This is incredibly scary. I don't know you, you don't know me, but i'm alone and desperate. I was abusing oxy and percs for the past two years, they came readily because my boyfriend is a quad who uses pain meds. I have a long history of depression and discovered that the pills would keep me going - taking care of him, working full time and taking care of my two teenage kids. Couldn't do it anymore though, go physically sick from not taking care of myself just popping more pills. I've been clean for two weeks today, the hot flashes and nausea are gone, but the panic attacks are horrible. Can't eat much (developed a bleeding ulcer), can't sleep much (wake up in a panic), not working (no energy because i've become anemic also)... the money's gone, don't know what to do.... Don't know what I'm looking for here. A knight in shining armor to save me. If I didn't have the kids I know exactly what I'd do because it can't be anyworse six feet under...
Good morning, I don't have the right to even reply to you because i have not even made it one day clean.. but i just wanted to let you know you are not alone. Do you have access to a doctor who can help you with what you are experiencing now? Did you go cold turkey? I also have 3 grand daughters living with me so i know what you mean about staying alive for them.. 2 weeks is a very good start and i have read that it does take awhile.. please hang in there and there are people on here who can help you along the way.. you are not alone
Jackib:
First, congratulations on your 2 weeks. That's a huge accomplishment in and of itself. It shows the kind of strength and courage you have. What might help for the fatigue is a vitamin regimen heavy on iron and B vitamins, especially B-12. Is there a doctor or clinic that you can go to to express some of the thoughts you are having? If you are having suicidal thoughts and panic attacks, there may be a anti-depressant that can help significantly. Many on this Board have found that anti-depressants can be very useful early in recovery, and perhaps longer, since it takes a while for our brain chemistry to re-adjust after taking the pain pills for so longs. Finally, have you thought about going to an NA or AA meeting in your area? Just going and listening, maybe shaking a hand or two? You don't have to be alone in this. There are many who have been where you are, who won't judge you, and who can help you through these rough times. God Bless, M.
First, congratulations on your 2 weeks. That's a huge accomplishment in and of itself. It shows the kind of strength and courage you have. What might help for the fatigue is a vitamin regimen heavy on iron and B vitamins, especially B-12. Is there a doctor or clinic that you can go to to express some of the thoughts you are having? If you are having suicidal thoughts and panic attacks, there may be a anti-depressant that can help significantly. Many on this Board have found that anti-depressants can be very useful early in recovery, and perhaps longer, since it takes a while for our brain chemistry to re-adjust after taking the pain pills for so longs. Finally, have you thought about going to an NA or AA meeting in your area? Just going and listening, maybe shaking a hand or two? You don't have to be alone in this. There are many who have been where you are, who won't judge you, and who can help you through these rough times. God Bless, M.
Jacki.........good morning. You have come to the right place, do not be scared to post everything you want and let the good people here help you.
As the others stated, you have already come a very long way with two weeks behind you and should be very proud! Congratulations! And you should contact a doctor and get some extra help with what you have described. There are doctors you can tell your story to who will help you. Do it!
It is obvious you are a loving, nurturing person. Now you need to love and nurture yourself. So many people need and love you. Your strength and that love will see you through. You can do this!
Come here anytime to chat, get advice, vent, etc.
We are all just a bunch of addicts and are no better than you. You just may be able to help some of us.
Take care of yourself today.
I quit taking pills in September (I relapsed at the end of November).
The anxiety DOES get better after about two weeks.... I suffered from panic attacks before this, so they were really bad. I would wake up scared to death, in a panic, with the fight or flight syndrome kicking in..... I understand how you feel. Could your doctor prescribe something to help you sleep just for a week or two? To me, that helped more than anything.... Once I started getting rest, my body responded and the fatigue, anxiety, etc seemed to lessen and lessen.
Like None said, B vitamins work great. I also ate A LOT of fruits and vegetables (I chopped them up and put them in EVERYTHING).... and exercise as much as possible... nothing too hard, just ride your bike or walk or go for a light jog.
The anxiety DOES get better after about two weeks.... I suffered from panic attacks before this, so they were really bad. I would wake up scared to death, in a panic, with the fight or flight syndrome kicking in..... I understand how you feel. Could your doctor prescribe something to help you sleep just for a week or two? To me, that helped more than anything.... Once I started getting rest, my body responded and the fatigue, anxiety, etc seemed to lessen and lessen.
Like None said, B vitamins work great. I also ate A LOT of fruits and vegetables (I chopped them up and put them in EVERYTHING).... and exercise as much as possible... nothing too hard, just ride your bike or walk or go for a light jog.
