Will This Scar Every Other Relationship

Have any of you ever thought when you finally get the courage to get up and leave, will you be so paranoid from the one you just left, that you will ruin the new one. I actually wondered that to myself the other night. Has he completely ruined me now? Will I never be happy again? Will I never trust anyone again? Am I the only one that has these fears????
lost,
No, you are not the only one who has these fears. I feel like I am damaged goods. I have pushed all my friends and most of my family away for fear of being hurt. As far as a relationship goes at this point I don't ever see letting someone else in again. I don't know how to trust at all anymore. I'm always looking for lies and personal agendas in everyone I meet. Maybe as time goes by we will learn to trust and love again.
I AM SITTING HERE RIGHT NOW WITH THE SAME PROBLEM, I CANT GET THE COURAGE, THAT I CONTINUS TO WASTE MY LIFE AWAY, IM SO SCARED, I LOST EVERYTHING INSODE AND OUT, AND MY PARTNER, MY BEST FRIEND, THE ONLY PERSON I HAVE NOT PUSHED AWAY HAPPENS TO BE A N ADDICT WHO CONTINUES TO DEAL DRUGS, AND IT MAKES IT TEN TIMES HARDER FOR ME TO LEAVE MY COCAINE HABIT BECAUSE ITS FREE, AND ITS WHAT I THINK I NEED EVERYDAY TO GET UP AND GO, iN ORDER FOR ME TO HELP MYSELF, i HAVE TO GIVE UP THE ONLY TWO THINGS IN LIFE THAT I HAVE LEFT, I LOST EVERYTHING ELSE. i CAN'T FACE ANYONE ELSE BECAUSE IM EMBARASSED OF THE PERSON I BECAME.....WHAT TO DO.
Please...all of you even though I don't know you you must be strong for the love of yourselves. You have to seriously think about leaving this hell you are in. Trust me....I know how hard it must be...leaving the comfort zone you are in.....getting your devils fix for free. What's next though...think about it? Think about your future. 30...40....50....60....and still doing drugs. That's if you don't die before that. Your life....YOU are worth more than this. Talk to someone, your doctor, a sibling anyone. YOU ARE WORTH IT. GET YOURSELF SOME HELP. If you need someone to talk to, we are here.


Be strong
lost, you cannot think that way. nobody is perfect. erase damaged goods out of your head. life is a game and you have to take some chances. now you know what to look out for and what you dont want in a man. your fears are normal but dont let them consume you