Wow Im so confused. I enjoy smoking pot and I feel better emotionally than I have felt in years. But there are downfalls to this so it seems. My fiance and I both smoke daily and I know that it is kinda out of control. I try to cut back sometimes and I fail. I can see the addiction to it and thats not even the issue. I have struggled with addiction all my life and have been controlled by alot of different chemicals and substances and I think for me this is the less of all the evils.Its really because of the $ and also because I really dont want to end up with cancer or some lung problem. I stopped partying 2 years ago ~ (things were really bad) and continued smoking pot. at first we could only afford $5-$10 a day but now that we can afford more and I hate it we spend $800 a month at least and that makes me ill!! I dont know what to do? Will I be ok if i quit or will i breakdown emotionally with out my pot?? For once I am emotionally stable!!
Typically people who use drugs like you do are trying to deaden some sort of underlying pain. If you quit and do not address this pain chances are good that you will end up using again, or end up cronically depressed, or mearly socially stunted able only to deal with a small sub group of society.
The question you really need to address is "where is this pain I am trying to kill coming from?"
The question you really need to address is "where is this pain I am trying to kill coming from?"
One thing I think I can safely say. We all LOVE smoking pot. Its my favorite thing in the world, but I cant do it anymore.
I hate the pothead mr.b. I am so lazy and unmotivated. For me the final straw was posibly being kicked out of university this year for 2 semesters for failing 3/5 courses (first time i've ever failed a course in my life and I failed 60% of my courseload... I am in my 4'th year, hopefully they'll give me another chance).
Sure I've had wakeup calls in the past. And they did lead to me trying to quit or cut back, but eventually I fell back into the pattern. This is normal. I am almost a week off and feeling stronger then ever before this time.
Something will eventually happen that will make you really wonder if this is the lifestyle you want to live. Perhaps you'll go hungry for a week but still buy $200 worth of pot. Perhaps you'll lose a job. Perhaps you'll get a job (that pee tests) Perhaps you'll get arrested. Perhaps not. My point is, when your time to quit comes, you'll know it. You might not want to quit, and you might not be able to for a while. But you'll know what you have to do.
The fact that you found this website leads me to beleive that you might be to that point now. Don't rush it. Set a date, tell your friends/family, and stick to it. Make things easy on yourself, just tell yourself and others you only want to quit for 3 days (if your anything like me that ain't easy). By the time you hit 72 hours you might wanna see if you can make it to a week (or a month or a year or a decade).
You say you spend $800 a month? Well if you can go a month or so clean you can reward yourself by picking up a new toy with some of that cash you will save. Something fun that you've wanted for a while but just couldn't scrape the money togeither.
I hate the pothead mr.b. I am so lazy and unmotivated. For me the final straw was posibly being kicked out of university this year for 2 semesters for failing 3/5 courses (first time i've ever failed a course in my life and I failed 60% of my courseload... I am in my 4'th year, hopefully they'll give me another chance).
Sure I've had wakeup calls in the past. And they did lead to me trying to quit or cut back, but eventually I fell back into the pattern. This is normal. I am almost a week off and feeling stronger then ever before this time.
Something will eventually happen that will make you really wonder if this is the lifestyle you want to live. Perhaps you'll go hungry for a week but still buy $200 worth of pot. Perhaps you'll lose a job. Perhaps you'll get a job (that pee tests) Perhaps you'll get arrested. Perhaps not. My point is, when your time to quit comes, you'll know it. You might not want to quit, and you might not be able to for a while. But you'll know what you have to do.
The fact that you found this website leads me to beleive that you might be to that point now. Don't rush it. Set a date, tell your friends/family, and stick to it. Make things easy on yourself, just tell yourself and others you only want to quit for 3 days (if your anything like me that ain't easy). By the time you hit 72 hours you might wanna see if you can make it to a week (or a month or a year or a decade).
You say you spend $800 a month? Well if you can go a month or so clean you can reward yourself by picking up a new toy with some of that cash you will save. Something fun that you've wanted for a while but just couldn't scrape the money togeither.
