Believe it or not....the saga is coming to an end. I am going to detox tomorrow morning....it was either that or a total breakdown. I was planning on sub but it looks as if Tony cannot go back to work so...instead of going in circles....needless to say I am scared.Scared of being sick, scared of being away fronm home...but honestly the depression has gotten so bad that I believe I am saving my own life.If I go on this way..I just don't know what might happen. I know it is just a start and I am ready to change whatever needs to be changed..however painful it may be. I just had a huge fight with my bf of the whys and hows of me getting caught back up and of course he went on the defense. I tried to explain triggers and all he heard was attack...I just cannot make him understand if he doesn't want to. The thought of purging myself of these pills is actually appealing...the feelings that surface will be the beginning of the hard work ahead of me. I really do appreciate all of the patience you have shown me...probably drove you crazy not being able to make a decision. Something snapped in me today..I may actually stay the 30 days...I need help...and I am ready to accept it. Please keep me in your prayers...I hope to come back a better and stronger person. Love, Sharonn
Sharon,
You are in my prayers tonight! I pray pray pray that this works for you honey! Let me share what I shared with my sales team today because I think it fits!
Life is too short to perfect your weaknesses,. What you focus on expands. If you focus on what didnt work and the rejection, it just spirals down your attitude and your energy. So focus on whats working, and put the rejection in perspective. Its just a part of life.
I am in awe of your strength and courage! You will get through this and the life you have been hoping for awaits you!
Big hugs...Kerri...XOXOXOXOOXXOXOXOXOXOXOX
You are in my prayers tonight! I pray pray pray that this works for you honey! Let me share what I shared with my sales team today because I think it fits!
Life is too short to perfect your weaknesses,. What you focus on expands. If you focus on what didnt work and the rejection, it just spirals down your attitude and your energy. So focus on whats working, and put the rejection in perspective. Its just a part of life.
I am in awe of your strength and courage! You will get through this and the life you have been hoping for awaits you!
Big hugs...Kerri...XOXOXOXOOXXOXOXOXOXOXOX
Sharonn,
Havent posted in a bit mainly because Ive taken a break from the internet overall. When I see some here who are so back and forth I wonder if I can offer any words of advice. Getting clean of pills is not easy but nothing worthwhile ever is. I wish I could shake some people here and say "enough" "get serious with getting clean already"....doesnt work that way though. Well, your thread has made me want to post again. I am SO GLAD you are going into detox. You have to get off your roller coaster. The pills have NOT been a friend to you. Just keep that in mind when it gets tough. Remember you are purging all the poisons from your body and that is the only way for you to start fresh. How long will you be there? I hope its long enough for you to gain strength and faith in yourself. Please believe me there is a better life without pills. Im in control of everything that happens to me - good and bad - and its an empowering feeling. Now is the time for Sharonn to stand up and be the one steering her life. To be in charge of her life - good and bad - you will love the new you when you are.Try to actually enjoy those first days of hell because those are the days that are going to get you to the other side. They dont last long - but they do purify you. This IS the right decision. Dont let anyone or anything stand in your way. And the longer you can stay, the better. Do this right. I am rooting for you all the way.
Havent posted in a bit mainly because Ive taken a break from the internet overall. When I see some here who are so back and forth I wonder if I can offer any words of advice. Getting clean of pills is not easy but nothing worthwhile ever is. I wish I could shake some people here and say "enough" "get serious with getting clean already"....doesnt work that way though. Well, your thread has made me want to post again. I am SO GLAD you are going into detox. You have to get off your roller coaster. The pills have NOT been a friend to you. Just keep that in mind when it gets tough. Remember you are purging all the poisons from your body and that is the only way for you to start fresh. How long will you be there? I hope its long enough for you to gain strength and faith in yourself. Please believe me there is a better life without pills. Im in control of everything that happens to me - good and bad - and its an empowering feeling. Now is the time for Sharonn to stand up and be the one steering her life. To be in charge of her life - good and bad - you will love the new you when you are.Try to actually enjoy those first days of hell because those are the days that are going to get you to the other side. They dont last long - but they do purify you. This IS the right decision. Dont let anyone or anything stand in your way. And the longer you can stay, the better. Do this right. I am rooting for you all the way.
