I was just thinking how great it would be if we all lived in the same town (I only live in a little town - it takes about an hour to walk from one side to the other). We'd all have such a riot! I gotta say, I've not got many close friends. When I came off heroin, I ditched just about everybody I knew, and I'm very cagey about opening up to people round here. I get really lonely sometimes.
Me and him haven't been getting on very well recently. Well, I don't think we ever really got on that well. We got on well for two weeks in 2005, and that's when our daughter was conceived, but it's a crappy relationship over all. And since I got the house it's being going downhill.
I love talking to all my friends on here, and I so wish we could all hang out together. We'd make a right motley crue! But it would be so so cool if we could just pop round to each others houses and have a good old chinwag, coz it's so hard to find good people, and I'm so tired of being lonely.
I took the baby to a baby massage group this morning. It was really nice to meet the other mums and play with each others babies, but I couldn't imagine telling them about my heinous past! I did it once, in a writers circle, read out one of my blinders, about heroin addiction, a really gritty and honest little number. It was mostly middle class, middle aged men and women, writing travel books. And I came along, my words crafted from the street ("The street, the bad ole street!" thank you johnnie lee...). Looking back, it was a scream, but they didn't know how to take me. Well, they said, you certainly write well... The world just ain't ready for me yet... Don't think it ever will be. We're doomed! We're all doomed!
love
Diff x
Yes ..Diff ..a motley crew would sum up us lot on here...sumtimes i think if i won the lotto i could pay for all of us to get together..but the question would be where...some place sunny and chilled out i suppose...it would be a riot .I am in a similar position as you as far as freinds go...ive got my work and Sian so i aint got much time to go out..not that i feel the need...a spliff and a good book pleases me just as much...but its a grat idea..coz most of us connect on many levals.Take care......Davey
I got an empty house right on the beach, next to the Indian ocean in South Africa we could use. That's a real chilled out place, and they've got fantastic Malawi, a carrier bag full for around 10. I'm off there in February... And my folks live next door, the closest you can get to in-house baby sitters!
I got an empty house about a mile from the beach in Llanelli if you're interested, but ya gotta bring your paintbrush (LOL). It's nearly done now. Just the dining room, the bathroom and the stairs, hall and landing to go. It's gonna be pukka!
But no Indian ocean, alas...
love
Diff x
I got an empty house about a mile from the beach in Llanelli if you're interested, but ya gotta bring your paintbrush (LOL). It's nearly done now. Just the dining room, the bathroom and the stairs, hall and landing to go. It's gonna be pukka!
But no Indian ocean, alas...
love
Diff x
Also Diff about the other mums you met at the baby class..im not saying yer lucky but it helps ..as a single dad you just dont have that support to fall back on...when Sian was in a creche i was the only dad picking my child up and was looked upon as some kinda suspcious person ..if ya get me.Im not for those dads who dress up as superman and unfurl banners but i know how alienated they feel....just my angle.Take care.......Davey
I can't find my Passport.........I know it's around here someplace.
We are eachothers rock sometimes, ain't we? You're right Diff.
Diff, I know exactly how you feel.........no matter how long it's been......and no matter where........in the back of my mind is like "Do they know this about me? Can they see I'm a recovering heroin addict? I am not like them"......pretty much everybody got a skeleton in the closet and the past is just that, Diff.....it's your past.........carry on at baby massage just like the other mom's.
Davey, right? It's 2007 and still dad's are looked at crooked if you're the lone parent. Actually, I was seeing this little cartoon this morning and it's bunny rabbits, and it's all about Miffy's MOM........I thought well some kids ain't got a mom ya know and then what? There's ageism, and sexism, and race wars and religious differences.....it all abounds.........so where does this parental thing fall I wonder?
You unfurling a banner.........I so know that would make world news. LOL Heck with them people look at ya crooked........they're backwards, Davey.
So, we all gone to South Africa then........I wanna go to that FIVE STAR restraunt Diff speaks of........WOOT!!!!!!!
We are eachothers rock sometimes, ain't we? You're right Diff.
Diff, I know exactly how you feel.........no matter how long it's been......and no matter where........in the back of my mind is like "Do they know this about me? Can they see I'm a recovering heroin addict? I am not like them"......pretty much everybody got a skeleton in the closet and the past is just that, Diff.....it's your past.........carry on at baby massage just like the other mom's.
Davey, right? It's 2007 and still dad's are looked at crooked if you're the lone parent. Actually, I was seeing this little cartoon this morning and it's bunny rabbits, and it's all about Miffy's MOM........I thought well some kids ain't got a mom ya know and then what? There's ageism, and sexism, and race wars and religious differences.....it all abounds.........so where does this parental thing fall I wonder?
You unfurling a banner.........I so know that would make world news. LOL Heck with them people look at ya crooked........they're backwards, Davey.
So, we all gone to South Africa then........I wanna go to that FIVE STAR restraunt Diff speaks of........WOOT!!!!!!!
