in the bedroom, did it again for 6 weeks i stayed in my room, watched tv, loved on my animals. that warm fuzzy secure safe feeling!!!! then when it was time to go back to work, i became so depressed to leave my room, 3 more surgeries followed and it was the same scenario each time. after the surgeries were over then i realized it was fun to have this super mom energy, i did not know i was addicted then. i knew i was in trouble when i couldnt live my life without them, each time i said i was gonna quit i couldnt and played my doctor for years, then i played another doctor my gp, and whn he started to say no, i would go the urgent care and lie and said i had a toothache or head ache to get more pills, never had to pay one penny for them, my insurance paid for the generic version of them, never had to talk to a doctor for a refill, just called the automated system for the pharmacy. finally went to rehab, that didnt work i relapsedl used for one more year, went back into rehab and started sub and its worked for 6 mos now! jewels.
Kinda both but more because of the high. I was prescribed percodan for migraines when I was 17. I then used non-existant headaches as an excuse to get pills. Still had headaches but they weren't as often or intense as I made them out to be. Didn't take long for me to figure out which pills got me high and which ones were a waste of time.
If we're going far back, my first pill buzz was when I was16. It was my cousin's diet pills and I loved the way they made me feel. I overdosed and wound up in a dept. store ladies room paranoid and having audio hallucinations. I spent the night running thru alleys hearing my parents chasing me but no one was there. But, no, I didn't take that as a sign to quit, just a sign to take less. It's funny because I was terrified of smoking pot back then but thought nothing of prescription drugs. Even if they weren't mine.
Mine also started for pain but ended ONLY for the high.
I can remember having my wisdom teeth removed several years ago, and I had a bottle of 20 vics or so with a refill............I took them the first day or so for the pain I was in, but after that when the pain subsided I continued. I was so clueless I didnt even realize back then that I had a refill on it until a couple months later, I can remember the excitement even back then of getting a fresh new bottle.
It all happened so slowly I cant even put my finger on when I actually became addicted. I would go for weeks without them or even months before, and then my sister would bring over 10 percocet's or so and we would have a party for a couple of days then it would be all over, and I was okay with that, no withdrawals nothing.
I found someone close to me that would give them to me, and I began having them on a regular basis, used them for the energy to clean the house, etc.......
I had a car accident in 2004, where I ended up with pins in my right hand, While the pain from that lasted a while, It did END, but I used it forever, as my excuse to be handed pills. I had 3 dr.'s writing scripts at the same time, plus getting them off the streets ..........
Sorry for the rambling, Long story short I went to rehab, relapsed and I am now on Suboxone and it has made all the difference........
Great Poll
I can remember having my wisdom teeth removed several years ago, and I had a bottle of 20 vics or so with a refill............I took them the first day or so for the pain I was in, but after that when the pain subsided I continued. I was so clueless I didnt even realize back then that I had a refill on it until a couple months later, I can remember the excitement even back then of getting a fresh new bottle.
It all happened so slowly I cant even put my finger on when I actually became addicted. I would go for weeks without them or even months before, and then my sister would bring over 10 percocet's or so and we would have a party for a couple of days then it would be all over, and I was okay with that, no withdrawals nothing.
I found someone close to me that would give them to me, and I began having them on a regular basis, used them for the energy to clean the house, etc.......
I had a car accident in 2004, where I ended up with pins in my right hand, While the pain from that lasted a while, It did END, but I used it forever, as my excuse to be handed pills. I had 3 dr.'s writing scripts at the same time, plus getting them off the streets ..........
Sorry for the rambling, Long story short I went to rehab, relapsed and I am now on Suboxone and it has made all the difference........
Great Poll
