Anyone care to share?
Why is Recovery Important to me.
Recovery gave me another chance at a decent life. It opened my eyes to the hurt that I not only inflicted on myself, but on my family too. I have more joy in the little things, flowers blooming, my grandbaby smiling, my youngest son coming home with a good report card, my oldest (at home) playing his drums with his band. It's like I'd been living my life looking through cellophane, things were distorted and unclear. I enjoy meeting other people who are in recovery at meetings, I got to lead a meeting Saturday. I am planning on going to an NA workshop in Shreveport on the 18th, starts at 9, 2 workshops, lunch, 2 more workshops, supper, speaker and then a dance. I am looking forward to a whole day focused on recovery. Last year I was struggling to get clean, to stop the insanity of searching for veins that had been so abused they were hard to find.
I see how the cocaine has wounded my brain, I get tongue tied, which is a bit embarrassing, I think slower and lost my witty sense of humor. I'm so happy to be clean, so fortunate that I'm not robbing my family to keep up my habit.
Recovery is important because I love myself more and I am better able to love others. Recovery is important because I have learned to be a Warrior and came out alive.
Recovery gave me another chance at a decent life. It opened my eyes to the hurt that I not only inflicted on myself, but on my family too. I have more joy in the little things, flowers blooming, my grandbaby smiling, my youngest son coming home with a good report card, my oldest (at home) playing his drums with his band. It's like I'd been living my life looking through cellophane, things were distorted and unclear. I enjoy meeting other people who are in recovery at meetings, I got to lead a meeting Saturday. I am planning on going to an NA workshop in Shreveport on the 18th, starts at 9, 2 workshops, lunch, 2 more workshops, supper, speaker and then a dance. I am looking forward to a whole day focused on recovery. Last year I was struggling to get clean, to stop the insanity of searching for veins that had been so abused they were hard to find.
I see how the cocaine has wounded my brain, I get tongue tied, which is a bit embarrassing, I think slower and lost my witty sense of humor. I'm so happy to be clean, so fortunate that I'm not robbing my family to keep up my habit.
Recovery is important because I love myself more and I am better able to love others. Recovery is important because I have learned to be a Warrior and came out alive.
Recovery is important to me because I know (from hard experience) The minute it stops being important to me I slip. I am finally starting to gain back all that I lost in my years of addiction. It is so easy to fall it just gets harder to get back up. I am also gaining respect for myself and the feelings that I have. It is true joy. I can honor my feelings good and bad and still live through it all. I remember when having a bad day ment that my life was in ruin. I could drudge that pain on and on in a justification of why I was getting high in the first place. It is important to me because I am finally important to myself. Ahhh!
That felt good to share and what an excellent topic. I sound a little me based in my response but by being good to myself now It ripples in its effect to my kids, family and friends.
jane
That felt good to share and what an excellent topic. I sound a little me based in my response but by being good to myself now It ripples in its effect to my kids, family and friends.
jane
Oh! and I love that it taught me choice. I make an honest decision everyday to not use. I love choice. I make better ones now too.
Recovery is so important to me as i love life and i dont just want to be another satistic on the od records at the local hospital. I dont want to be pushed into a coridor when i go to hospital just because i tell them i use heroin as they would rather give a bed to someone who is clean. I want my family to me proud of me i want to be able to put my kids at night and read them a story not just thinking go to sleep so i can have my hit and it is most important because i want to be me again fun loving, nice, energetic, and full of life this was a great post but you have to think as there are so many reasons that we all want to be clean we are not bad people well most of us are not we are just slaves to the drug which we chose to take and it is are choice but once it gets a grip its hard to let go but we will all be strong and get to the good places we long to be at some point in our life. sorry to go on just my way of letting it out you know what i mean be strong sue
Great post as usual . The number one thing that is important to me is that i am alive to be in recovery today . I had gotten to a point in my addiction that I had accepted the fact that I would be one of the ones that would have to die in order for someone else to recover but NOT TODAY!!!! I realised that I had a choice and could be one that could make it and with my faith in God and a beautiful family that i have been completely honest with and alot of them are also in recovery I have had the chance to be one of the lucky ones .