Yeah that would be great... all my old mates still use so i stay away, i still speak to them but not for long periods of time.... too many memories. Right everyone put the lotto on on Sat! I will, and i'll take you all to Phuket, aussie, thialand ..anywhere when i win... i Promise!!!
Don't worry i'll pay for the Babysitters..do you think " supernanny will be free?" LOL
Don't worry i'll pay for the Babysitters..do you think " supernanny will be free?" LOL
Kev..supernanny as in the Sun paper?if so id bring her along coz shes a bit of alrite anyway...........and the winning numbers are..............Davey
Funny Diff ,I often wish the same thing- - if only for a weekend
davey it's glasses.....they thick rimmed ones... oh what they make women look real nice!!!
Yeh Kev...and that stern/serious look shes got going on ..does it for me...yeh we will bring her along ...but i get first chance to chat her up...o.k......Davey
i've thought how cool it would to get to meet the people from this board. the closest mile wise to me would be Brynn. I've yet to form ANY new friendship after kicking H. I still have the mind set I am not like them. I still don't know how to relate to other non using people. I depend on this board a good deal. It would be geat if we all lived closer.
I'm having a right chitty day. I've put off this hep c testing for a while now. Thing is I use to tell myself EVERYONE caught it after i quit. That's pretty navie at the least. I know the circle i used with 4-5 people ALL every single one have it. The last to test + was my old rommie he told my mom yesterday he has it too. His sister tested + back when my brother did. My ex bf tested + when he went to prison. So that's everyone now. I'm getting some signs of it too have had for a while.I'm starting to think the chances i have it are far better then that i don't. I can't see how everyone has tested + i'ld not have it!. We always shared works. . They did use after i quit but CRAP i used with them for nearly 4 years. The baby's doctor said it usually don't show in babies under 18 months. I feel real bad at the thought i might have gave it to Robbie!. I'm nearly 100% sure i have it. Baby's doc said even if i do it that don't mean he will have it for sure. I can only hope. She said the rate of hep c mother to child transmittion is low Approximately 7-8%.
I'm having a right chitty day. I've put off this hep c testing for a while now. Thing is I use to tell myself EVERYONE caught it after i quit. That's pretty navie at the least. I know the circle i used with 4-5 people ALL every single one have it. The last to test + was my old rommie he told my mom yesterday he has it too. His sister tested + back when my brother did. My ex bf tested + when he went to prison. So that's everyone now. I'm getting some signs of it too have had for a while.I'm starting to think the chances i have it are far better then that i don't. I can't see how everyone has tested + i'ld not have it!. We always shared works. . They did use after i quit but CRAP i used with them for nearly 4 years. The baby's doctor said it usually don't show in babies under 18 months. I feel real bad at the thought i might have gave it to Robbie!. I'm nearly 100% sure i have it. Baby's doc said even if i do it that don't mean he will have it for sure. I can only hope. She said the rate of hep c mother to child transmittion is low Approximately 7-8%.
Zero Girl, go and take the test, i've had about 4 over the years over my over active imagination..... it done my head in. Even if you do, which really hope you don't theres so uch help for it nowadays..herceptin ect. Keep us posted, thinking of you, Kev
Zg...goe get a test ...its the only way yer gonna put yerself at ease...or get treatment if its a positive...i get tested every 6mnths or so ..its mandatory at the methd.clinic i attend....but like you i have shared works with people...a few times knowing they had hep c....just bleach out the works and i would be o.k was my mantra..what a fool i was.Hope it works out for ya....Take care....Davey
zero--girlie stop stressin it aint a death sentence unless you plan on continuing heavy addiction or drinking a gallon of scotch a day-- i have it but because i take care of myself they say it won't ever be an issue--they have ways to get rid of it too--so dont worry and quit beating yourself upp--you cannot change the past--they have ways of keeping it from passing to a baby
i would love to go on vacation with all of you i would bea little shy but im sure youd all bring me outta it--im so tired i moved out of that place and getting my own spot through a second chance program 525 a month for a 2 bedroom townhome all utilities paid--and freedom--yeah im so happy but i sure miss my friends and im sure if youve gone through treatment you know that we always say yeah wee great fiends we'll keep in touch--but we never do i barely have time or energy to wipe my butt much less hang out--love y'all i better go im holding up my fellow workers--dont ever change for no-one but yourself
i would love to go on vacation with all of you i would bea little shy but im sure youd all bring me outta it--im so tired i moved out of that place and getting my own spot through a second chance program 525 a month for a 2 bedroom townhome all utilities paid--and freedom--yeah im so happy but i sure miss my friends and im sure if youve gone through treatment you know that we always say yeah wee great fiends we'll keep in touch--but we never do i barely have time or energy to wipe my butt much less hang out--love y'all i better go im holding up my fellow workers--dont ever change for no-one but yourself
ZERO GIRL confession my b/f also has it i was to ashamed to tell anyone b4 now, he found out when he was in jail and i was pregnant on our son "jack" i went straight away for tests and luckily enough they came back negetive , it was only last night that his symptoms started showing but it could also be a kidney infection the way he described them to me ,but i dont know if this is just me wanting it to be a minor infection than facing up to the truth . i understand 100% why you are not rushing for tests done because sometimes "what you dont know doesnt hurt you " but at the same time you have got to have that test done sooner than later . good luck and keep us posted xxxxxxxxxxx
HCV.......I remember when my ex bf first found out he had it.........FREAKED out, was moping about constantly......i said to him...well apparently you have had it for yrs, so the only difference from yesterday is you didnt know you had it.......so could well freak one out.........Me i have it, have for yrs....cant afford to take off work to do treatment, but so far liver levels havent been so bad..........if you do have it, they wil most likely do a biopsy to see the extent of the damage........requires lifestyle changes, such as no sharing of certain implements.......razors etc.....well one wouldnt usually share those anyways......but nail clippers, toothbrushes, anything that could transmit blood.....as for robbie, it is very rare to pass it from mother to child during childbirth.........right now u r only driving yourself crazy wondering, worrying.....perhaps u dont even have it, and if you do, then you can deal with it and alleviate some of the anxiety by becoming pro-active in dealing with it.......It is not a death sentence and amazing how many ppl actually have it.......
