HI GUYS, WELL THIS IS MY FIRST DAY CLEAN AGAIN FOR A WHILE, TELL YOU THE TRUTH, ITS A NICE FEELING THAT I WANTED BACK FOR SO SO LONG. TWO PEOPLE I DO NEED TO THANK IS PAM FOR SUPPORT SHE HAS GIVEN ME AN BECKS, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! I DONT THINK IF IT WAS FOR POSTING AGAIN I WOULDNT BE STARTING FRESH. WHAT MADE ME CLICK TODAY IS WHEN PAM SPOKE TO ME ON MSN, THIS IS SOME THING THAT IS SPECIAL TO ME AND I WONT FORGET THE WORDS
'HOPE YOU HAVNT USED TODAY, TOMMOROW, OR THE DAY AFTER'
THIS DID HIT ME.... PEOPLE DO CARE, WITH THAT I TOOK MY SUBBYS AND AM HAVING A DECENT DAY AS IT GOES NOT CLUCKING AND HAVNT GOT THE TORTURE OF THE MIND GAMES BUT THAT WILL COME IN DUE COURSE, AS IT ALL WAYS DOES.
TELL THE TRUTH WRITING THIS IS BRINGING TEARS TO MY EYES I DONT CARE WHAT PEOPLE THINK BUT IT TAKES A MAN TO CRY AN SHOW HIS FEELINGS. JUST ALL THE TORMENT IVE BEEN THROUGH HAS NOW COME TO THAT CROOSROAD AGAIN AND ITS TIME TO SAY LATERS TO THAT SH*T LIFE AND WAKE UP A NORMAL PERSON AGAIN.
I KNOW IVE GOT A LONG BATTLE AGAINST ME NOT LIKE I HAVNT DONE IT BEFORE. THE SLEEPNESS NIGHTS THE ANGER, HATE, BUT LOOK AT THE OTHER SIDE OF THE COIN I ALWAYS SAY AND THOSE DISSALUSIONS WILL DISSAPPEAR AND THEN SERENITY WILL APPEAR BEFORE ME. ITS HARD TO DEAL WITH A LONG TERM ADDICTION BUT THE PEOPLE ON THIS BOARD DO HELP, BELEIVE ME ITS KEEPING ME SAIN AT THE MOMENT.
IM PROUD OF MYSELF I BLOODY WELL SHOULD BE AS IT TOOK A BIG STEP TO GET THIS FAR AND I KNOW I GOT PLENTY MORE STEPS TO CLIMB TILL I REACH MY GOAL. WHAT I DO KNOW IS IT CAN BE DONE, MAY TAKE TIME BUT IN THE END IT WILL ALL WORK OUT TO THE WAY I WANT IT.
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Charlie i am normally on the coke board but i wonder about.
Hello
Its brilliant 1 st day clean i want to wish you the best of luck with your recovery.
Well done see ya around.
Emily
Hello
Its brilliant 1 st day clean i want to wish you the best of luck with your recovery.
Well done see ya around.
Emily
Hi Charlie - best news I have had all day - mine has been a mare of a day. I knew you could do it - you have before and you will get there. Within a few days you will be back into full swing of things and will feel even prouder of yourself for trying again. And I feel kinda proud thinking that maybe we helped you a little too. That's what we are here for and you have been here in your time giving advice and support to others. I'm not on the site very often these days - just the last couple again - I've been busy working and checking out this normal life. So I hope today hasn't been too uncomfortable for you and that you do the same tomorrow. You deserve it mate and this is the first time I have thought this since I was a teenager that being straight is actually a buzz in itself. Im just learning though - so it is still gonna take me time too.
Come back and I will check back soon on you's too.
Take care.
Beck
Come back and I will check back soon on you's too.
Take care.
Beck
..Charlie..
..Good to hear your on day one mate..keep faith in yourself and you will find the strength to guide you thru..you know wots coming as you said..so at least you can prepare your mind for the bad days and nights..but it will get better in time..and life is nice to live drug free..good luck in staying off the gear and anytime you need a chat im normally about..take it easy and enjoy your weekend..Robbie..
..Good to hear your on day one mate..keep faith in yourself and you will find the strength to guide you thru..you know wots coming as you said..so at least you can prepare your mind for the bad days and nights..but it will get better in time..and life is nice to live drug free..good luck in staying off the gear and anytime you need a chat im normally about..take it easy and enjoy your weekend..Robbie..
CHEERS EMILY, BECCI, ROBBIE AN PAM, NICE TO KNOW PEOPLE DO CARE, I KNOW ITS ALL DOWN TO ME BUT IT IS REALLY NICE TO KNOW THAT PEOPLE DO CARE OUT THERE AND IM THERE FOR ANY ONE WHO NEEDS HELP!! WE AL KNOW ITS HARD..I WAS CLEAN FOR 2 YRS NEARLY SO BEING BACK WERE I AM IS A BIG STEP BACK YOU KNOW! ALL I CAN DO IS TRECK FORWARD ALONG WITH THE REST OF THE RECOVERING ADDICTS AND NOT LQQK BACK ON THE PAST AS PAST IS HISTORY AN IN MY BOOKS SHOULD BE FORGOTON. ONLY REMEMEBER THE BAD TIMES WHEN YOU FEEL THE URGE TO RELAPSE TO BRING BACK THE MISSERY IT CAUSED. IT CAN WORK FOR ME AN I HOPE IT DOES TIME WILL TELL AYE! GOT THIS FEELING THAT ITS GONNA THIS TIME ONLY GOOD THOUGHTS IN MY HEAD WILL BRING THIS TO AN END.
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Best of luck to you Charlie!
Keep giving yourself a chance and change will come!
All the best to you!
Keep giving yourself a chance and change will come!
All the best to you!
Hey Charlie, good for you....you cry all you want because we're allowed to cry.
Men or women.....if we didn't I don't think we'd want if bad enough....that world we know as "normals"....one day is a huge milestone....you have the right attitude you do.
See this....just now you helped me....I'm coming up on two years soon clean.
Recently it's crossed my mind to just do a bag or so....recreational like...O.K.
truth be told it's hounding me BAD....right before I jumped on here...I was thinking about it...where'd I get it....how much loot I had....too scared to go cop for myself....who can I give a bag to to get me one....all the madness, and it's almost two years....you just now showed me straight up....there ain't no recreational use of heroin....thoughts...once backed up by motivation/action I'd probably had that all sorted out....and had five bags in me tomorrow...so thanks Charlie....know you helped someone else....you just hang tough....keep in there, and you know how good it is on the other side.
Men or women.....if we didn't I don't think we'd want if bad enough....that world we know as "normals"....one day is a huge milestone....you have the right attitude you do.
See this....just now you helped me....I'm coming up on two years soon clean.
Recently it's crossed my mind to just do a bag or so....recreational like...O.K.
truth be told it's hounding me BAD....right before I jumped on here...I was thinking about it...where'd I get it....how much loot I had....too scared to go cop for myself....who can I give a bag to to get me one....all the madness, and it's almost two years....you just now showed me straight up....there ain't no recreational use of heroin....thoughts...once backed up by motivation/action I'd probably had that all sorted out....and had five bags in me tomorrow...so thanks Charlie....know you helped someone else....you just hang tough....keep in there, and you know how good it is on the other side.
Charlie - just checking in on you's mate. How was the weekend? You still sticking to the subbies? Let us know how you are. Remember we are all here to help if that is what you need.
Beck
Beck
congrats i know how you feel this is my second day without anything but my meth im hoping to keep going
