For me I have only been fully aware of two prominent feelings. Anger and Sadness. That sucks. I mean, that's "discouraging". It is a struggle everyday to remember to practice expressing my feelings from my list of many. Near the end I cried when I was high. No amount of the drug stopped my sadness, then the guilt came. This confused me. I was told that pot smoking numbs feelings. That's a lie.
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Depression:
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lonely
depressed
lost
empty
discouraged
rejected
helpless
diappointed
hurt
crushed
drained
vulnerable
used
confused
bored
abused
down
sad
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Care, Loving
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caring
loving
sympathy
empathy
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Happiness
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happy
amused
delighted
pleased
cheerful
grateful
surprised
relieved
hopeful
enthusiastic
elated
glad
excited
turned on
joyful
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Inadequacy
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embarassed
ashamed
humiliated
guilty
insecure
ignored
neglected
doubtful
unimportant
regretful
unsure
intimidated
uncertain
left out
unappreciated
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Frustration
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blocked
trapped
burdened
smothered
overwhelmed
frustrated
torn
driven
exasperated
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Adequacy
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competant
confident
determined
proud
fulfilled
capable
needed
secure
appreciated
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Fear, Anxiety
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panicky
frightened
anxious
threatened
scared
worried
afraid
nervous
tense
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Anger, Hostility
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mad
angry
hostile
furious
hate
bitter
irritated
resentful
jealous
disgusted
cheated
agitated
upset
offended
slighted
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At this moment I am feeling hopeful.
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Thanks for this.
I need to get my self in check today because I am unaware of my feelings since getting clean.
I quit doing all other drugs in November but still smoke pot.
I want to stop but I think I would go crazy without it now. My feelings are out of control and it gets intense and not real comfortable.
Thanks for yur ears. any advice? J
I need to get my self in check today because I am unaware of my feelings since getting clean.
I quit doing all other drugs in November but still smoke pot.
I want to stop but I think I would go crazy without it now. My feelings are out of control and it gets intense and not real comfortable.
Thanks for yur ears. any advice? J
Intense feelings can only changed by first having the awareness, kudos to you for figuring that out ! Next, be aware of the thoughts that follow, then your behaviour. It was described to me by a wonderful man in my hospital program who shared that these three things are like circles moving around, overlapping eachother sometimes and not always do they come in the same order. 1.Feeling, 2. thought, 3. behaviour. Fore example, in september, sometimes the behaviour (like pot smoking) came first, then the feelings of dread, then the thoughts of "what a loser I am" came in.
An example in my life yesterday went like this, "I'm feeling restless and panicky." instead of shoving these feelings away, my ACCEPTING thought was "It's just feelings, they're only a part of me, not all of me." then, "What can I do to change things up to comfort me ?" I took deep cleansing breaths, in through the nose, out through the mouth, called my son, talked for a bit, went for a drive to see him and focus on his life for a change, came home, had a bath, read a bit. My feelings dissipated and I went to bed feeling content and proud that I took care of my needs.
Hope this makes sense, Justin, I'm in bit of a rush to go out and buy a "bionical" for my other son before the store closes. :-) let me know, ok ?
An example in my life yesterday went like this, "I'm feeling restless and panicky." instead of shoving these feelings away, my ACCEPTING thought was "It's just feelings, they're only a part of me, not all of me." then, "What can I do to change things up to comfort me ?" I took deep cleansing breaths, in through the nose, out through the mouth, called my son, talked for a bit, went for a drive to see him and focus on his life for a change, came home, had a bath, read a bit. My feelings dissipated and I went to bed feeling content and proud that I took care of my needs.
Hope this makes sense, Justin, I'm in bit of a rush to go out and buy a "bionical" for my other son before the store closes. :-) let me know, ok ?