Hi z-g, I too was a little worried that I may have contracted it, but over here pregnant women are routinely tested for everything under the sun, including hep and hiv, and I was clear. As has already been said, it ain't a death sentence, but the sooner you get tested the sooner you can start any appropriate treatment. My friend has hep c, and has had two babies, both of whom are completely healthy, as is her partner. The worrying is worse than anything else. Go get yourself tested.
love
Diff xxx
love
Diff xxx
I feel like i stole the post sorry DIFF. The meeting eachother in person really would Rock.
I thought i would have been tested when i was pregnant. Come to find out they tested for hep b BUT NOT C. My doctor said you have to request hep c it's not just done.
I know it's not as big a deal as say HIV. My baby's doctor did say the % is very low from mother to child less then 7ish%.. I had a insurence change my doc no longer accepts the new plan i'm on. I did get a new doc can't get in to see him till oct.10th. From what i've been reading like 80% of the time there are no signs of hep c. What i have going on is VERY very easy bruising my baby leaves marks so dose just bumping into stuff. I'm having swollen feet &ankles and joint pain. eyesight problems my vision has got a lot worse is often blury i just went to the eye doc. Every so often i get sweats and chills i'll run a low fever for a day then it'll be gone. I had this crazy mouth sore that took FOREVER to heal. LOL getting clean i feel like i'm falling apart!. I've had real bad hip pain ever since the baby was born i tell rob the baby broke me.
I thought i would have been tested when i was pregnant. Come to find out they tested for hep b BUT NOT C. My doctor said you have to request hep c it's not just done.
I know it's not as big a deal as say HIV. My baby's doctor did say the % is very low from mother to child less then 7ish%.. I had a insurence change my doc no longer accepts the new plan i'm on. I did get a new doc can't get in to see him till oct.10th. From what i've been reading like 80% of the time there are no signs of hep c. What i have going on is VERY very easy bruising my baby leaves marks so dose just bumping into stuff. I'm having swollen feet &ankles and joint pain. eyesight problems my vision has got a lot worse is often blury i just went to the eye doc. Every so often i get sweats and chills i'll run a low fever for a day then it'll be gone. I had this crazy mouth sore that took FOREVER to heal. LOL getting clean i feel like i'm falling apart!. I've had real bad hip pain ever since the baby was born i tell rob the baby broke me.
yeah, having babies isn't good for your health! I've had terrible joint pain since having her, especially in my wrists. It's so annoying! I'm on really strong anti-inflammatory pain killers, but I'm going back to my Dr, coz I can hardly pick my girl up any more. Mind you, she is a great lump! She's a big girl, not a fat baby, but just long and very solid. She's been driving me nuts since she learned roly-poly. Changing her nappy is a real challenge coz she's fighting with me, wanting to roll over all the time. And she's in that "almost crawling" stage, where she fights with the floor. She can get her arse up in the air, and her shoulders, but not at the same time. But she's practicing real hard, bless her!
In this country we tend to take free health care for granted. I had excellent antenatal care, because of my past drug history. They monitored me and babs very closely throughout - I dread to think of how much that would cost in the states!
take care
love
diff x
In this country we tend to take free health care for granted. I had excellent antenatal care, because of my past drug history. They monitored me and babs very closely throughout - I dread to think of how much that would cost in the states!
take care
love
diff x
ZG How's things today? Diff you're right, we take it so for granted..... and we( the voters...well not me ha ha ) moan like f***
PMSL about your wee one trying to crawl... class
PMSL about your wee one trying to crawl... class