Staying sober for me is a daily decision, I have to get up in the a.m. and know before my feet hit the floor that before I am Cris I am an addict that is first and foremost , I ask God to direct my thoughts and actions to help me stay sober thru out the day and I do my very best to make good decisions and I try to make a meeting atleast everyday or every other day to talk to other addicts that understand what it is like to know that to use drugs for me is to die , no doubt about it , I knoew this w/ all my heart today and I just dont think that any other time I half a** tried to get sober I didnt believe I would die from this disease today I know this with all of my heart .
I cannot take all the credit here I have had wonderful oppurtunities that I give credit to my higher power for and I heal relationships w/ friends and family on a daily basis by doing the next right thing , not always the easiest thing to do but if i continue to work toward recovery I know I will be alright .
Well Arielle is home got to go... be back later ... well maybe we'll see but I love to respond to a great thread like this one THANKS !!!! Cris
Staying sober for me is a daily decision, I have to get up in the a.m. and know before my feet hit the floor that before I am Cris I am an addict that is first and foremost , I ask God to direct my thoughts and actions to help me stay sober thru out the day and I do my very best to make good decisions and I try to make a meeting atleast everyday or every other day to talk to other addicts that understand what it is like to know that to use drugs for me is to die , no doubt about it , I knoew this w/ all my heart today and I just dont think that any other time I half a** tried to get sober I didnt believe I would die from this disease today I know this with all of my heart .
I cannot take all the credit here I have had wonderful oppurtunities that I give credit to my higher power for and I heal relationships w/ friends and family on a daily basis by doing the next right thing , not always the easiest thing to do but if i continue to work toward recovery I know I will be alright .
Well Arielle is home got to go... be back later ... well maybe we'll see but I love to respond to a great thread like this one THANKS !!!! Cris
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Recovery is important to me
I've never known anything but Dope.I first got high when I was 12 years old.(smokeing weed),I shot my first bag when I was 16. Besides the people in my life that still care for & love me. I owed it to myself to start living life on lifes terms. Almost all of the last 30 some odd years have been a big scam. Doing what I needed to do, step on who ever I needed to step on,to get my bag of dope. Plus the fact that I was ON the fast track to either jail,instatutions, or the grave yard. Its a big step going after recovery when you know of no other way to live. Its scary, living life on lifes terms is not an easy thing to do. Thats why alot of us started using to begin with. I'm going to make it, cause I know theres got to be something better.I want to count for something.(stand for something or you fall for anything).
Recovery is important to me
I've never known anything but Dope.I first got high when I was 12 years old.(smokeing weed),I shot my first bag when I was 16. Besides the people in my life that still care for & love me. I owed it to myself to start living life on lifes terms. Almost all of the last 30 some odd years have been a big scam. Doing what I needed to do, step on who ever I needed to step on,to get my bag of dope. Plus the fact that I was ON the fast track to either jail,instatutions, or the grave yard. Its a big step going after recovery when you know of no other way to live. Its scary, living life on lifes terms is not an easy thing to do. Thats why alot of us started using to begin with. I'm going to make it, cause I know theres got to be something better.I want to count for something.(stand for something or you fall for anything).
Its not its just a way to make the s*** stop
I agree it means not a damn thing...nothing.....it means taking the only thing away from you that even matters.
We do it for other people......I'm sorry i did, and I wasted almost two years of my life without heroin......I probably would have been dead by now, and I'm MOFO sorry i ain't
We do it for other people......I'm sorry i did, and I wasted almost two years of my life without heroin......I probably would have been dead by now, and I'm MOFO sorry i ain't
Recovery to me means ........
That i have my life back
I am living a drug free life and i am loving it.
I got my children back because mentally i was not there.
I got my partner back, he has supported me through out my clean time.
I have met some really good people since i have been clean.
The only way for me is forward and that is what i aim for daily thank-god.
Emily
That i have my life back
I am living a drug free life and i am loving it.
I got my children back because mentally i was not there.
I got my partner back, he has supported me through out my clean time.
I have met some really good people since i have been clean.
The only way for me is forward and that is what i aim for daily thank-god.
Emily
As a drug addict you have two choices, death or recovery. Some of us are stong enough to go through a recovery others, sadly, are not.
I apologize to anyone who read my above statement....I'm Queen Baby...albeit clean Queen Baby.....it's extremely important.....I was having an awful, terrible, ugly, boo-hoo day....I am clean for a year and ten months....yesterday was probably the worst day I had in almost two years.....so I am sorry.
Kaylee.......knock it off.....I'll beat your butt.
Kaylee.......knock it off.....I'll beat your butt.