Thank you....the days of hell will purify me...I like that. I will keep that thought in mind. Love, S
Each drop of sweat is one less toxin in your body - it really works that way. I hope they supply counseling as well. When I see some programs on rehabs it actually looks interesting to me. For anyone to be in an environment that helps us get to the root of all our feelings and discuss ways to improve on how we handle ourselves is invaluable. I almost wish I could check in just for a month of "me time" lol - I really mean that too.
good for you sharonn! just said a prayer for you! we will be looking forward to your return with the good news i know you will have to share with us! jewels
Sharon, actually somethings we do not have control over...that is addiction. Its not a choice it is a disease. But with that in mind you can heal from it just like any other. You don't have to control it...you just have to surrender completely and you only have to do it one day at time.
One day at a time...remember that. It was so important to me. Not ever taking a pill ever again can be a daunting thought. One day at a time! You are going to do just fine. You are armed with so much knowledge and that is power!
Rooting for you!
One day at a time...remember that. It was so important to me. Not ever taking a pill ever again can be a daunting thought. One day at a time! You are going to do just fine. You are armed with so much knowledge and that is power!
Rooting for you!
Good Luck Sharonn!
I think this will be the beginning of great changes for you! I will hold extra good thoughts for you in the coming days.
Your courage is very commendable.
God Bless,
Sarah
I think this will be the beginning of great changes for you! I will hold extra good thoughts for you in the coming days.
Your courage is very commendable.
God Bless,
Sarah
Sharonn, Thinking of you this morning. You are doing a great thing for yourself. You are one strong lady. Wishing you only the best of luck. Check in and let us know how things are going when you can. Take Care, Shantel
Good luck Sharon.
I know you can do it! We will al be pulling for you.....
peaceout
dtroitj
I know you can do it! We will al be pulling for you.....
peaceout
dtroitj
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Sharon,That's called surrender and accepting the fact that you have no control over your addiction.I think you should stay the 30 days not may .
Your decision not to get on Sub is a smart one IMO.I think it would serve you well to get all the opiates out of your system to actually see where your pain level really is.
Do not fight this or the people that are trying to help you and it will go a lot smoother.I think you are going to be really surprised how well you will do.
This is not a "cake walk" and you will have to fight to get the results you want.
I can't wait to hear about your progress.
Good Luck
Sharon,
I'm so glad you've decided to take the plunge. Go for the full 30 -- you deserve the time and attention.
I can't wait to see you again clean, happy, healthy. Good luck!
Love,
Gina
I'm so glad you've decided to take the plunge. Go for the full 30 -- you deserve the time and attention.
I can't wait to see you again clean, happy, healthy. Good luck!
Love,
Gina
Good luck Sharonn! I'll be holding good thoughts for you. Relax and take it easy. Don't worry about anything else right now. Take good care and I can't wait to hear from you when you get back.
Love,
DeNae
DeNae....Buckwheat? LOL! Thank you all...I have no idea what to expect this time because I am on a lot more...I have to surrender for sure. Post you when I am clean....gotta get ready.Love, S
Sharon I read you MAY? stay? May Stay? 30 days? You better stay 30 days.
I am thriled for you.
Jeff
I am thriled for you.
Jeff
Sharon...you are probably in your room right now. Fear is perhaps gripping you at this very moment. I just want you to know that you are not alone.
You have displayed so much courage. No one deserves this more than you do. Just by your posting here your journey to recovery is so powerful to those on the fringe of going to detox and rehab!
How incredibly brave of you. You are one that suffers from a chronic debilitating illness. Please for all you wondering and fearing whether or not rehab is for you. Take a look at Sharon! She has done it! So can you!
Keep us posted sweetheart!! All our thoughts and prayers are right here with you. What an amazing blessing your are!
Right everyone!!! Courage like I have never seen! You are the hero of the day!!
Good luck...we are right here waiting and rooting for you!
You have displayed so much courage. No one deserves this more than you do. Just by your posting here your journey to recovery is so powerful to those on the fringe of going to detox and rehab!
How incredibly brave of you. You are one that suffers from a chronic debilitating illness. Please for all you wondering and fearing whether or not rehab is for you. Take a look at Sharon! She has done it! So can you!
Keep us posted sweetheart!! All our thoughts and prayers are right here with you. What an amazing blessing your are!
Right everyone!!! Courage like I have never seen! You are the hero of the day!!
Good luck...we are right here waiting and rooting for you!
Sharron, we haven't talked in a while (I haven't been around much) I had to say, I am so happy for you! I know how hard it is to go to rehab and not leave in 10 minutes. I truely wish you all the best, I hope the place you are going to is nice and not to scary. This is it girl, it's your time!!! Some one said to stay the 30 days and give yourself some me time. I must say that is 1 of the things I wish I did. I rushed home when I should have stayed and worked on me. Because I came home so soon I relapsed 20 or so hours later because I was in wd from the meth I got at rehab. Be selfish and stay for YOU.
